~~~3rd POV~~~

The group of teens had come upstairs to the green-haired boys' room, wanting to bring them back down for the game, seeing as the seven minutes were up. They opened the door not to see two boys with disheveled clothes or messy hair, or even looking like they did something. Instead what they found were the two boys hugging each other, you could hear slight whispers from the blond but couldn't make out a single word.

~~~Kacchan's POV~~~

We had started to kiss, which we broke away after a minute due to Izu not wanting to kiss in front of the idiots. So I stuck to whispering sweet nothings. This week hasn't been easy for him, I know, I also know that he didn't tell me the full story about the memory. I just want to help him, I mean he doesn't deserve this life. He doesn't deserve to be this sad, this broken. I just want to save him, but I know he feels useless, like he can't do anything. We return downstairs and it's my turn.

"Shinsou, truth or dare dumbass."

"Truth."

"Tch, least favorite thing about yourself."

"Quirk." That's where the game left off. We continued to watch movies throughout the night and made dinner halfway through the second movie. Deku was the first to fall asleep, it was around eleven when he did, and I could tell for an hour he was fighting it.

"I was wondering- oh, Izu's asleep. Well we can talk about this tomorrow," Raccoon eyes started.

"We can fill him in, what is it," I kindly asked.

"I was just wondering what everyone's pronouns were, considering none of us really know each other that well, besides Zu, you Shinsou and sorta Kami, then Jirou, Kiri, and I."

"Well I go by he/him, I think Deku does, but he might still be discovering himself so I'll leave it at that."

"I go by she/her," Pinky said.

"He/they," Eyebags added.

"Same here," didn't really expect different from Pikaboy

"He/him, but that's really manly of you for asking Ashido."

"She/her, but I've wanted to try she/they I just don't know," Earphones ended.

"Sooo if you don't mind me asking, how did all of you discover the community? I discovered it because I noticed that girls are really attractive, but so are guys so I had asked some friends and they helped me," alien added, didn't really expect that but it's chill.

"I didn't really discover it. I just knew a girl wasn't the one for me, I think I'm a bit too ya know."

"Hey, you can change your outlook on that, you're just a bit tempered, and I just kinda found it while I was online one day."

"Shut the hell up Shitty Hair."

"My parents were very open about all that, mom's pans and dad's demi," huh, I could see her mom but wha-

"What's demi," of course shitty hair had to ask.

"O-oh, well it's where you are only s-sexually attracted to people you have bonds with. L-like my dad wouldn't go and have a one night stand before he was with my mom, not saying he would now because he wouldn't."

"My dads, papa is gay, hence why he's with dad, and dad's trans and goes by he/they. They made sure I was okay with them and then said they'll accept me how I am."

"Kinda a mixture with Mina's and Kirishima's, he/him didn't feel right, but she/her didn't either, they/them was alright but when I had people switch from he to they every so often that felt right, and then you have me being bi and questioning if I'm poly."

"Got it, so what do you guys wanna do? I know Izu-babe's already asleep, but we know he wouldn't want us to not do anything."

"You're right dumbass, he'd feel bad, but what do you want to do? I mean we can't be too loud or I'm gonna explode your asses if he wakes up."

"What about horror movies," Shitty hair produced.

"Whatever."

"Sounds cool," Pikachu supplied. The others just nodded in agreement. So we sat and watched basic horror movies, we decided on shit like Final Destination, Friday the Thirteenth, Leprechaun. Half-way through the first Final Destination Deku started shifting, his chest rising fast.

~~~Izu's POV (Dream/flashback) (I KNOW I'M SORRY)~~~

I'm looking around and see... dad? Shit.

"Hey Izuku, how's my little man?" Huh?

"D-dada- I-I can't be a h-hero." It clicked. This was the day that we came back from the doctors when I was four. Little did four year old me know that that was the last normal day of his life.

"Hey, baby, no. It's okay that you can't be a hero, right Hazishi?"

"Why can't he be a hero?"

"O-oh, well. We went to the doctors today, and they said Izuku was quirkless." I watched as dad's face switched between three emotions, anger, pity, and disgust.

"I-I can s-still save people like A-All Might r-right?" Little four year old naive me ran to the man and tried to hug him, looking for some sort of reassurance. Only to be pushed away by the same man and told to get cleaned up for dinner by mom. The scene melts away and I'm replaced in the same house, but this time I'm not looking through my smaller self's eyes. This time I see the child, no bright smile, no emotion at all actually. Seeing as that child is on the living room floor, red blotches forming on the small body, the culprit picking the child up and placing him in his designated room, as to not cause suspicion from mom.

"Love, Izuku I'm home-"

"Shh, he's asleep."

"O-oh, Sashi, I think we should get him checked out. He hasn't been the same since he found out three weeks ago."

"There's nothing to get checked out. He's four, what could possibly be going on to make him have to get checked out?"

"Maybe, but you can't tell me he doesn't seem different-"

"Enough with this damn shit. He is four years old and there is nothing wrong with him." Jokes on you dickwad. Mom remained quiet, although she looked taken back. The scene starts fading again and I see Kacchan's room, so three months after the start. I see the bruises on my stomach and back. Kacchan looked pissed and was pacing as I was sitting on his bed.

"Deku, what happened?"

"I-I can't say please leave it be Kacchan!"

"NO! What happened?"

"P-please." He walks over to me, lightly cupping my cheek.

"Deku, please tell me."

"D-dad."

"Dammit Deku, come on."

"W-where Kacchan?"

"We're showing your mom so she can leave the bastard."

"No Kacchan, it's fine. Please don't!"

"Why?"

"Mom loves him. I can't ruin that Kacchan!" I can see his face contort into anger as he walks away from me, going to a wall nearby and punching it, although as he did he left scorch marks since he didn't have control of his quirk. In saying that there was also an explosion that set off also. I rush to put my shirt back on as I hear-

"KATSUKI WHAT DID I SAY ABOUT EXPLOSIONS INSIDE!" Both of those sounds set me into some sort of fit, I couldn't breathe and I saw blurs as the tears trail down my face. I hear Auntie come upstairs and that makes it worse. I know who it is but the sound isn't- I can't. I feel Kacchan try to help me, trying to calm me down.

"Katsuki, why the hell is Izuku crying and what the hell made you set an explosion!" That made it worse.

"Get out old hag," he mutters as he's sitting next to me, rubbing my back trying to relax me.

"Don't talk to me like that brat! What the hell happened!?"

"Nothing. Leave so I can calm Deku down."

"Do I need to call Hisashi?" My eyes widened and I start to shake slightly worse although only Kacchan took notice.

"No hag. He's staying the night and I have this under control so leave before you make him worse."

"Be?"

"Babe, are you okay?" I look around to see everyone watching a movie, besides Kacchan seeing as he shook me awake and is looking rather concerned. I feel my face scrunch, shaking my head, and rush into his arms, tears threatening to fall.

"Hey, idiots, we'll be back," Kacchan announces before he lifts me up and takes me to my room, sitting on my bed, me sitting on him.

"What happened?" His hand lightly caressing my left cheek, wiping the tears that started falling away.

"I-it was a-a dream about w-when I was f-four, d-dad-"

"Shhh, it's okay love. He's not here. Everythings okay." He rubs my back, slightly tracing random shapes on it as he leans me onto his chest. Slightly humming the tune to Sunshine to calm me down. I can't seem to stop shaking for a while, and I end up nearly jumping out of my skin when we hear a knock on the door.

"Shhh, it's okay baby. Remember, we have the idiots downstairs. Who is it?"

"Shinsou."

"Do you want him to come in?" I slightly nod.

"Doors open." I hear it creak slightly.

"Hey, Zu. Are you okay?" His voice fills the silent room, making it seem louder than it actually was.

"Do you want to tell him or me?" I poke his chest slightly.

"It was a dream/flashback of back when he was four."

"Izuku, are you okay?" He's now stepping further into the room, from the sound of his voice he's right next to me, voice still a whisper but extremely loud in the room.

"N-no."

"Can you talk about it?"

"I-it was about d-dad. It was b-back when I had j-just told him I w-was quirkless, then the t-time he started... ya know, and t-then it was when K-Kacchan found out."

"Do you want me to text Aato?"

"N-no, it's what t-two am? I-I don't w-want to bother him."

"Zu, you need to talk to someone that knows how to deal with this, Bakugou and I- we can only calm you down. You won't be bothering him anyways. He wants to help you."

"I-I'm fine guys, r-really. Go back d-downstairs. I'll be d-down after."

"I'm not leaving you alone after that. Please talk to us."

"N-no, everyone's probably worried. I-I'll tell Kacchan Monday."

"Stop with that. Please babe. We know you're going to keep pushing it off so you can forget. Please just tell us."

"I'll go tell the others not to worry," Toshi left after, only to return about three minutes later, "I texted Aato. He said he would like to call if you are open to it."

"I-I told you not to bother h-him."

"I had just asked if he was awake, he responded immediately and I told him about the events today. Midoriya, he wants to help you just like the rest of us."

"Zu, if you don't let him sit on call with us you'll just have to repeat this again Thursday."

"F-fine." I sit back on my bed, the way most do and hit my head against the headboard/wall as I hear the dial tone.

"Hey Aato, you're on speaker."

"Who's all in the room," I hear come from the phone.

"Just me, Kacchan, and Toshi."

"Alright. Can you tell me everything?"

"W-well it started when we were at the park, Shin had asked me how I would have planned." I hear scratches on paper.

"Continue."

"I explained h-how I have a notepad on m-my phone where I can put notebooks with s-specific topics on, i-it has the ability to have a lock and that would be where I w-would write my note, maybe v-voice recordings. J-just ways to h-help everyone when I leave. T-then there would be a-another notebook for the plan, w-ways to detach, ways to prepare, t-the way I-I'd go. B-but it wouldn't actually h-happen until winter. I would eat less, but n-not so much that Kacchan would take notice, and use o-other techniques to lose weight, l-like jogging. The loss in weight w-would help freeze quicker. I-I would leave my phone at the house, and Kacchan would find it. W-with the code to the app, w-where he would show those who had notes their s-specific notes. Considering I d-don't want mom seeing d-dads. T-then I'd let everyone move o-on with their lives."

"What else happened today?" He sounded tired.

"A-Aato if you're tired, p-please go to bed. I don't want t-to keep you up with my useless p-problems."

"Kid, I'm not tired, and your problems aren't useless. Go on."

"T-then Kacchan and I were talking a-about our past. D-dad got brought up a-and he had asked if I f-forgive him, to which I stated that I understand w-why he did it. How the w-words felt right."

"Okay, what else?"

"T-then I had a flashback o-of Monday, when mom told m-me of going out of town. I-I had been sitting in the mirror- the o-one over there, and my thoughts b-became what I spoke to the boy in the m-mirror. Leading me to the i-idea of planning."

"Alright, what were the thoughts?"

"All of them?"

"Yes." So I grab my phone from my pocket, going to the notepad that I stated earlier, entering the date of when Kacchan and I got together, which is 0608 and find the note I wrote after mom told me.

"Worthless, wannabe, annoying, attention seeker, faker, ugly, just die, no one likes you, you deserved it, you asked for it, why can't you just leave everyone alone," I take a breath, allowing these to seep in as I gulp before continuing, "you're fat, your nose is too big, you look like a child, no one wants a broken human, you're a failure, it's pointless honestly you don't love anyone, no one loves you, push everyone close away, they're just playing, you're annoying everyone by living," I take another shaky breath, slightly shaking as the depth of these words seep deeper into my being, "this one's referring to mom being sad stating how I did it, then it telling me to take the time alone to plan, stating how no one would notice and asking who'd even miss me." I feel as the silence runs through me, every little gush of wind making my body feel even colder, feeling the chills run throughout my being as if telling me I shouldn't have said that.

"What started it?"

"I-I don't know Aato," my voice cracks as I try to think of a reason coming up empty, "I was just looking at myself, assessing how I am no longer who I was, taking in what I've done to myself, my eye's my freckles that look like fallen stars with no true place so they look misplaced and ugly, the scab on my cheek, I don't even need to look in a mirror for my scars. I-I've memorized every sin- single one of them. How they feel under my fingertips, where they came from. I-I'm sick of how I look."

"Midoriya, was it the events from the past few weeks? With the old man and the kids at the billiards place?'

"I-I don't know." I let my head once again fall onto the headboard, with a not-so-light thud.

"Alright, what happened next?" I audibly gulp.

"I had fallen asleep, a-and a flashback from the d-day I had found out a-about me being quirkless, t-then three weeks later, and then w-when Kacchan found out."

"What was three weeks later?"

"I-it was when d-dad started..."

"Okay, so do you know what led to all this?" I shake my head, only to realize only Kacchan and Toshi can see me.
"N-no, last night- after everything at least- it was going good, t-then at the park, like one or some shit, that's when it all started."

"Did you take one of the anti-depressants?"

"Y-yeah, Kacchan sat and watched me. I-it was almost ten, that's when we had to leave."

"It could have been a bad reaction to the dosage. But there could be other causes, was there anything that made you think about all of this?"

"I-I mean I mentioned to Denks about w-wanting to plan, a-and before we watched a movie, I-I thought back to making K-Kacchan burn me..."

"I see. What happened after you told Kaminari about you planning?"

"I t-think he told Shin, I-I found them talking in the woods, a-and Kami came to get me. Toshi had asked me w-what made me start. I explained, t-then Shin asked how I would have planned. I-I explained it to him Then K-Kacchan came back-"

"Wait, you're saying Bakugou didn't stay with you guys when you discussed it?"

'Y-yeah, we didn't want to worry the group."

"Alright, so how were you going to plan?" I explained it the way I did to Shin, the same details and everything. Everything.

"T-then Toshi pointed out the flaws... I-I didn't like that."

"He pointed out how there's a chance that Bakugou wouldn't find it before anyone, if someone were to notice the eating and weight. If it wouldn't be cold enough."

"I also stated how everyone might miss him and pointed out how he wants to erase himself and it isn't possible."

"What else?"

"I stated how when d-dad found out about w-well everything, how I'm as good as d-dead anyways."

"Then I said to let you tell the authorities, the bastard doesn't deserve to walk wherever he is."

"That spiraled me more, b-because mom needs him, Mina found us due to T-Toshi yelling and comforted me. Asking i-if I wanted Kacchan, I said no b-because I didn't want him t-to see me like that, after he put e-everything together to help."

"Eyebags here told me about it, explaining how Deku was crying and I went to find him. I wanted to blow the damn insomniac up because at the time I thought he left Zu alone."

"T-then we got talking, I told him what S-Shin said, and he questioned w-why mom doesn't know about h-him bullying me or about d-dad. I stated how I've forgiven him a-and-"

"And Bakugou asked if you forgave your father?"

"Y-yeah, he started getting upset b-because I said I understood w-why he did it-"

"Of course I'd get mad babe! You stated how you thought you deserved it! What was I supposed to do?"

"Shhhh, they're gonna hear you!"

"The movie's too loud, unless they're outside the door trying to listen, and if they are that ignorant then I'll kill them."

"So that explains a little bit, but what made the flashback from Monday come?"

"I'm not sure, I was just sitting there and everything faded. It was after Kacchan told Kirishima that he won't be used as a surrogate for anything again," it's evident that I sound guilty and ashamed. I didn't want him to feel used. Thinking more on it I felt my heart clench.

"Maybe that impliance made you feel as though you thought right to want to leave? Like somehow that confirmed one of your thoughts so you thought back to Monday?"

"N-no, don't ever suggest that!" I know I said it too rushed to be true, I know Kacchan, Toshi, and Aato know that I just don't want to hurt Kacchan. Fuck.

"I'm not stating that Bakugou is the cause of it all, but with the way you think. Your brain turned his words against him so you have a reason to leave. You use words others say and twist them so you can use that as an excuse. Although Bakugou shouldn't have implied that, he didn't mean any harm and we all know that."

"I'm done. You guys are p-putting words in my m-mouth now. I'll be fine, j-just leave me alone."