I lost her. I lost my best friend. It was finally going through my mind. Jade wasn't here.

It's been a week. I think. I don't have a calendar. Or a watch. Or freedom. I'm still in Room D01.

I don't get much food. I don't get water. My lips are chapped. I don't even look like myself before.

If I thought the orphanage was hell. Then this is hell's hell. Madam Devil and Delphiniums comes everyday to torture me.

Jade didn't go into her mind like she thought. Jade is somewhere running free. The last thing she told me was to follow the brightest star.

Which star is the brightest?

I trust Jade. I'm have to get out there and find her.

The door slams open and Madam Devil gets to business. She grabs her whip.

When the whip contacts my back I feel it travel through my body. My body is covered in scars. Since Jade is gone my wounds don't heal as fast. They heal like a normal human.

My body is covered with rages and blood. The blood smell fill the air and I don't think I can find Jade. If I don't heal...

"Where is she!?" Another streak.

"I don't know! She's not here!"

"Liar!" Another one. Another one. Another one.
My back is pain itself. I should be dead, but I'm not.

Is Jade keeping me alive somehow? Maybe there is a small connection between us...

She leaves once I blackout. I do this everyday now. She likes hearing my screams. She likes hearing my cries. She likes hearing me pray to the Alpha. To the Moon Goddess.

It's useless. No help comes. Maybe the don't hear me. They have thousands to watch over. Why would they watch my life? They already did something I asked of...

I open my eyes to a white room with blood painted across.

I have nothing. No... I have things... I just lost them. I have Calvin... I have Lily... I have Jake. I have James. I have Rachel... I have Jerrold... I have Diana... I have Annabel... I have Nick... I have Matt... I have Mike... I have my pack... I have my night sky... I have Jade...

Just saying that gives me hope. I'm looking Jade. Everyone else is looking for me. Jade is looking for the stars.

I connect with the stars. We all live under the stars. I paint the stars. I star gaze.

You know, I always wanted a dog. Dogs are nice friends. I got a wolf. My wolf's name isn't Spot or Spike. It's Jade.

I remember agreeing with my class that dogs are better then cats. At the time, I did know. But I do now. I'm a wolf. It makes since. And I still have that belief.

Why I'm think about this? I don't know. Maybe thinking about the time Jade was there will calm me.

At the time I didn't know. I always had someone on my side. Even when I thought I was alone.

A lot of things make sense now. Why did Madam Devil not care when I got headaches? She knew it was Jade. Where she hasn't been the nicest person? She is full darkness. Why has she been nice to some people? The devil can come in many shapes and sizes.

But there are unanswered questions...

Did she take me as a pup? What happened between her and Jake? Could Lily not be Jake's mate? Was Lily a nice wolf that did a bad thing? Or is the devil lying to me?

There is a small truth in every story... Did the Moon Goddess mess up? I mean the Alpha did. Why would he create this war between Jade and Delphiniums? Did he do it? Or did someone else did? Jade mention that they didn't know the exact details.

Why didn't Madam Devil just take Jade from the beginning? Does Madam Devil actually have good in her? No... Jade just started giving her life. Maybe she though she could teach me to rule beside her. Take over my mind.

Is their a way to kill an immortal? Like, now they just transfer into another human or whatever... Is Delphiniums the older sister? Is she the one that was suppose to rule as being the first born? Then Jade came into the picture as the perfect daughter. She was better fitted for the place. A war broke out between the Gods and Goddess. Jade and Delphiniums are Goddess. The Alpha didn't place them on the Earth. Delphiniums did. She has a plan to finish Jade.

I could have been like that... I could have been Delphiniums. I'm the older sister of Matt and Mike. They were kept and I was lost. I could have been the evil with the wolf. Did faith choose me to fight on this side? Or did I somehow chose my side?

The hearth. The hearth picked. That's where everything started at. Where are the Gods and Goddesses now. Did they go into hiding? Are they helping wolfs pick there sides? Are they even apart of this battle?

It doesn't matter. This is a fight between sisters. Between Jade and Delphiniums. Between old and young. Between me and Christiania Devil.

What is the cost if I lose? Why fight? I mean to win and show the persons true colors. Why couldn't they somehow control half their wolf's life? You know, never mind. That was stupid. Jade would be saying that.

I wonder if Calvin let the evilness in him win. Is my pack going down hill?

I pushed the though out of my mind when Madam Devil came back into the room.

I realized how small and weak I am. Blood covered my skin and hair. My eyes color doesn't pop out like it use too. I don't have a spirit. I'm only half. I'm half alive.

The devil stares into my eyes. It's like she's trying to see if Jade is in my head. I would know. She's not...