Allyson

"Don't die..." that was the last thing I heard before the darkness took over

***********

Time Heals.

It will get better.

The pain won't last forever.

I spent most of my life believing in those lies.

It's funny how I grew up and learnt to deal with things better. It's just sad that I'm still dealing with the same things I did back then. I guess now I know what they meant when they said things get better with time.

But this isn't what I expected.

Here I am after years of fighting my emotions still back at square one.

The pain.

The anger.

The regret.

It's all constant.

Lurking in the shadows, waiting for you to feel an inkling of happiness only to burst through the cracks to remind you that happiness is temporary. To remind you how insignificant you are.

I know a bad childhood or experience is no excuse to be a shitty person.

But what if those experiences are what moulds you?

The trauma and hurt shapes you. It runs so deep in you that the thought of getting better scares you. Scares you because you don't know what to feel when all you've ever felt was darkness.

As a little girl, I always had this fantasy. Of disappearing - running far away from everything I've ever known. Start fresh.

I grew up only to realise I escaped myself a long time ago. For things I had no control over.

This isn't the story of a broken girl.

This isn't the story of a little girl growing up and finding herself.

This isn't a story about finding the light at the end of the tunnel.

There is no tunnel, only oblivion.

Hi,

My name is Allyson Summers. I am 19 years old. I am a senior at Rockville University and this is my story.

This is the story of how I grew up.

This is the story of how I realised things I already knew.

This is the story of how I tried to heal.

This is the story of how I lost my mind.

This is the story of how I lost my will to live.

This is the story of how I ended up in someone else's house in the middle of the night, with a knife to my throat.

**********

Hey Guys!

I'm Natalie, thank you so much for clicking on this book and giving it a shot.

Hope y'all enjoyed this prologue.

Enjoy your stay lovelies

So hit that little star in the corner of your screen if you're curious to know more. And please do comment your thoughts as I love reading them and it honestly keeps me motivated to write better.