~~~Kacchan's POV~~~

While we were driving I just sat in thought. Has he really been hurting himself still? Does he hate himself so much? Or is it me he hates? No, don't think that. If he hated you he wouldn't be around you. I shake the thought out of my head.

"So, what do you guys want for dinner? I can cook something or we could get something."

"I don't care auntie, I'm fine with whatever."

"You pick mom."

"Okay, how was the meeting?"

"It was alright, I mean how else would it go?" I nudged him slightly after that.

"Don't be rude Izu, she just wants you happy." He sighs. Then lays his head on my lap. I gently play with his hair, it's surprisingly soft and has few knots. He relaxes into the touch and his breath evens out. Why can't he see that people care for him? I know he hates it, but we aren't going anywhere. I'm snapped out of my thoughts when he shivers, I chuckle lightly and grab my coat, laying it over him. This nerd, he has my heart, I know that but what if we never get together? What if he decides to find someone else? Or loses what he holds for me? He only likes me because I was the first one to help him that knew everything. He feels like he owes me something, but he doesn't. I just want him happy, just like his mom, just like everyone who cares about him. I wish he could just see that. We pull into the driveway, unbuckling, I try to get out, but Deku hasn't moved yet. I lightly tap him.

"Come on nerd." He groans slightly but gets up. We walk into the house, and go up stairs. Before I go I grab my bag from the couch, I set it there waiting for Izu before going to Aato.

"Katsuki?"

"Yes auntie?"

"Keep him here?"

"I will, we're trying, it'll get better. I promise." I go over to hug her, I never realized how much physical contact has been lost, with the dick and Izu. She's holding me like a lifeline.

"I'll fix this. I'll get him back for you." If it's the last thing I do. I gently pull away, going upstairs. I walk to his room, seeing that he has his laptop and phone set up. I think he's about to sing.

"Hey, can I sit in here?"

"Y-yeah, if you want to, I'm just about to sing if that's alright."

"Go ahead." So the music started. I read the name on the screen. Silent Scream by Damien Dawn

I'm caught up in your expectations.

You're trying to make me live your dream.

But I'm causing you so much frustration.

And you only want the best for me.

You wanted me to show more interests.

To always keep a big bright smile.

But every day I fail to impress.

So I cry once in a while.

And this storm is rising inside of me.

Don't you feel that our whole worlds collide?

It's getting harder to breathe.

It hurts deep inside.

Just let me be

Who I am.

It's what you really need to understand.

And I hope so hard for the pain to go away.

And it's torturing me.

But I can't break free.

So I cry and cry but just won't get it out

The Silent Scream.

Tell me why you're putting pressure on me.

And everyday you cause me harm.

That's the reason why I feel so lonely.

Even though you hold me in your arms.

Wanna put me in a box of glitter.

But I'm just trying to get right out.

And now you're feeling so so bitter.

Because I let you down.

And this storm is rising inside of me.

Don't you feel that our whole worlds collide?

It's getting harder to breathe.

It hurts deep inside.

Just let me be

Who I am.

It's what you really need to understand.

And I hope so hard for the pain to go away.

And it's torturing me.

But I can't break free.

So I cry and cry but just won't get it out

The Silent Scream.

Can't you see how I cry for help.

Cause you should love me just for being myself.

I'll drown in an ocean

Of pain and emotion.

If you don't save me right away.

Just let me be

Who I am.

It's what you really need to understand.

And I hope so hard for the pain to go away.

And it's torturing me.

But I can't break free.

So I cry and cry but just won't get it out

The Silent Scream.

When the song ended, I saw him turn off his recording, lightly shutting his laptop and just sit there, head down. I walk over to him, gently pulling his face to look at me. He was crying.

"Hey, what's wrong?"

"N-nothing, don't worry Kacchan." He started wiping his tears, until I stopped him, wiping them for him, softer that he had.

"None of that."

"Kacchan, I promise it's nothing."

"The song hit too deep didn't it?" He looked down, I knew it did.

"Alright, come on." I help him over to his bed, the kids exhausted. He pulls me down with him, giggling slightly. Only he could make a giggle sound so sad.

"Hi." He smiled so brightly.

"Hey." I relaxed and smiled softly.

"I like your smile." I blush at that.

"Shut up." All we've been doing since our first kiss is being friends, who kiss and cuddle. I'm not going to kiss him. Not unless he initiates it. I don't want to make it feel like I just want to kiss. He gently nuzzles into my neck, kissing it lightly. Dammit.

"What are you doing nerd?"

"Nothing, don't pay attention." Idiot. Before I was able to say anything else I felt him set an open mouth kiss on my neck, making my heart beat faster.

"Izu," I try to warn, but it's more breathy than I expected. Fuck. I feel him lightly travel my neck, until he finds my collarbone, or he was meaning to kiss my whole neck. I don't know. I feel him lightly bite me, I inhale quickly.

"Is this payback for earlier?" He doesn't respond, just lightly sucking the area he chose. He stays there for a minute or two, I'm positive I'll have a mark. This little shit.

"It wasn't payback Kacchan, just wanted to mark what's mine." He gives a cheeky smile, until he gasps when I lean down and kiss his neck. If he gave me one, only right for me to give him one. I look for the right spot, I don't want it to be seen but I want it where he can see it when he looks, so near the collarbone, I don't want to repeat him though, so I did it slightly away from it. I slightly suck on the skin, seeing what reaction I could get from him, it was a slight gasp with an increased heartbeat. I start to nibble on the area chosen, starting to get rougher.

"Boys." We hear a knock. Fuck. I detach myself.

"This isn't over Deku."

"Yeah mom?" He just rolled his eyes at me.

"Food will be done in a minute."

"Alright auntie, thank you." I hear her walk away and I go back for his neck.

"Kacchan, we should head downstairs."

"In a minute, I'm marking what's mine." I growl lightly. Continuing my process of giving him a hickey, making his rose blush come back as he tried to hide his gasp. After a minute or so of biting and sucking I move away, looking at the red puffy skin, rubbing my thumb across it, making him blush more and try to pull his shirt up.

"Hey, you gave me one. Only fair I get to return the favor."

"T-true, let's just go eat." He lets his blush go after a few minutes of breathing correctly.

"Nerd." We walked down stairs, making sure our shirts were proper before we left. We got our plates and sat down.

"Do you boys want to watch a movie after dinner?"

"Sure, what were you thinking mom?"

"Just something, maybe The Greatest Showman?"

"I'm down." With that we finished eating, heading to the living room to play the movie, Izu fell asleep halfway through it, classic Deku. I tap him when the movie's over and tell him to go brush his teeth as we both go up stairs, waiting for him to finish I get changed. Then we switch and I go to brush my teeth while he changes. I walk back into the bedroom seeing him look at himself in the mirror, watching his hand brush over the red spot on his neck. I watch as the blush returns to his face.

"Hey, there are tricks to get rid of it." I hate that he might think about it but I should have asked in the first place.

"N-no, I'm fine with it." His blush deepens as he traces the puffed skin.

"I'm sorry, I should have asked."

"You're fine Kacchan, I started it, besides I like it." I blushed at that.

"Alright dork, come on. Let's go to bed." We lay down after I shut the light off and I wrap my arms around his waist as his back is towards me. We're basically spooning with me being the big spoon. But I'm alright with that. I tuck my head in his hair, pulling him closer as I let sleep take over. When I wake up, it's to Izu's alarm for school. He slept through the night without a nightmare. That's an improvement. With that thought I slowly untangled us, heading to my bag to grab my clothes for the day, going to the bathroom to get changed while Izu got ready in his room.

"Morning boys, how'd you guys sleep?"

"Alright, and through the night, what about you mom?"

"Same."

"I slept alright, I'm glad you boys were able to sleep." With that we ate breakfast, we still had an hour and a half before school. When we finished we went to brush our teeth, then get our bags, that's when I went over to him and pulled his collar down. Seeing the mark start turning purple.

"K-Kacchan?" I just kiss his cheek lightly and we head out. God I love this nerd.

Author's note

Hey guys, so I'm going to start posting on Fridays only, I may do one every so often on a different day but I'm not sure. Love y'all <3