Whenever I remember us together, it warms me up, but at the same time, it tears me apart

I think about you whatever happens, and I think about every happy moment we shared together.

But at the same time, I remember everything you put me through, and I start crying all over again because I still miss you.

And the truth is...
although you hurted me so much 
I still love you

And I don't even know why...