After 7 days....

It is around 10 in the evening...
I am back to Delhi.... i have informed none about my arrival and i booked a cab to our home ...

And i reached there and rang the bell and Disha opened the door and a smile make its way on her face and she hugged me tightly....

Kessi haii???( she asked while separating, she doesn't know my past but she has a idea that I don't have a nice relations with my family)

Achi..(i said with a fake smile)

Kya halat ki hai tune apni...(she asked and I didn't reacted to her line)

Sunnn... me nikal rahi huu... tu dhyaan rakhnaa... khana bana hua haii tu kha lena....(she said and i nodded)

Aarya kaha haii???(i asked)

Woh aaj subhe 8 bhaje hi nikal gayi kuch urgent kaam aagaya thaa.teri scooty leke gayi haii..... (she said)

Or Shrawani kal aajayegii...(she said)

Tu humaare phone kyu nahi utha rahi thi....(she asked)

Busy thi...(i said not meeting her gaze)

Tu rest karle...me jaati huu ...(she said and went and i closed the door)

I went in my room... I stripped off my clothes and went in my bathroom for a hot shower....

Hot water falling on my bare skin , tears running down my eyes.... i feel pathetic .....my body full of bruises

And i fell on my knees my hands covering my face and i am crying my eyes out.....

the only people i need around me right now is Shrawani and Aarya ... i need Shrawani's warmth , i need Aarya's consoling words ..... i need them but i can not call them or i can tell them what I'm going through.... They also know what I'm going through, they called me many times but I didn't answered their calls as i dont want to interupt their work....

I feel pathetic.... i feel bad... in proper words I feel like a piece of shit...

Water is turning cold and my hands are pruning , so i got up and began washing my body and started rubbing my body with luffa so vigorously in anger that my skin has turned red and the water falling on it gives a burning sensation... so i kept the luffa back and at last closed my eyes feeling the water again , and my arms are burning.....

with closed eyes old but newest memory which add up in my bad memories flashing back and I instantly open my eyes and now i get out of the shower and i take my towel wrap it around my body and i go towards the mirror.....

Wiping the fog from the mirror and i look at my face .... eyes puffy and dark circles because of not sleeping from last 7 days and due to crying too.... my cheeks not as chubby as they were before..... in last 7 days my appearance have changed like anything.... New bruises are formed on my stomach , arms , chest area and legs too.....

The body which healed in last 3 years is back to its miserable state.... i hate myself.... i just started loving myself even though it was just 10% and i again hate myself.....

Mirror again started fogging up and i dont want to see myself again and i enter my room and go towards the cupboard and take out a full sleeved tee shirt and full length pyjamas.... so that I don't have too see the bruises.... and i feel hungry as i have not eaten anything in last 10 hours ,neither did i eat the food offered in the flight...

And i enter the kitchen and have the food which Disha made aand after eating it , i go back in my room and lay on my bed and my phone rings and i see Aarya's name flashed on the screen but i put my phone on silent and i keep it back on the bed beside me....

After laying around 10 minutes which felt like hours , i check my phone ... 3 missed calls from Aarya and 5 from Shrawani and messages from them too....and i open the chat....

Aarya❤️😊

Shreya call utha na yarrr...

Tu Delhi aa gai tune bhataya nahii... abhi Disha ne bhataya....

Kyu pareshaan kar rahii haii...

Naa tu mera phone utha rahi hai na Shrawani kaa...

Kitne time tak hume avoid karegi....Hume chinta ho rahi hai teri....

Fine, ignore karna hai kar....Me aaj shaam ko aaungii... phir dekhti hu tu kese ignore karti haii..

Shrawani ❤️😎

Tu kya samjhti hai khudkoo....pehle kahi tere saath chalne nahi deti phir hume ignore kar rahi haii..😡

I swear Shreya me kal aajaungi or tere liye sahi nahi hogaa....

Disha ne bhatadiya hume tu Delhi aa gayi...

Bhenchod!!! Phone uthaaa.....

Badhiyaaa!!!!

Jo karna haii karr... teri marzi ho woh karr.... tujhe jaipur jana hai jaa... hume ignore karna hai kar... aakhir tu wahi karegi jo teri marzi hoo....Aakhir hai hi kon hum bolne waale sirf tere FRIENDS....

But Shreya tu humaare liye humaari behen jessi haii.... pls yarr phone uthaale naa... teri aawaz sune ke liye kaan taras gaye.... i know abhi tu kya feel kar rahi haii.... and I'm sorry me tere saath nahi huu abhii.....

Parr pls baat karle yarrr....

Sorry mene itna rudely likha upar but teri chinta ho rahi hai yaarrrr hume....

Me abhi tere saath bhi nahi huu... uska jyaada bura lag raha haii...

And i kept my phone back on and soon darkness consumed me....

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And i woke up with a jerk... tears running down my eyes, my forehead sweaty, it was difficult for me to breath.... i was panicking.... the first thing i did was call Shrawani... and she picked up in 2 rings...

Shreya kessi haii???

Sh.. Shra.... *deep breath * Shrawani...(i said being breathless)

Okay!! Me samjh gayi kya ho raha ... take deep breaths...(she commanded)

Excuse me gentlemen...(i heard her saying)

Count with me...(she said)

One....

I was not able to speak...

Shreya one...

O... on... onee!!!

Two

To... twoo

Three

Thhhhhh ... Threee

Four...

Shreyaa Four...

Foo.. Fouurrr

Five.

Fiv... Five...

Six.

Siiiixxxxxx

Seven.

Sevveennn

Eight.

Eiighttttt

Nine...

Nine

Ten.

Ten...

Good...Ja ab paani pee... me call par hi huu...

Tu busy hai me baad me baat karti huu..Thank you for everything or Sorry disturb jarne ke liye...

Shreya me free hi huu... chal pehle paani pee or phir me phone rakhti huu...

And i went towards the kitchen and drank water...

Pee liya Shrawu...

Wahi sapna aaya....

Haaaa...(i was on the verge of crying)

Shreya!!! Tu kabhi mujhe sorry yaa thank you nahi bolegii.... (she ordered)

Haaa...

Or sunn.. Tere office chali jaa mind divert kar nahi toh wahi cheeze dimaag me aayegii....(she said and i nodded and realised she couldn't see me)

Thik haii....

Byee... me tujhe baad me call karungii... tu meeting attend karle...

Tujhe kese pata me meeting me huu??

Excuse me Gentlemen.... meeting me hi bolti haii budhuu..(i said trying to lighten her mood)

Mere saath rehke hushiyaar toh tu hogaii...(she said and i smiled , a genuine smile in last 7 days)

Chal mein baad me baat karti huu... Sorry!!!

Its okayy... and Thank you....(i said)

Dhyaan rakhna apnaa...Byee!!(she said)

Byee!!(i said and hung the call)

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I got ready wearing a full sleeved Chinese collar tee shirt and a skinny jeans and my hair left open but half clutched as always .... and i took my bag and the cab arrived which I booked before getting ready.... I didn't even tried looking at myself in the mirror and went and sat in the cab....

And i sat in it and in 10 minutes I reached there....

And i took the elevator and rang the bell of the office and Aekansh bhaiya opened the door and he smiled looking at me and i entered.....

To be continued....