Try again;

to the hope that never left me

         So, I fell . . . And? I'm not a victim, I have to get up, take another shot. I've got strength in me, to do what I've got to do. No one else is going to help me get up and heal me forever. Only I can get up on my own, time after time. Only I will be there each time I fall.

                 I'll write down the lessons, every time I have to learn them. I'm falling, not failing. I only fail, when I don't learn.

                I've been failing for some time, but not anymore. I put a stop to this, and I'll forget again, because it takes time to fully learn, but I'm patient, I'm learning to be patient. I'll get better at it, I will survive. 

                    Every time I fall, I'll get up and learn. 

                       I have people around me, who will help me when it's needed, but most importantly, I've got myself. 

                I am fire, I am light where I need it. I am earth, beautiful things shall born on and around me. I am water, I'll cry out my feelings when it's required, because it's time to stop hiding them. I am the wind, I shall fly free. 

                          There, where the bad seeds grew, I'll take them out and plant the good ones. I'll try to change until I make it permanent. 

               I'll say sorry when I make another mistake, but I'll reduce the mistakes to small amounts, until apologies rarely leave my mouth. 

                       I'll say sorry only when I did something wrong.

               Because I have to stop playing the victim. The things I say and do are valid too.

                  I'll recover and restore my good things. I'll start again. God is giving me another chance, God has never left me.

              I am trying again.