i say every time that having no one to talk to it's actually okay, but it really isn't.

and it means, sometimes not usually, you're staying alone on your birthday,

it means, most often, there's not wishing health and wealth on your phone display.

and it's even not "to betray", it's just you not loving to talk to people.

in the end you stay alone and feel as much lonely so you have no one to talk about loneliness

you're surrounded by the enormous unhappiness even when you're in front of bunch of people talking to each other, but feeling of discomfort not leaving you

and you are keep dealing with seeking out your person, you lost so many, you cannot count the amount of people's versions you've met but they haven't lived up to expectations.

but maybe this is the problem. the problem in you. you're keeping expect more and more.

but what's all this for?