I'M ALIVE!! Ok sooooo here's the new chap I guess. Should probably get to it but first....ANNOUNCEMENTS!!

#1: SHOUTOUT!! Shoutout to mgw1412 for her AMAZING book...."UNTHINKABLE". OMG that book. THAT BOOK!! That was one of the sweetest and most cutest things I've ever read. THE FEELS!!

#2:I'm sorry I haven't been posting but I'll get there....hopefully. Still typing on my laptop but on freakin notepad cuz my microsoft office doesn't work. DO U KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS!! NO MORE AUTOCORRECT!! Soooo expect alot of spelling errors. I'm disappointed in u Robin. Ummm.... that's the name of my laptop hehe. Anyway moving on..

#3: I will be renaming my chapters! Don't ask me why.....Jus feels right.

#4: Is it weird that I ship Youtubers?? PLEASE ANSWER THAT QUESTION!! I NEED TO KNOW!! If u don't think so, please comment the youtubers u ship!! Hey gimme a break, I can't help fangirling sometimes or my newly developed youtube addiction alright.

DISCLAIMER: I clearly don't own  The Hunger Games because if I did,well we all know how it would've ended am I right? Haha anyway.....

And horrible it was!  "What about this velvet ones?", the tad too bubbly store attendant asked my mother and Prim as she showed them a deep red tablecloth with flowered edges. This lady might as well be a Capitolite with her over the top personality and colourful clothes though not nearly as ridiculous. I lay back on the plush chair I was given with my cheek resting in my hand watching the store attendant gush over the table display she set up in a desperate attempt to make a sale. I guess she doesn't usually get any customers. Well there's not much demand for things like tablecloths in district 12 of all places. Honestly, what was this woman thinking? Oh well. She also kinda reminds me of the trainer at the edible plants section back in the capi......NO! I don't want to remember. I wanna forget. I'm immediately disgusted with the thought that managed to weasel itself into my head. I refuse to think of that horrible place and anything associated with it. I try to focus my mind on the second display but I can't seem to hold my focus and eventually my mind derails. My mother and Prim notice that i'm taking no interest in whatever's happening so they just leave me be and for that, I am greatful. Is this what my life has come to? Sitting on fancy chairs in expensive clothing deciding on how I want to dress my table? And what next? Will I turn into a stuck up capitolite like snob, wearing clothes that look like they got designed and made in the dark, speaking in a ridiculous high pitched accent, become a gossip and wear wildly uncomfortable shoes for the rest of my life? Hell no! Trying to save myself from that predicament, I stand up and march through the front door without a word. I admit that was a little rude but as of now, I cant find it in myself to care. 

It's a cold winter evening, around five-ish I think. I take a deep breath and fill my lungs with the air of my district. Sure it smells like coal dust but I'd take that over the artificial smell of the Capitol any day. I walk down the street on my way home. And by home I mean my home in the Seam not back at the Victors Village. That place is not my home. "House" is as good as it's ever going to get. I've been going to my home in the Seam for a while now. Mostly just to escape everything since I can't hunt with Gale everyday anymore. I tried doing it alone before I saw him today but it was unbearably boring and I'd hate to say it, kinda pointless. I don't need the game anymore now that I have the Capitols' filthy money. I would hunt for the Hawthornes but I'm still trying to find a way to sneak it past Gale. Sometimes I would take Prim with me and I like to pretend we still live there as crazy as it sounds. She tries to seem happy for my sake but I know for a fact that she really enjoys living in the Victors' Village. Yes, my little sisters' always had a taste for pretty things. I remember when she would drag me over to the bakery just to see the beautifully decorated cakes Peeta......No, No. I'm trying to distance my self from the games and I can't think of anything that reminds me of it and sadly that includes Peeta. Sure I can't disclose myself from everything. I mean I still use my bow......with difficulty but I don't want to let that go. It's one of the the only things that still connects me to my father. So cutting Peeta out of my thoughts hardly seems fair but I just don't want to talk to him right now given the status of our relationship. And besides, if he really wanted to fix it he would come and talk to me instead of creepily staring from his window. I think it's best if I avoid him for now. No Effie or any other Capitolite here to tell me otherwise. But what was I talking about before this? Oh right. Prim loves living in the Victors' Village. I mean why wouldn't she? She has warm clothes, loads of ribbons and more food than she can eat. I guess this is good for her and I should stop being so selfish. Besides, she doesn't have to know that I'm emotionally and mentally scared for life. I won't put that burden of guilt on her shoulders. As long as she's happy, I'll be fine....sorta. I'll just have to find some way to deal with my problems. 

I just enter the Seam lost in my own thoughts when I see little Posy walking down the street on her own. She looks very frustrated. "Posy!", I called to the little girl. She whipped her head around and saw me.

"Katniss!", she squealed as she ran towards me and wrapped her arms around my legs attempting to give me a hug. I picked the little girl up and gave her a proper hug, when I ask myself, 'what is a 4 year old doing walking on the street alone at this time??' So I decide to ask, "Posy, what are you doing out here by yourself?"

" Today I went to pway at Nina's houwse cause I was bowed. so we were pwaying with bunny and then Nina dwopped him in the mud. Gwoss. Then aftew she said that she didn't dwop him but I saw her do it. So I got weally mad and told her I was weaving", she explained like that reason alone could justify her being alone on the street. 

"Well your not supposed to be walking home by yourself", I tell her pointedly. She looks at me with a guilty  expression and says, "I'm sowy", I try to hold a straight face but who am I kidding, she's too adorable. "Okay but don't do it again. C'mon lets get you home.", I put her back down and we head off to the Hawthornes.  We walk silently for a while until Posy suddenly said,

"We weally missed you Katniss", she blurted out of nowhere. I smiled at her little comment and replied, "I really missed you guys too." But then she stops and looks at me intently and says,

"Gale weally weally missed you.", I stop for a second and try to figure out what she means. Of course  he missed me, he's my best friend. Posy knows that. Before I get a chance to reply back she continues , "He was always angwy when you were gone. He twied to hide it but I knew. When you were on tv with Peeta, He would just get up and weave." Guilt twists my stomach and I stare at her incredulously wondering how in Panem can a four year old make all these observations. Well I guess she is his sister. I just have to remind myself that I'm not the only one who can read him and for some reason, that upsets me. " I don't know why he did it but I think it was because he was jealous." My eyes widen and I stare at her in complete shock. This kid knows more than she lets on so I decide to tentively ask why. " You know....cause he thinks Peetas' your best fwiend now and not him." I sigh in relief and shake my head with a light chuckle.

"No one can ever replace Gale Posy." And as confused as I am about everything, this is the one thing I'm certain of. Gale will always be my best friend. Before I know it, we've reached the Hawthornes'. It's almost sunset and Posy proceeds to take cover behind my legs from her mothers' wrath. I knock on the door and in a few moments someone opens it. Although it's not Hazelle who does, it's Gale. His eyes widen clearly not expecting me being here. A few awkward moments pass until he decides to break the silence. "Oh hi Katniss. What's up?", he asks. It takes me a moment to reply, "Oh. Um..I was walking and I found this on my way home." Posy peeps from behind me with a very very guilty expression on her face.

"Posy?", he glares disapprovingly at her. The little Hawthorne ran from behind me and flung her arms around her older brothers' legs. A very confused Gale looks down at her. She looks up at him with big pleading eyes and suddenly I can tell what's going on. I guess they can silently talk to each other with their eyes too. I pout a little inside which confuses me. Obviously Gale not being able to resist his little sisters' cuteness, sighs and picks her up. "Fine, I won't tell mom but you have to promise that you'll never do that again alright", he says in a serious tone. The little girl beams at him and give him the biggest hug her little arms can give. Gale smiles and says, "Alright, alright" Their moment is suddenly interrupted when Hazelle comes through the door from behind Gale.

"What's going on here?", she asks looking kinda perplexed. Her face softens as soon as she sees me. "Katniss dear!", she exclaims with a broad smile on her face. "What a wonderful surprise." I feel the need to explain why I'm suddenly at her house. I eye Posy and Gale.

"I was..um.. I was just walking by and..um I thought I might ah... swing by and come see you guys real quick." I say while smiling nervously. She looks kinda confused for a brief moment but her smile quickly comes back to her face.

"Well I was just about to start making dinner. I hope you're joining us.", she says very sincerely. "Well I dunno if I.." I get cut off by Hazelle. "Nonsense. I know what you're gonna say and i won't have it. You're staying.", she says in a matter of fact motherly tone like I'm one of her own. I look over at Gale and he just shrugs. "Um..well...I guess I'm staying then." I say seeing that I don't really have a choice not that I don't like spending time with the Hawthornes or anything. I've really missed them actually. Posy squeals and jumps down from Gale's arms happy that I'm staying and also for the fact that her mother didn't ask how she got home in the first place. "Ok come on in everyone!", Hazelle says as she walks into the house. Posy races in probably in search of Vick. I turn to Gale and say, "Well I guess our day isn't over yet." He gives me a small smile.

"Shall we?", He asks while gesturing to the front door. I smile back and we walk in. Well I was hoping to hang around my old place but I guess this is better and I don't have to wait till next Sunday to see Gale.

Aaaaand done! Tbh I finished this a long time ago but I forgot to post it..hehe oops sorry. And I know, I know so far it's pretty boring but trust me, it's going somewhere ok. Yikes I hope it doesn't take me that long to right another chapter again. Oh and also I wrote 2000 words! Okay I know i's mostly cuz of my authors' notes but still..Anyway hope someone is still reading this and if u r then thank u!! Byeeeeeeeee.

Peace.