(Please click the music video above before reading, then proceed :> because the song is literally FEELS AND PLAYS WITH MY DAMN HEART )

The snow was coming in heavier now, a hurricane of white flakes that stung your face, freezing your tears. You had never felt so scared, so vulnerable before.

North was getting impatient, you could tell. She shook her head and muttered 'whimp", but the only audible noise was the wind howling, and your shallow breaths.

Markus gestured to the brunette,"Go ahead first, North. You'll meet Simon and some of the guys and get into the room without me. We'll come later."

You wrapped your arms around your body, shutting your eyes and tried to hold onto his voice, calm like a sweet lullaby. We.

"I'm so sorry, Markus. I don't think I can go up." Your wet hair was tangled, but he leanes down to meet your gaze, and brushed it away.

"Look at me, (Y/n)." But you didn't want to, you could feel his intense gaze, causing your chest to feel light. His fingers dug gently as he lifted your chin, and not for the first time, you was taken away by his beauty, the deep sea green eyes, his full lips, and how mesmerizing he was. You felt a sudden urge to yank him closer and kiss him, but you knew that would be so wrong, unfair to North and him, and unfair to you. This was the wrong place, and the worst time.

"(Y/n)." He whispered your name like it was a safeword, elusive and secretive. Like he wanted to grasp onto it a little longer, as if it was a precious jewel. How could he make everything sound so enchanting? Maybe Cyberlife had made a mistake in him, because staring at him between the cold space, a warmthness spreaded inside you, that he was possibly human and made you feel love.

"I want you to be brave, (Y/n). Remember how you just went to Leo's house?"

You laughed sadly,"That was being stupid. Ignorant, yes. Brave? I don't think so, Markus. Heck, I ran away from Leo. I was so frightened, I did what cowards do."

He shook his head,"You was taking a chance, to start new. And when you went back, to face your mistakes and deal with the demons in your past, that's being brave.

I wish I could be as bold and strong as you, but I didn't. Once Carl died, I had no safety net, it was as he had placed protective glass between me and the world, one that shattered when he was gone.

But you? You was so fearless, this amazing warrior who destroyed whatever shit in her way. You're full of courage, (Y/n). It's deep within you, can you feel it? I need you to do this for yourself. Not Carl, not me, but for you." 

You wiped the tears furiously, but you wasn't embarassed that Markus saw you cry. Not anymore. But there was still the small five year old in you, the one that was pushed off the stairs, tumbling, screaming I'm scared! Carl! The painful betrayal when Leo shoved you, the soft carpet that dug harsh lines into your skin. The ghosts of the past were still haunting you, and even with a new life, they couldn't remove the old memories.

Be strong.

You pushed yourself off the floor.

Stand tall.

Markus' hands wrapped around you, his eyes dark and his lips forbidding, never being able to kiss or touch.

It wasn't until now, that you realised how in love you were with him. Fallen too far for the person you could never love, because North would hate you and you never knew what Markus was thinking.

"Okay. Let's go." You placed shaky hands onto the hard rope, while Markus held you steady.

"I promised to keep you safe, (Y/n). You won't fall."

But I had already did, for you...

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A/n: Hello! Did you listen to the song yet? :>

BECAUSE IT'S SO BEAUTIFUL AND I CANNOT- *DEEP BREATH*

Also thank you for the 100 votes! <3

Andddd, thanks for reading and I hope you enjoyed this chapter as much as I did writing it! ♡