After i became sobber after having a panic attack.... i came out with Rohit Bhaiya and we both sat on the couch and he sat near me....

Tv dekhegi???(he asked)

Haa.. movies laga do...(i said and he began going through the movie channels and i saw movie SHIDDAT , my favourite movie)

Bhaiya , ye rehnedo ...(i said and bhaiya looked at me and nodded)

And soon Bhuvan came and sat on the other side near me but i shifted a bit towards bhaiya.... and Tushar bhaiya sat on one of the single couches....

Except Shrawani no one was able to tackle me while i had panic attack but today Bhuvan tackled me so nicely.... he even tried to start conversation with me but I didn't wanted to talk at all as i knew i would not be able to hold back myself.... when he held me by my waist so that I would not fall , his touch felt oddly good or protective but I instantly moved away and went near bhaiya and held his hand.....

I dont want to trust someone when I'm at my weakest, once i did and ended up getting more hurt .... ended up being more used.... but with Bhuvan it is different, it is different in a good way .... and my thoughts were interrupted when bhaiya's phone rang and he excused himself and went...and after a few seconds Tushar bhaiya's phone rang too and he too excused himself and went...

And Bhuvan came closer to me...and I gulped... but i shifted other side...

Shreya!!! I'm not going to hurt you .... (he said but i kept my eyes on tv only and he held my chin with his fingers and made me look at him but i kept my gaze down....

Shreya !!!look at me....(he ordered but i ignored him)

Shreya!!! Mene tujhe pehle bola tha I don't liked being ignored .....(his voice stern and I looked at him , as I remembered his warning and I didn't wanted him to take things to "next level" )

Shreya .... agar kuch hai jo tu kehna chahti haii toh... tu mujhe bol sakti haii.... I promise me tujhe judge nahi karunga.... and agar kissise dar rahi hai toh bhi I promise i will protect you and infact we all will protect you....(he said)

and hearing this a tear escaped my eyes and i bit my lower lip trying to control myself but tears didn't had any plan to stop so i looked in other direction and wiped my tears away and closed my eyes trying to hold back my tears and Bhuvan kept a hand on my shoulder...

Shreya... dont hold back... jitna in aansu ko chupayegi woh itne hi aayenge.... ek baar me sab ko nikalne de.... apni feelings baahar aane de .... mat daba or....(he said and tears which stopped started brimming again and Bhuvan turned me to face him)

You are safe here ... I promise.... koi bhi yaha tujhe judge nahi karega... koi bhi tujhe kuch nahi bolega.... koi bhi tujhe hurt nahi karega...:(he said and now a sob escaped my mouth and finally i gave up and started crying.....the cry which was going to come out only when these eyes saw Aarya or Shrawani they came out because of Bhuvan's words)

And he held me in his arms , he hugged me and i cried but I struggled in his hug try to break it but he held he tightly and i gave up.... and my hands were on his chest and his one hand was around my shoulder and other one was around my waist holding me in place ..... i felt protected, warm and safe ..... i am brave... when his hands loosened abit when he knew i was not going to escape , i took that opportunity and moved back...

You are not weak Shreyaa!!!(i whispered to myself and wiped my tears away)

No, you are not at all weak... you are the bravest girl i have met.... you are brave mentally as well as physically too...(he said and I looked at him and he cupped my face in his palm)

He is providing me both warmth as well as consoling words at the same time..... he is making me fell warm and protected as Shrawani makes me feel .... and he is saying words which are making me feel good just like Aarya.....He is taking their spaces at the same time..... But no one can take their place in my life.....

I remember Aarya once said , that on one point of my life , a person would come in my life who would fill anyone's and everyone's space in my life when he would be with me ..... he would be my special one... but I don't believe in love ,love does not exists ...

and surely Bhuvan can not be my special one... he deserves someone who is worth him , who would make him feel loved and if I don't love myself how can i love someone else....

Shreya !!! Tu aaj yahi ruk rahi haii...(Rohit bhaiya and Tushar bhaiya said together coming back to lobby )

And Bhuvan removed his hands and I looked back at bhaiyas and Bhuvan looked at them while leaning a bit forward...And i saw their eyes widened up and surely they had assumed something which have not happened...

Ek mint me aata hu kuch kaam yaad aa gaya mujhe...(they both said and they were about to go)

Oyee oyee tum log joh soch rahe woh kuch nahi hua haii.... pagal ho kyaa?? Aajaoo kahi jaane ki jaroorat nahi....(Bhuvan said)

Arrey bhai hum aate haii..(Tushar bhaiya said )
Haa bhai...(Rohit bhaiya agreed)

Arrey bhaiya aajao...(i said and they looked at each other and gave a approving nod to each other and came and sat on the single couches)

Toh tum log kya kar rahe the....(Rohit bhaiya asked)

Ek minute ... Shreyaa tu roii???(Tushar bhaiya said )

Nahii..(i said shaking my head)

Kya nahi ,  teri aankh laal haii... nak bhi laal hai...(Rohit bhaiya said in a very serious tone)

Arrey iske aankh me kuch chala gaya thaa... toh isko irritation ho rahi thii... or isliye mene iske aankh me phoonk dii...(Bhuvan said and i looked at me and he gave me a small smile along with a nod )

Oohhh... tabhi hum andar aaye toh hume lagaa-(Rohit bhaiya was about to say but Tushar bhaiya elbowed him and Rohit bhaiya stayed silent)

Toh Shreya aaj tu yahi reh rahi haii...(Tushar bhaiya said)

Tujhe kese pataa??? Mene toh abhi tak bhataya bhi nahi...(Rohit bhaiya said)

Kya bol raha hai tuu??? Mujhe Aarya ne bolaa...(Tushar bhaiya said)

Acha teri bhi toh usi ghar me setting haii...(Rohit bhaiya whispered rubbing the back of his neck )

Ye sab chodo aap log kya keh rahe hoo... mujhe yaha kyu rukna padegaa??(i asked being all confused)

Dekh (they again said together but then they stopped and looked at each other and Rohit bhaiya gestured Tushar bhaiya to speak)

Dekh Shreya !! Aarya aaj nahi aa payegii..(hearing this my face dropped) woh intern haina hospital me toh joh uski head hai usne aaj sabko rok liya ... jaane nahi de rahii .... but woh mujhe boli woh aarahi haii phir mene use pucha ke ma'am ke against jaayegi toh consequences honge ... toh usme bhataya ki uski internship 6 mahine aage badh jaayegii ...

Phir mene use boldiya ki tu yaha ruk jaayegi , usko waha rukne ko boldiyaa...(he said )

Haa sahi kiyaa, par me yaha kyu ruku... Disha haina ghar par....(i said)

Nahii... use urgent Punjab jana pad raha hai ... uski flight hai uski shaadi ki date kuch shift ho rahi haii isliye....(hearing this i frowned my eyebrows)

Bhai tu apni waali ka bhata de...(Tushar bhaiya said and Rohit bhaiya shot him a glare and Tushar bhaiya smirked)

Shrawani ne bhi mujhe yahi bola..... and woh tujhse direct yahi aa jaayegi subhe milne....(Rohit bhaiya said)

Me ghar par reh lungi...(i said)

Nahii.... bilkul mana kiya hai usnee....(bhaiyas said together and looked each other with confusion)

Bhenchod!!! Tumhaari bandiya aapas me har cheez discuss karke tumse baat karti hai kya???( Bhuvan said and first both of them gave Bhuvan a look but ended up blushing at the mention of their girls)

Mujhse related har baat woh pehle aapas me discuss karti haii... phir aage kuch bolti haii....(i whispered to Bhuvan and Bhuvan nodded)

Par bhaiya...(i began)

Koi par war nahi tu yahi ruk rahi hai baat khatam....(Rohit bhaiya ordered with widened eyes)

Okayyy!!!!(i said and held my hand in air to justify that i have surrendered)

Toh kapde le aa , tujhe laane hai toh apne ghar se...(Tushar bhaiya said )

Haaa...(i said ) mera phone kaha hai Bhuvan??(i asked)

Kyu chahiye???

Woh cab book karni hai , scooty aaj Aarya le gaii...(i said)

Ek kaam kar isko (pointing at Bhuvan) leja or baaki un dono ke bhi kapde le aana...(Rohit bhaiya said and I looked at Bhuvan for confirmation and he nodded)

And we both went to my flat and i took clothes for all three of us and we came back... Bhuvan didn't bought the topic back which i was glad about..

And we reached back to the office flat...

Shreyaaa!!! 15 mint me baahar chal rahe haii...(Rohit bhaiya announced)

Kaha???(i asked)

Aise hi...(Rohit bhaiya said)

To be continued....