~~~Izu's POV~~~

Into the Woods started and I forgot how much I liked it, sure it was a musical but it's the demented versions of the stories. I know it's weird to like something like that, but what about me is normal? Kacchan helped calm me down, and I feel bad. I mean he's helping me so much and what is there for me to do? You could do him a favor and die? If I did that then his time would be wasted. Oh shut up you know it's wasted no matter what. You'll never escape from this darkness. I know but it's fun to play around with the idea of hope, right?

"What are you thinking about?"

"Nothing Kacchan, I'm watching the movie."

"No you aren't, you stopped focusing a few minutes ago."

"It was nothing I promise."

"I'll drop it for now." And he did, we were laying how we've been and watched the movie, then Kacchan's mom put on Descendants, and now it's 10:40. Descendants and Bridge to Terabithia together is about 3 hours and 27 minutes. We won't be finishing this movie night until 1:07. Damn.

"Are you getting tired?"

"No Kacchan, I'm staying awake until we finish the movies."

"How much longer?"

"Well, if we don't include the time it takes to get to the movie then it's 3 hours and 27 minutes, from the time it is now to when the movies end we should be done around 1:07 give or take."

"Alright nerd I get it." But he doesn't say it rudely, he laughs and smiles. We relax and watch the movie, I sing all of the songs, and I can hear Kacchan singing softly. My favorite is If only, or maybe Rotten to the Core, or well I've got too many. The movie ends around 12:32, the movie is an hour and 52 minutes long, and we put on the last movie.

"Finally it's almost over."

"You could have gone to your room and fell asleep Katsuki."

"But if I did then Deku would be out here alone."

"Is that so bad?"

"Dad, there could have been a chance he would have had a panic attack or something."

"If you're tired Kacchan go lay down, I'll be fine."

"No, I can stay up for the next what?"

"Hour and 36 minutes."

"Damn."

"If you're tired go lay down."

"Nah." And after that we just started the movie, we eventually get to the point where Leslie died, I forget how sad this movie gets, I mean you could feel the love between them, but then they go and kill her tsk. Anyways, a bit longer passes and we make it to the end, when Jess made the bridge for his little sister. Really it's a good movie, but sad. The book is better though.

"Night mom, dad."

"Night boys."

"Good night Mrs. and Mr. Bakugou."

"Good night Izuku, and what did I say, call me Masuaru."

"R-right sorry. Goodnight." And with that I have Kacchan practically dragging me to his room.

"At least take me on a date first." Of course this is a joke, I would never admit my feelings-

"Maybe another time, we're just sleeping." What?

"Uh, K-Kacchan?"

"Hm?"

"You know you said that out loud right?"

"Eh, too tired to care. Come on." Alrighty. So I follow and when we get to his room, we end up laying on the bed, well kind of. Kacchan nearly missed getting on the bed, he was on it from the hips up, but his legs weren't. I took a moment to take my shirt off and help him on the rest of the bed. Maybe I'm excited to cuddle with him but you have no proof. Oh shut up, we know you wish it would be like this the rest of your life. Shut up and leave me alone. I feel Kacchan pull me to him when he sees I don't have my shirt on. He gets us in the position we've been in all night and in seconds he's passed out. I'm not far behind and for the first time in a while I slept good and peaceful. That is until I hear walking around the door. You see, I'm a light sleeper. I start to shake, but I haven't fully woke up yet, I'm like halfway there but not. That is until I feel Kacchan hug me tighter. Did I wake him? Shit.

"Izu, it's alright, probably my mom or dad going to the bathroom, remember he's not here."

"I-I'm sorry Kacchan." I feel the tears prick, dammit, I hate how scared I get from something so simple.

"Hey, it's alright. What can I do?" He sits up, pulling me up with him.

"No, i-it isn't okay, I woke y-you up."

"Shhh, it's alright Izu, here." He adjusts us so I'm turned towards the door, so I can see if anyone comes, and he has one ear pushed to his chest, I can hear his heartbeat. I feel him shuffle for things.

"Hey, I'm going to put a headphone in your ear, do you want the other one in also or keep it to my chest?"

"K-keep my head here, I like your heartbeat." I feel the blush come up.

"Alright, do you want a specific song? Or are you okay with my playlist? I have my phone since it was closer."

"I'm f-fine with your music." I hear it start, it's Hold On by Chord Overstreet. Dammit.

"Kacchan, why this song?"

"Because it's true, now try to relax, you're still on alert." He starts rubbing my back and running his hand through my hair.

"Kacchan, you don't have to. I can go back to sleep on," I yawn, "On my own."

"I know, but I want to help."

"N-no, go back to bed, I'll be fine."

"You first, you're the one with sleeping issues."

"Bullshit."

"What?"

"I said, bull fucking shit."

"Whatever Deku, go to sleep." I can't stay awake much longer, the last words I got out were 'thank you Kacchan.' The next time I woke up was morning. I check my phone and it said it was 11, heh I slept late.

"Oi, nerd stop moving, lay back down."

"Kacchan, it's already 11, I think we should wake-" I got pushed down onto him, I settle into his warmth, and slowly doze off.

"Hey, nerd?"

"Yeah?"

"Let's sleep in."

"But-," I can't not yawn, "Kacchan, if we do..."

"What?"

"Over sleeping isn't good."

"We went to bed at 1 am, you woke up for about 30 minutes and it's not 11. Doing the math for you, you slept for 9 and a half hours take some away. But how much sleep do you get on a daily? This is a make up day, so lay your ass back down and go back to bed." I grumble a bit but do as I'm told and eventually I make my way to a dream.

"Kacchan! Look I got my quirk!" I start producing fire from my one hand and carry a rock to the other.

"That's great Izu." He hugs me and we go to play. We play until the sun sets and then I go home. My dad waiting there, but I'm not afraid. He engulfs me into a hug and I show him what I can do.

"Good job little one, why don't we clean you up and get ready for dinner."

"Okay dad." We go and I wash my hands. But something's off. I try to ignore it and go eat. After eating I go to bed. But when I wake up, I get that feeling again. Something isn't right. I get ready for school and I'm older now, probably 10, and I go to walk with Kacchan. But I overhear him saying something.

"That stupid idiot Deku, thinking I actually care, fuck no, I just pity him. Well with his dad. There's no point in him living, he's just a sorry excuse of a human."

In my sleep I started shaking violently, and scratching my arms, hard. I'm once again not fully awake, but I'm conscious. I feel Kacchan wake up trying to stop me, that's when I wake up fully. I move away from him. I still scratch my arms and eventually feel warm liquid on my fingers.

"Izu, listen to me, it's alright, it was just a dream. You're okay. Why don't you talk about it?"

"N-no, I can't, y-you'll get mad."

"Does it sound like I plan on getting mad any time soon?"

"I k-know you."

"Listen Deku, just talk to me, you're safe here." He slowly starts to approach, my arm is bleeding but I'm still scratching, I can't stop. When he gets to me he grabs my hand away from my arm, he helps me up, but decides to just carry me, he takes me to the bathroom. He's doing what he did when I cut. And sure enough I felt the sting of the water and he starts wrapping my arm.

"Izuku? Katsuki? What happened?"

"Nothing mom, just go."

"Katsuki, stop right now. I get it, you know more but you need an adult."

"I-I'm fine Mrs. Bakugou, it's nothing." I say it with a smile.

"I need to know what happened."

"I-I'm sorry, I'm making everyone worry..."

"Izu, you don't need to apologize, remember we're working on it."

"I-I know, it's just... I've done so much, I even told you I didn't w-want to get better..."

"Mom, can we talk, just me and him?"

"I expect to be told what happened later." And she left, I broke. I was full on sobbing.

"I'm s-sorry, I'm so sorry K-Kacchan."

"Hey, look at me, we're working through this, you're relying on pain still, you need to rely on me. Let me be your new habit, hit me, hug me, anything as long as you are getting it out."

"I-I don't want to h-hurt you."

"You won't, I promise. Now, can I finish wrapping your arm?" I give him my arm, but I hate it, he's taking care of my own mistake.

"S-stop."

"If I don't wrap it you'll pick at it."

"I-I should take care of it, it's my fault I hurt myself."

"Let me, I know you were doing it to get out of whatever dream you were in. You weren't even conscious doing it."

"B-but I shouldn't rely on you."

"Why? Is it so bad that you hate even seeing someone want to willingly help you?"

"Y-yes."

"Why?"

"B-Because that means there's one more person keeping me here."

"IDIOT! You really are a fucking idiot." I jumped, shit he's mad. Oh shut up, you wanted him to get mad. Go away. Why? Hate being called out?

"J-just stop. Please." I looked up after Kacchan's grip loosened... Did I say that out loud?

"Stop what?"

"That wasn't meant out loud." I zoned out after, letting Kacchan do what he needed to. What's the point in fighting? He clearly doesn't want to be the cause of my death.