I lay awake crying my eyes out sobing silently broken by the thought of you gone,away from me
Whenever i think about it Bam i have an anxiety attack i would have told you this sooner but how would I
I cant block my emotions when im around you the same emotions ive been hidding for years the emotions i thought that were lost forever you found them and returned them to me
I dont want to hold your hand
For i feel like if i let go i wont ever see you again
I dont want to kiss you
For im afraid i will ask for more
I dont want to hug you
For i feel that when you let go it means nothing to you
Yet i want to feel your lips against mine moving in a blissful manor
I want all of you every posible bit that i can i want your full attention i want your eyes to stare into mine giving me warmth i want you badly yet i dont know why or how to ask you that i want you
I love you
I dont want to hurt you yet i hurt myself holding myself back from kissing you
You know im broken
From within
Why
Why do people have to judge
What is so wrong with loving you
What is so wrong with kissing you in public
What is so wrong with being next to you
Tell me
I need to know
Why do they hurt me
Why do they judge me
Why do they yell at me
Why do they stare at me like im not even a person
Why why why
WHY IS IT SO WRONG TO SHOW YOU THAT I LOVE YOU
why why do i feel like im not worthy of you
Why do i feel like you dont love me
Why am going crazy with the voices in my head
She doesnt love you
She never will
She pitties you
You pittie her
She will leave you
She will hurt you
Your stupid
Worthless
Waist of space
A loner
A depressed and abused broken child
You will never be loved EVER again
You are a piece of shit you dont deserve to live
SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP
all these voices,i can take it anymore
Should i live on ?
Should i give up ?
Should i .......
Should i stop everything and star over
The only thing im sure of is
That i love you with all i have left
My heart is in peices
I collect them pick them up and hand it to you
Here. I give you what i have left
Its your choise take it or throw it away
But i will always be there for you
I love you
I dont want to hurt you
If you want to say or ask me anything go ahead
You have a question
I have an awnser
I love you and forever will