A/N

So... I was bored and I found an Attack On Titan quiz that was deciding my fate and this is what I got:

You follow orders and retreat with the group, you noticed a few had wandered off and had chosen to fight the titans on their own. They were crazy. Maybe you should have stayed within the walls. This job was terrifying. But this was necessary for humanity to live in freedom someday. Soon an aberrant closes in from the right, but she was moving awfully fast for any titan you had ever seen. It was on your heels, then your commander gave the signal to do your job. Deep down you knew something was wrong when the titan covered it's weak spot. You tried to attack anyway, your friend serving as a distraction. But sure enough the titan had caught your wire. With a mighty swing she threw you to the ground so fast you didn't even have time to process what happened.

YOU DIED!

Well... that was expected. I didn't expect myself to live because right now, I'm a big coward and would be joining the Military Police... and probably try to make it not so corrupt. Though, if the titan protected its weak spot then I'd be like SCREW THIS NO WAY AM I GOING ANYWHERE NEAR THAT THING!!!! Yes, with all of those exclamation marks... 'cause you know... my sentences are just too awesome to not have that many exclamation marks.

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The gentle trot of our horses hypnotized me as we meandered along this road; heading towards the South Trainee Camp off Wall Maria. It was the most convenient because it was relatively closer to us and we didn't really find a need to ride 60 miles (about) towards one of Wall Rose's Trainee Camps.

"You okay back there? You've been really quiet for the past few minutes," Eliza yelled back at me.

"Yeah, I'm fine," I yelled back with a tinge of sadness in my voice. The image of my parents when we left was still in the back of my mind.

"Alright then. What about you Felix?"

"I'm fine too!" He sounded much happier than I had.

"Aiden?"

"Yes, I'm fine. The same answer since five minutes ago. Is it your hobby to annoy people?"

"Yes," she said seriously, and I chuckled a bit. Aiden let out a groan.

"You're the one who wanted to be friends with us!" I yelled up at him. "Just remember, this is all your decision!"

Felix yelled, "Well I didn't want to be friends with you! I just got born into it!"

"Aw come on," I said. "I know you're just kidding. Of course you wanna be friends with us."

"You guys, are really annoying."

"That's just our personalities!" Eliza yelled.

"Change your personalities!"

Eliza and I yelled, "No!"

"Can we all just be quiet for a few minutes?" Aiden yelled back at us. He sounded annoyed and tired, yet at the same time amused.

"Fine," I hope I sounded really disappointed. I got my feelings hurt really easily and I'm not doing it on purpose, because it's just something that happens naturally, but while I'm upset or something I'm secretly aware that I'm guilt-tripping them. It's helped me get a lot of sympathy over the years.

Silence isn't a good thing for me. Sometimes it is, but not on that particular horse ride. There had been too many sad things happening all at once and I wasn't used to it. It's like when people would tell their stories of living with some horrible disease that could kill them at any minute, but they're still going to live their life, and I've always thought that it would be impossible for me to live like that. It would be too hard for me to have this depressing cloud over me. Those people were the ones that I wanted to be like. People who can move the threatening clouds of depression out of the way and capture sunlight.

My parents... I felt so bad for them. When I was leaving, they looked as if they were pretending to be happy. It didn't sit right with me and made me feel kind of bad. I started to narrate myself. I did that a lot when I was bored and was trying not to think about something.

I thought, Rose, Eliza, Felix, and Aiden rode down the hard to discern path. In fact, Rose was beginning to wonder if they were even on a path at all. Suddenly, she wondered if Aiden had gotten them lost. It would be his fault because he was the one leading all of them. I was stupid to have trusted him with the map, Rose thought to herself. She glared holes into the back of his head, hoping with all her might, that he'd actually start to feel it.Rose decided to ask and see if they really were lost. She yelled...

I interrupted my own thought of narration thinking, Woah there. We're done.

I yelled, "Aiden!"

"What?"

"You do know where you're going, don't you?"

"Um... yeah! Of course I do!"

"Are you lying?"

"Yes..."

"What?! Aiden!" Eliza, Felix, and I yelled.

"Why didn't you mention this earlier?!"

"Um... because I thought I could handle it."

"We're all out here together so we should be working like a team! You're supposed to tell your team members stuff!" I veered my horse off to the side of... whatever we were riding on, and stopped. "Guys, stop!" They all stopped and turned around to come back to me. I looked up at the sun to see how much time we had until we were stuck out in the dark and if we could make it depending on how far off course we were.

"First of all, I take full responsibility for getting us lost!" Aiden said as we got off our horses and came together in a somewhat circle. He handed me the map and nodded as he did so. He looked like he was preparing for judgement, but the judgement never came from us and so he seemed pleasantly confused.

Felix peered up at the sky. "It looks like we've got maybe 3 hours before we get stuck out here in the dark. We could possibly make it, depending on how far off track we are."

"We need to see where we are first, but I don't know how to do that," I said.

Eliza raised her hand. "I can do it!" I handed the map over to her.

Aiden was just kind of standing off to the side of us as he watched. I realized then that he didn't work with teams well. The good thing though was that he wasn't afraid to own up to something and take responsibility for wrong actions.

"I don't know how you did it Aiden, but we are seriously maybe 20 miles off course."

"I know right? He's some kind of miracle worker," I joked. I was trying to cheer Aiden up because I didn't want him to feel too bad about misguiding us. "Anyways, are we gonna be able to make it back tonight?"

Eliza shook her head, "I don't think so. I can't make out any short cuts that won't get us killed, so we'll have to go the long way, which will take us about 4 hours on horseback."

"The best option would be to camp it out halfway through and continue tomorrow."

"Yeah, I agree. Aiden, Felix? You agree with that?"

"Yeah!"

"Yes."

"Good, so we should start riding out pretty soon then."

We had been riding for a good hour when we decided that we should start setting up camp before it got too dark outside to see. Eliza and I went to go get some sticks for the fire while Felix and Aiden started to get everything else set up with the horses and camp. I'd had this pressure on me all day and a I always had butterflies in my stomach and I swear that if I kept it in any longer that I was going to give myself a heart attack.

"Hey Eliza."

"Yeah?"

"How are you... doing?"

"Um... fine. How are you doing?"

"Well, I've been feeling kind of scared and breathless all the time." I heard her set her pile of sticks down and walk over.

She grabbed on to my shoulders, turned me around and said, "It's okay to be scared. But remember, you chose to join the military. If you're gonna do this, then you've gotta be sure."

My eyes of course were a bit wider than usual, and despite my shaking I said, "Of course I'm sure. If I was unsure, then I wouldn't have made it this far."

She nods. "Alright then." She goes back to her pile of sticks. "Come on. I think we've got enough sticks now, don't you?"

Hefting the pile of sticks in my arms I say, "Definitely."

As we walked back to the camp I heard a wolf's howl. Eliza says, "Hopefully, they won't come out tonight."

"Yeah, hopefully."

Felix interrupts my worried thoughts. "Hey guys! We finished with the horses, you get the firewood?"

I smile. "Yeah, we did."

"I know how to make a fire," Aiden says quietly. I wondered for a split second if he was still a bit unsure how to operate in our little group, but quickly dismissing the idea. He's been with us for about a year now. You would think that he'd gotten used to it. Dispersing my thoughts, I hand Aiden my pile of sticks. "Thanks," he says. "Eliza, you can put your wood over there to start a new pile. We'll use it later."

"'Kay! Hey, what did we bring for dinner?"

"Um...," Felix says. "Nothing?"

"What?!" She says a little panicked. "We didn't bring any food?!"

"Well," I pipe up. "It's not like we planned on staying out here a night. We didn't really plan ahead, did we?" It sounded like more of a statement and not a question. "Oh well. We can survive one night not eating dinner."

"What?! No we can't!" Eliza noticed our expression and quickly changed from somewhat panicked to an uncaring demeanor. "I mean, you're right. It doesn't matter."

I was secretly happy she was acting like that, because that means I didn't have to. I really did feel like complaining about the lack of food, because I was such a wimp and would get "starving" if I didn't eat for 5 hours.

"I can try and catch a rabbit if we're all really that hungry. I mean, we do need the strength for tomorrow's 3 hour ride," Aiden says.

"Oh, yes please!" Eliza and I say together. Aiden's expression is smug and Felix is chuckling to himself.

"Oh, shut up!" I say. "Aiden, how are you gonna catch a rabbit?"

"Oh, I have my ways. Don't you worry about it, I'll catch us some food. Somebody needs to tend to the fire while I'm gone though."

"I'll do it," Felix says before Eliza and I can say anything. Felix was the only one of us that hadn't done anything to really benefit our group so far. I wonder about his motives silently.

Aiden stands up and feels around his belt and when he looks satisfied he starts to walk towards the forest. He looks kind of eager and I wonder if he's used to hunting.

"Hey, Aiden," Eliza says. "I"m from a hunting family and I can help you."

He looks up. "Oh yeah, guess I forgot. You can help me. Start sharpening a stick or something."

"Mm... I think I'll stick to traps," she said and went over to a patch of long grass. From the grass, she'd make ropes, and place them along with few other things to make a trap.

She's gonna totally show him up on this one, I think. Eliza's family has been in the hunting business for several years and since it seems that the need for meat won't be depleting soon, they've decided to make it their family business. I feel kind of bad for Aiden while I'm imagining his reaction to her hunting skills. I've always kind of wanted to know how she makes her traps, but Eliza always said that it was special and a family secret. There wasn't really any arguing with her once she sets her mind to something. She's incredibly stubborn.

I look over at Felix who's tending to the fire and staring contentedly into the flames. He always does this when he's around fire and I guess that he enjoys it for a reason only known to him. I haven't really told anyone about this, but I like the smell of smoke. It smells home-y.

Eliza and Aiden eventually go off into the forest to catch some food; leaving Felix and I alone at the fire. "How you doin'?" I ask him. He looks really happy. Happier than I've ever seen him.

"I feel great," and he pokes at the flames gingerly, then adds another stick. The fire flares up between us. "Better than I have in a long time, actually!" He smiles at me. His face looks as if the flames are burning it from my point of view. I curse myself for being so dramatic. It really gave the image an eerie feel.

"You," I say as I struggle for the right words. "were meant to be in the military. I mean," I cross my arms and pull my legs towards me. "look at how happy it makes you." I close my eyes because I feel like if I stare into the flames any longer, I'll go blind.

He sighs. "I guess I was. It feels good knowing that I'm going to finally make a difference. You know that year that I stayed out of the military? Well, I hated it." I feel him look at me. My eyes are still closed though, and all I can do is nod slightly. "It was agonizing knowing that I could make a difference, but not being able to. Joining the military was my dream, my wish, but it isn't yours." I open my eyes and stare straight into his. They're soft and welcoming. "You dream and empathize and freak out when you get cut. You keep a journal, read too many books, and write your own stories. You're nice and haven't touched a weapon in your life. You weren't meant to be a soldier."

I sigh. "Maybe I wasn't."

"I don't want you to join the military if you're just doing because I'm doing it. What if something happens to you. It would be all my fault."

This angers me. Why does everyone think I'm not strong enough to do this? "First of all," I almost yell at him. "I am going to get hurt. It's the freaking military! Second of all, if and when I get hurt, it's not going to be your fault or Eliza's fault or Aiden's fault! It's going to be mine and mine alone. Third of all, I'm not just doing this for you! Sure, I plan on protecting you whenever I possibly can, but I'm not planning on just following you wherever you freaking go!

"To be quite honest, I don't see the point in joining the Scout Regiment. Sure, there's getting to fight titans but they're not an imminent danger right now and joining the Scouts is like signing yourself up for freaking suicide! My whole plan is to freaking get in the top 10, join the Military Police, maybe try to make it not so corrupt, and help the people inside the wall! In fact, when I originally decided to join the military, I was going to try and convince you to join with me so that we both could live and not be emotionally scarred for the rest of our lives!"

I was full blown yelling at him by that point and I wonder to myself quickly where the sudden burst of anger came from. I look over at Felix, instantly regretting raising my voice at him, and expect to see some look of shock or hurt on his face. I see the exact opposite; I see him smiling. "What are you smiling about?" I ask him not even trying to mask the confusion in my voice.

"That proves it. You can do this," and that's all he says before he goes back to tending to the fire and adding a stick here and there. I open my mouth; ready to ask a question when all of a sudden we hear two loud screams followed by wolf howls. Eliza and Aiden, I think.

"Eliza and Aiden!" I yell as I look over at Felix. "Me and Eliza heard wolves while we were collecting sticks earlier! They're being attacked!"

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Anyways, I didn't actually know if there was wolves within the walls, and since I couldn't find it on the internet that part of my fanfiction writer brain started to say, well... it is called fanFICTION right? Heh. I usually like to keep everything true towards the story though which made me kind of hesitant to put 'wolves' in this chapter, but oh well.