I find it cliché.

I find many things cliché.

Like how in those stupid white horror movies the main character always trips or follows a sound or tries to talk to something that isn't there.

But..

My life is one. It's full of clichés and terrible choices.

It's like a never-ending nightmare.

But I like this little nightmare of mine.

You guys manage to keep me asleep.

If I ever wake up then..

Who am I kidding?

I want to wake up.

Wake up from this.. Tragedy.

This beautiful tragedy.

I'm a mess, I know..

I'm just a human that builds up a perfect character for itself.

It hides within said character.

Online, I'm able to edit my mistakes and choose decisions.

In real life, I can't do any of that.

I just have to wing it and hope I don't loose another one.

I stutter, I mumble, I fail.

But that's just what makes us human, isn't it?

Ha ha..

Just keep smiling, it's what they all say :)

But you know you can't keep smiling forever.

You have to wake up eventually.

And.. It'll be like a dream.

A very good dream.

Until I'm ready to wake up, I depend on you.

I depend on you to keep me asleep.

Because if I wake up then it's over.

It'll be over.

Every bit of it.

But yes.

There will eventually be a fork in the road and I'll have to choose wether or not if I want to stay asleep and keep fighting through my nightmare or wake up and relive my life. Start new. Build a new reputation.

I will admit, I'll miss the monsters that helped keep me asleep and gave me a chance.

But we all run out of them eventually.

And when that happens...

What will I be?

A faded memory?

A happy dream that you'd forget someday?

Or will I be someone worth remembering?

Someone who you'd care about if they disappear?

I want to fall.

It'll feel like I'm flying.

Until, of course, I reach the bottom.

Anyways..

Thank you.

Thank you all so, so much for helping me through my nightmare.

Please, for the love of God, keep me asleep.

I enjoy opening Wattpad and seeing a notification. It makes me feel like I found a loophole in my nightmare.

So yeah, go ahead.

Keep those requests and comments coming.

I won't always answer, I hope you know that.

But

When that fork in the road comes and I'll have to choose sides, then please.

Don't beg me to stay asleep.

It's my choice.

And if you want to follow me, then fine.

No one is stopping you.

Heh..

I'm sorry.

Stay dreaming, sweet children.

Sincerely Yours For Forever,

Tarrii & Chai