There was mud and dirt in one of my eyes and I was blinking rapidly to try and get it out. I was trying to find her and him, but they were no where to be found. What a nice kind of friend I am, I thought. My blades and gear felt heavier on me than they had a few minutes ago while I stood amidst the wreckage of the house. I heard heavy footsteps and new that the thing from my nightmares had come to get me. It would chew me and swallow me and throw me up when it ate too many humans. I saw the image of titan throw up in my head and shivered slightly knowing that that was where I was going to end up. 

How did it come to this? Those, were my last thoughts.

I sat at one of the tables of the library. I was reading a book and I remember thinking, I wanna be able to do that! I was incredibly naive back then. I had no idea what it actually was like, to go out and do those things. To come face to face with the dangers that lay outside the walls. I couldn't've understood how horrible and petrifying it was to see them in person and up close.

Nobody seems to get it. Everybody these days think that everyone in the MP or the Garrison are a bunch of cowards. Everyone is different though, and some people just can't handle it even though they want to with a fiery passion. Some people can learn. Some people are trying to learn to be brave.

My name was Rose Alkaline. I was a dreamer. I loved the stars because my father told me that they were millions of lightyears away and that I was looking into the past each time I saw one, because if the stars are millions of lightyears away, then we're seeing what happened millions of lightyears ago. I always thought that was pretty cool, so I was became obsessed with astronomy. I would look at something and wonder what elements it was made out of, or when I would look at the soldiers use their 3DM gear I would wonder what the physics was. I just wanted to know everything.

I guess it was only natural because my father played a part in developing the 3DM gear. You can imagine how happy I was when I found out that my last name was a group in the Periodic Table. All of my thinking and wondering made me not much of a social butterfly though. I was often a loner and sat by myself. I was such a thoughtful child and I believed that no one else thought like I did. They were all obsessed with silly child things while I was contemplating my future.

The only real friends I had were my younger brother Felix, and my best friend Eliza. Felix was the happiest person I had ever met or seen and always cheered me up whenever I was falling into a pit of depression. Eliza was a thinker like me, and we both loved reading and learning. She was the person I went to if I didn't feel like talking about it to Felix. If you took a look at us though, you wouldn't think we'd be friends.

Eliza had shoulder length blonde hair and brown eyes. I always thought she looked very pretty, except her attitude towards people was a bit odd. She was the kind of person where you had to be nice to her first, or you were on her bad list forever basically. I was nice to people wherever I went so Eliza liked me immediately. Eliza was a thinker and tons more social than I was, so she taught me everything I know. After meeting her, I wasn't so frightened of going up to people and saying hi. We were polar opposites with our personalities. I was bound to be extremely kind to everyone and ignore all the bad things that people did, whereas Eliza sometimes held grudges and got into fights more.

Felix is a whole different story. He had dark red hair and green eyes. He's like a weird mixture between the two of us. He didn't like thinking all that much and accelerated at sports and physical activities, something that me and Eliza hated and ultimately failed at. He was fantastic at drawing and even though he was younger than I, he always seemed to be taller. That fact always annoyed me. I would try to look out for him, but he always acted like he was supposed to be protecting me. He was very popular though he was shy and didn't like talking to people all that much. I would always wonder how he did it.

I sat in the library that day, reading about brave soldiers and people who'd made a difference. I had orange hair and deep blue eyes, and my freckles were there just really light. The life that I was leading seemed pretty boring to me. We lived in Wall Maria and the year was 800. I was 13, Eliza was 13, and Felix was 12. I remember thinking about what I was going to do with my life. At that moment, I hadn't begun to think of the military as an actual option. I just knew that it was a job. I thought I might be a writer, or a scientist. Except, those jobs took dedication and determination. I wasn't sure if I had those qualities.

I picked up my book that I was reading with a forlorn look in my eyes. I wanted my life to mean something, but I didn't see it ever happening. I smiled to myself to try and lift my spirits because I had read that if you smile you'll actually start to feel happier. That was the sad truth behind my smiles. I dropped the smile as I left the library and walked home alone.

The librarian knew me quite well so she she said, "Bye! Have a nice day Rose!" as I left. She was so nice to me, it made me actually smile and pick up my pace.

"Bonjour Rose!" Eliza yelled at me as she popped out of some obscure alleyway.

"Gah!" I yelped. I dropped one of the books I was holding.

Eliza beat me to it when picking up the book. She gave me an apologetic look, "Sorry!" She held on to the book while we walked home.

I smiled at her. "It's okay Liz!" I called her that when I didn't feel like saying the other syllable.

She looked down at the book. "Hm... another one of these sci-fi books, huh? Is it any good?"

"Definitely! It really makes me wish some of the things in there were real," I said to her with a dreamy look on my face.

"Well I for one, would NOT like to have giant robots rule over us. We've got other things that control our lives," she was still staring at the book cover. I pulled her towards me to keep her from bashing into a pole. She swiped some hair out of her face and said, "Woah, geez watch where you're going pole! Thanks Rose."

"In the pole's defence, it was there first," and I smirked at her.

"Yeah, whatever. We were here first but the titans are still bossing us around."

"Yeah, but the pole was doing something much more innocent."

"It was trying to give me a concussion!"

"Tis just how poles are..."

"Are you really siding with the pole here?!"

I laughed. "Maybe," I chuckled as I turned the door knob to my house and opened the door. "We're home!" I shouted to my Mom and Dad. "Eliza's here too, hope ya don't mind," I said much quieter. "Now I won't be lying when I say I said it," I glanced over at Eliza who took off her purple cloak and hung it besides the door. I grabbed her hand and pulled her up the stairs, "Come on! Let's go!"

"Alright, alright! I'm coming no need to pull my arm off!"

We sat down staring out my window. It was 4 o'clock in the afternoon, around the time that the sun set behind the wall. We stared at it as it fell, casting a shadow on the inhabitants. I was absolutely ecstatic because there was even less time before the moon could be seen. I liked the day just as much as the night. So many people these days liked the night better because they say something like, it's misunderstood, but really they're making the sun feel bad too. It's fine if you have your favorites, I just didn't like people offending others so I never said aloud that I favored the night over the day because I liked them both equally.

"Night, night Mr. Sun," I whispered just loud enough so that Eliza could hear me. "Hello Ms. Moon." I always called the moon a miss and the sun a mister because I knew that there was always balance in the world and if there was a boy, there was a girl so the sun and the moon was a boy and a girl. I reminded myself of a short story I had written about the sun and the moon. I used to read it to Felix as a bedtime story because we both thought the book my Mother used to read to us from needed an update.

"Well, we've still got some daylight to burn before we're forced home," Eliza said. "Wanna go find Felix?"

I nodded my head in agreement, and then a thought occurred to me. I started to nod yes and no to myself. "Do you think it's weird that we have body motions to mean something?"

"Not really because body language is just as important as spoken language though it can be a bit more vague, and I think it's fascinating that there are so many different forms of language."

"A very well thought out answer as always. I'll meet you outside, I have to hide my books."

"Okay!" She ran down my stairs.

I stuffed my books into my pillow case and walked down stairs. I hid my books because not everything I was reading my parents would like, but I decided what I was okay to read most of the time. I grabbed my teal cloak off of the hook and ran outside while I was still putting it on. Eliza immediately took my hand and started running. She was shouting Felix and though I was skeptical of the practicality of this plan, I joined in the shouting too.

"Felix!"

"Felix!" I echoed.

"FELIX!!!!! We got a new puppy!"

"Wait! That's going a bit too far! I don't want him to be all sad and disappointed when I see him for the first time today!" I shouted at Eliza as we continued to run.

"Oh, you care too much!"

Eventually we had to stop because my lungs weren't made out of steel. Eliza barely looked fazed. "How the hell are you not out of breath!"I said as loud as I could while gasping for air.

She shrugged her shoulders. "I don't really know, but don't let my outside appearance fool you! I couldn't do that for much longer either."

"Right," I say to her whilst gasping. I wonder to myself if what she said is true or is she just lying to make me feel better.

When I've finally caught my breath, the bell tower starts ringing.

"The Scout Regiment is back!" Eliza said with excitement dribbling into her voice. She looked down at me, "Do you feel like running?"

I groaned but I still got up and took off with Eliza close behind.

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