Loki sat in a lawn chair on the roof, looking out at the stars. He closed his eyes and remembered her... "Hey, Loki, what's up?" Nat came bouncing up the stairs, and plopped down in the chair beside him. He opened an eye, and raised an eyebrow. "someone's happy, what did Clint do now?" Loki had seen it from the beginning, they way Nat practically had a heartattack when Clint was stranded on the building, and they way they were always together, and if they weren't they were talking about the other. Nat blushed "well, he took me to Waverly, and up on an old hiking trail..." Loki smirked and finished her story "and it was very romantic and you kissed and watched the sun go down?" She blushed even more "...maybe." They each laughed. "what about you Loki, you seen to be in a better mood than usual, what were you thinking about up here all by yourself?"

Loki laughed "I was thinking of an old friend..." Natasha raised her eyebrow at him "does this 'friend' happen to be a girl?" Loki smirked "her name is Lillian, she's so beautiful..." Nat smiled "is Loki in love?" Loki's smile grew even larger "we both were, she understood me, she was the only one who saw all of the 'imagined slights' as Thor put it. We were in love, but it couldn't last." Nat frowned "why not?" Loki sighed "I was a prince, she had.... less favorable of a background." Natasha leaned closer "what happened between you too, did somebody find out?" He shook his head "no, we were together in secret, until I let go of the Bifrost,...I wonder sometimes, if she knows what I did here,..." he chucked, the kind of chuckle to cover pain "or if she even knows i'm alive." He sighed, and Nat asked "what does she look like?" Loki smiled and closed his eyes "she has brown hair, dark brown, and her eyes were so blue I swear you could get lost for days in them,..she's so beautiful, and kind, she was everything to me..... I wish I could talk to her again, It's the not knowing that kills me,....she could think i'm dead and had moved on by now, or not know the truth about what happened here and hate me...she was the one person I could talk to, and there's almost no chance I will ever see her again."

Natasha searched his face for something, anything, a tiny hint of emotion, but found nothing. Loki was skilled at hiding his emotions, but he didn't know that by doing so, he was also making it worse, burying them deep inside him, keeping them out of sight, but not out of mind. "Loki,....if she really knows you, and she knows you're alive, she must know that there was no way you would have done that on your own." Loki opened his eyes for a brief moment, "You know, even with Thor being,....well,...Thor, and my heritage being as it is, Thor was the a good brother, he didn't see the mental abuse I was taking back in Asgard, and he did beat on me a few times, but that's what brothers do, at least he tried to be there for me, he gave me opportunities to talk,....I just didn't know how to take them." He sat up straighter and opened his eyes, "I want him back, I actually miss him." Natasha rolled her eyes "well of course you miss him, he's your brother." Loki gave a half hearted smile. "arn't you cold out here?" she asked, as she, herself, was very cold. Loki laughed "Nat,.. I'm still a frost giant... well ,.... sort of, a Frost Giant.." Nat didn't bother asking, she figured she wouldn't understand even if he explained it. I have to find a way to get Thor down here. Nat thought to herself, and leaned back, I have to...