~~~Izu's POV~~~

Kacchan is staying the night great. Well I just need to hide my-

"Before you think about it, I'm taking the razor." Shit.

"If you can find it."

"No you will hand it over." Dammit.

"I don't know where I put it."

"Damn liar, you wouldn't forget where you put it. Please just get it and give it to me, all of them if you have more" He knows me too well.

"Tomorrow, I want to sleep."

"Fine, you go to bed and I'll search."

"Kacchan, please?"

"If it was something else I wouldn't do this but I can't let you hurt yourself anymore. Now please give me all of them."

"N-Fine." This pisses me off, why does he get to take them, he doesn't even care about me. I go and get the three I have and hand them to him.

"This all of em?"

"Yeah, but I don't even see why you want them, not like you care." Am I purposely trying to get under his skin? Hmmmm maybe. Do I want to anger him? Most definitely.

"Don't say I don't fucking care, if I didn't care would I have punched a wall?" He's got a point. Shut up. No, you like it when he reasons with you so just let him. Fuck that, he's trying to make me stay.

"You've got a point, but how do I know that it wasn't just because you wish it was you that left the bruises?"

"I never wanted to leave bruises so shut your fucking mouth right now. If you don't I'll tell aunt Inko about your dad." Damn he knows I don't want to split them.

"I'm just saying." I mutter. We walk into my room, only to walk back out again, we forgot to brush our teeth... Dammit. We brush our teeth and on the way back to my room we see my mom.

"Goodnight mom, love you." I say giving her a kiss on the cheek.

"Goodnight auntie." Katsuki says, giving her a hug and it seems like he said something.

"Goodnight kids, breakfast will be ready when you guys wake up, don't forget you guys have school tomorrow love you guys." With that we head to my room, lucky for Kacchan I have two chargers, we put our phones on the chargers and I give him some sleeping clothes, he goes into the closet to change while I changed in my room. Damn Kacchan wanting me to be safe, I don't want his fucking help. But you do. You want him to pull you from this hell and fix you. Maybe but it doesn't mean he needs to know. I guess I got distracted because I'm only in my sleeping pants when he walked out. I mean I sleep without a shirt as is. But he doesn't need to see. Too late. Shut up.

"Izu, you need to eat more."

"It hurts when I do." It's not a lie.

"But you have to try, this isn't healthy."

"And why are you using the nickname?"

"I don't know, I just like it."

"Whatever Kacchan, can I put a shirt on?"

"Mmmm no."

"Stop joking."

"Izu, I've known you forever, shirts make you feel like you're choking, you don't have to wear one."

"Are you sure?"

"I want you comfortable in your own house."

"Okay Kacchan." That can't be the real reason... What is he up to?

"Come on let's go to bed." I lay down and start to doze off, What if things were only different. What if I could just jump, without someone caring? I slowly feel something on my back, but it feels nice. I fall asleep just like that.

~~~~Bakugou's POV~~~

Dammit Izu, I need you to be okay. You need to eat more, you need more sleep, you can't keep this up. Can't you see you're damaging yourself so badly that it's killing me. It's no secret that I have a crush on this broccoli head, I can't lose him to this shit, I should have been here for him. He needs to feel safe with me. He needs to know he can lean on me. When I was hugging auntie I handed her the razors, Izu doesn't know though I made it seem like I was talking to her. Subconsciously I start to draw things on his back, he tensed at first then I felt his breathing relax. He's asleep, cute. I lay down fully and drift to sleep. But I ended up waking up around two a.m., I felt Izuku shaking. Shit he's having a nightmare. I inch my way to him, he's laying on his side, back facing me, and I do the only thing I can think of that might help. I hug him close and kiss his head. He slowly calms down but he won't let me move away, his arm is hugging my arm tight. Like he's scared I'm going to leave. This will be hard to explain in the morning, it doesn't matter just sleep and deal with it when we wake up. I fell back into a peaceful sleep.

~~~~~In the morning Izuku's POV~~~~~

When I woke up, I felt a pressure on my back, and I realize my arm is wrapped around something. SHIT Kacchan slept here last night.

"Morning Deku."

"M-morning Kacchan." We get up and head down stairs, mom made breakfast for us and it looks like Mrs. Bakugou brought over a uniform and bag.

"We need to talk after breakfast." Oh no... What does he want now?

"O-okay." We sit in silence and I get my normal portion, but Kacchan sees I guess and isn't satisfied with it so he puts more on my plate. More than I think I can handle right now.

"Eat what you can."

"Katsuki?" Shit my mom is gonna question.

"Thank you."

"No thanks needed, Deku is my friend. And thank you for letting me stay the night and for breakfast auntie." At least they haven't mentioned me really.

"So what have you been up to? It's been quite awhile since you guys really hung out."

"I-I guess it has been a bit mom. But you don't need to b-bother him. I'm the one who pushed him away."

"Izu, you know it isn't true, but I've been alright. Mom's still the yelling type and seems to get angrier easier."

"What do you mean Katsuki? And I know, she has always been the one with anger."

"N-nothing mom, drop it please."

"If Izuku doesn't want to talk about it right now is it alright if we drop that topic? Maybe in the future."

"Of course, I don't mean to push." Thank All Might, I thought he'd out himself. We eat the rest of our meal in peace, I eat a few bites more than what I usually do. It isn't because Kacchan asked! Sure it isn't Izuku. Why is my brain fighting me?! Because it's fun, you know you like him, so stop trying to deflect your actions and maybe I'll stop teasing.

"Oh, you kids should go get ready! Don't want to be late." Damn it's already an hour until school? Guess time does fly. We get up and go upstairs. Going into my room and I get my uniform.

"Deku."

"What?" It came out more harsh than I meant dammit.

"How often do you get nightmares?" Huh? Why is he asking?

"Why?"

"You had one last night, hence the position we were in. The only way I know how to calm a sleeping person is to hug them and try to get them to relax with soft touches and calm heart beats." Oh, so that's why...

"I don't know, three times a week? At least."

"How much do you sleep?" Harder question, he's trying to get me to talk, as if he cares.

"Why the fuck do you care." I'm getting defensive, he doesn't need to know.

"Because you're my friend."

"Really Kacchan? I'm your friend? Did I miss when you told me those words were jokes or those punches were just for fun?" I'm losing my cool, shit he's going to get mad.

"Izuku." I don't look at him. I have my back to him and my door, facing my window. The window I often find myself wishing it were just a bit higher.

"I'm sorry. Forget I said anything."

"Fuck no. You think I enjoyed seeing the hurt in your eyes when I rejected you? When all you wanted was to be by my side? When you just wanted to support me and take care of me?"

"Why didn't you stop then? Why did it take you seeing me want to kill myself for you to finally stop hurting me?" I'm in full tears by now.

"Izu, I needed you to stop wanting to be a hero, I told you this. I need you safe and if you are out there one day and a villain knows your weakness then it'll kill me."

"Kacchan, I'm sorry. But as I said, I'm not giving up, and you promised to help me. I'm holding you to that."

"If it keeps you here then I'm more than in. But talk to me. Tell me things, quit pushing me away, you need someone and here I am."

"I don't want to talk Kacchan." I'm deflating. My energy is gone. Not like I had any.

"Izuku Midoriya. What's so wrong with wanting to talk?"

"When you talk that means you want help. When you talk, that gives you a reason to stay. When you talk it tells people you aren't leaving. I can't give that false hope."

"ENOUGH!" I flinch, I officially pissed him off.

"I'm sorry."

"No, you don't get to apologize you bastard. You act like all you're hurting is yourself. But did you think about your mother? Did you think about me? Your mom has called my mom many times, crying. You never leave the room. You don't eat enough. You barely sleep enough."

"I know. I'm sorry. I need to stop worrying everyone. But I can't. You forget that this room brings back so many memories. I can't leave it though. It's my own personal hell but also my seclusion from him. I keep dreaming of everything that's happened and it was all in this room."

"I know Izu, but you can't hold this in. Let me go to your meeting next week."

"N-no. I don't think he'll let you-"

"Don't use that excuse, if you say my name I doubt he'll reject. Let me go please."

"F-fine, but don't hate me."

"I could never." He's been moving closer this whole time, I'm shaking from his yelling still and he knows it. A few more steps and he hugs me. I know it's pointless to try and move from his arms. So I just turn around and hug him tighter. I start to break down. We hug for ten minutes, since we got up to my room to now it's been about 25 minutes, so we need to get ready.

"Kacchan, we have 35 minutes until school starts, we need to get ready."

"Okay." With that we both start to change, I'm not sure why last night he went to the closet but it doesn't matter. We grab our stuff, I grab my sketchbook and both of our phones and we leave the house. Exchanging goodbyes with my mother, and then hell. Well school but what's the difference?

"You should probably go find your lackeys. Don't want anyone seeing you with me."

"Enough Deku, I get it I've been a dick. All I did was put you down. I'm sorry. I just didn't want you hurt. But in the end I'm the one who hurt you." Dammit, I was hoping I could at least get him mad enough he would yell, to stay home, at least there I wouldn't be around Kacchan. He doesn't care, he just pity's you. I know, why do you think I'm trying to get away?

"Deku? You good?"

"Why do you care?" I don't know if this is meant to be answered or to piss him off and it scares me.

"Because dammit, I've never not cared about you, I've never hated you. All I wanted was you to be safe. I'll keep saying that until you get it through your thick ass skull. Got it?"

"You just pity me Kacchan, I get it, you don't want to be the cause of my death, but it wouldn't have been you, so stop acting dammit."

"I pity you? YOU THINK I FUCKING PITY YOU? You're more thick-headed than I thought." He's getting worked up, finally.

"I mean why else would you have came to help my panic attack? Why else would you have stayed the night and taken care of my cut? You don't like or care about me Kacchan, and I know you're going to say that it's me trying to push you away. And maybe it is. But I don't want pity."

"Deku, I'm not fucking playing. No way in hell will I let you push me away, I've screwed up enough and I see that. I fucking care about you dumbass, why can't you see that? If I didn't I wouldn't have ran last night, if I didn't I wouldn't have exploded my wall all those years ago. So don't you dare say I don't fucking care. I'll end up showing you one way or another, just wait." I was left speechless. He's trying to get you to believe him, don't, it's a trap. What if he actually cares though? Are you going to believe a bully over your own brain idiot? I-I don't know...

"Now come on, we're going to be late. Don't make me drag you by the hand and run."

"R-right. I'm sorry Kacchan." No you aren't. You want him to give up, you're just useless and can't do anything right. Hell you got caught and are now being forced to stay here all because you were a useless idiot. S-stop... Why should I? We know it's true. Honestly, do you think your mom actually wants you here, your dad, Kacchan? Do you think you can really make it as a hero? When you can't even help yourself? Pathetic DEKU. Maybe you're right... You know I am. After that I just walked to school like nothing was wrong. Like I wasn't having a fight with myself. I sometimes wonder if anyone has a mind reading quirk. Have they heard my thoughts?

Throughout the school day I kept zoning in and out, I couldn't help it, my thoughts were getting too loud.

"Miss?"

"Yes Midoriya?"

"M-may I go to the nurses office? I have a bad headache."

"You may, but take someone with you."

"N-no I'm fine, I can go alone."

"I'll take him." Fuck, the last person I wanted.

"Kacchan it's fine, I'm not dizzy or anything, I just want silence."

"No, you both go, I'll send notes and work down if you end up staying later than class."

"Thank you ma'am." Dammit. We leave the room and I walk fast paced.

"Oi, Deku, wait man." Go away.

"I'm fine Kacchan."

"No, talk to me."

"NO!"

"Izuku Midoriya. Talk to me right now."

"No." I stated firmly.

"I'll call my mom and tell her to expect us at the house after school, you're staying the weekend."

"I don't want to."

"Too bad, we're sitting in silence at the nurse's and then we talk at my house."

"You can't make me."

"Fucking bet."