I wish that I could say that I'm over you
My mind so badly wants to forget
But at night when I close my eyes
Your face resurfaces
Every time I hear your name
My lungs want to turn themselves inside out
And burst out of my mouth
To get closer to you
I clench my teeth shut
And feel them fight against my molars
And I try to pretend that
You aren't still my oxygen
You come too close
And my broken heart
Beats twice as fast
And my blood is tired
From being raced through my veins
Like greyhounds around a track
My aura is a bruise
Purple and black and blue
It turns red if you press too hard
And it always throbs with
My tired blood and my anxious heart
You send me into overdrive
And I close my eyes
And clench my jaw
And I fight against myself
What choice have you left me
You have left me behind
Like I never mattered
But I know
That you still have control