all my life

i only knew of you

the untouchable, always correct

always mighty you

i grew up with your name

imprinted on my forehead

in stars of gold and drops of red

i grew up with your story

ringing in my ears like the bells

on your birthday, on your day

on the day i should've known you

and today

i don't know you

all my life

i only knew of you

the unbreakable, astounding

greatness of you

i believed what i could not see

believed what i couldn't understand

my heart quivered to see you

on a wall bleeding

skin dripping, shredding

melting like wax

and today

i can't remember you

all my life

i only knew of...

who?

who are you?

why are you the unbreakable, astounding

great, old you?

where are you up there

do i matter to you?

will lightning strike me from up above

if i wonder if you hear me at all?

all my life

who are you

and where were you

when i needed you?

all my life

i've looked up to you

the small, unimportant me

and the great, blessed you

and today i do not

remember you.