I hate it when I tell people

I hate when I tell people that I feel alone, and they list all the people that I supposedly have in my life, but the thing is, I really am alone. I can't remember the last time someone through the conversation first or asked me to hang out. I always start the discussions, and I still need to make plans because no one will do it first. No one actually cares about me, and it hurts so much, to the point where I begin to ask what's wrong with myself, and I don't think that any person should ever feel this way, but so many people doing it sucks so much. I just want someone to ask me if I'm okay, babe, hell I just want someone to say hi first. I want to stop asking people to hang out and stop starting the conversation, but I'm so alone then I have to