I spent the next 3 weeks ( the time that Sara had given me leave to fully heal and go back to 100 percent operation) I sifted through all the books of the ancient section of the library, I reviewed every single decipherment, every single word ,every single comma, nothing.
I couldn't find any clue, any trace of what the phrase might mean, "and from one defeat, if it comes out victorious," I tried to give it the stupidest meanings, I thought that even a stupid thought could give me that flash of genius that I needed to finally put an end to this suffering , but I was wrong, I wanted nothing . I had become obsessed with that phrase, it kept ringing my head like an amleodia that slowly dragged me to the bottom with him, it was official: Aliar still showed me how he can get the better of me and torment me:
argo" tara, tara, tara tuto ok? Feel argo shaking me, but what happened? I realized that I was asleep on the books, once again
Tars" yes yes, Philip 5 more minutes "
Argo" Tara, I'm Argo, and it's already late at night, the librarian asked me to join you in your room if you don't close your teeth, again" You hear a concerned tone in the voice of Argo, maybe it was because I had become very antisocial, I had reduced all contact with the outside world, I would have resumed obviously after I could finally decipher this sentence; but time I pass faster than I thought :
argo" come tara, I'll pull you in the room, you need to rest" took me under my arm and almost drag me to dead weight out of the bilbioteca, maybe he was right I needed to rest, but I didn't want to listen to him , I would have rested when I finished deciphering that sentence, without me noticing it we were in my room , argo managed to lie on the bed :
argo" tara, now rest, you can go back to the library tomorrow, please sleep at least At least a little, distriti, see how you are reducing" at that moment I realized that for 3 weeks, I had not: taken a shower, eaten and especially slept, maybe he was right, but a part of me was still convinced that I would have time to do it once finished:

tara" arog , you don't understand, nobody understands I have to decipher it if aliar has deciphered a piece of it is important, maybe it is a sentence or something that can share us to where it is now, So finally either James or Iris or even better Philip can question him and finally get answers "
argo " tara you are delirious, not and that you have a fever? Fuck ! Sara kills me if she knows you have a fever, it's senitre" put me a love on the furnace and apparently she was right; I had a fever but I was not delirando , I was completely lucid .
Tara" What are you saying? You're delusional! I'm fine agor, now if you'll excuse me I have some research to do," I tried to get out of bed, but you can feel my legs and my arms not working, it was as if someone had tied me to the bed, This was my body telling me to stop or it was the fact that they haven't slept in anything other than the bilbliteca table in 3 weeks.
Argo was about to leave, instinctively I took his pulse;
tara" orga, you don't understand there are bigger things at stake than a simple sentence, aliar left me there for a reason"
argo" as I said tara, you are delirious, now you rest and tomorrow we will always talk if it will make you get out of the infirmary!"
Tara" since I know aliar, trust me for a long time has always tried to make me play games to show that he was the smartest one, IT IS NOT JUST A SENTENCE! I can't let him win I can't let him win not now that I'm close"
Argo" Tara, so close to what? Look at you, you've exhausted yourself! Which was not all the wrong thing, but I wasn't back either, it wasn't just a sentence, Aliar was trying to cone something, where

 I had to beat him:
argo" now tara please rest tomorrow we will talk about it in a fresh mind" si libera dalla stretta, dovetti dire la verita:
tara" haunts my argo nightmares! You understand why I can't stop , it's not pride , it's not even a little understanding, every night I have the same dream: aliar who laughs in my face and laughs at me, then makes me repose things that you don't even imagine" instinctively I had to touch my arm, something that Argo immediately notices :
argo" because you touch your arm? Tara, let me see" unfortunately I could not refuse, was one of those statements where you can not say no:
tara" all right, but promise me you won't see me differently"
argo" I promise, now tara let me see" his voice was always more serious.
I lifted up my torso and took off my shirt, from the cannotiera I had put on you could see the indelible sengi of my past; my scars; I turned towards Argo , I saw her face frightened Isa what she thought of me:
argo" tara, how did you get them?
tara"if I told you you wouldn't believe me "
argo " I promise I won't say a word"
tara" are scars, are my past , my machio , "
Argo" I saw this also tara, how did you get them?
Tara" no how , where"
argo" where?
Tara" exactly where, these here I got them in Russia during the Communism, these are whipping procuare in the containment fields... As he went on Argo became more and more worried, I began to weep; I could not bear him again,
argo" but how can it be"
tara" I am not the person you believe argo, you are always the same person who speaks to you, your best friend, but I am not human"
Argo" what are you?
Tara" I don't even know myself, but the only thing that is certain that I am not human or not , I do not age like others"
argo" could you explain?"
Tara" Let's make it simple, I don't want to relive it, you know the movie Adalaine ?
Argo" si, is my favorite movie "

tare" I do not age as adalaine"

argo" please can I do some studies? Please you could find out many things about aging; we could cure many diseases"

tara" argo, they have already examined me sufficiently, I ask you to keep this secret among us, if Philip comes to know him again a lab rat, please do it for me

let it remain our little secret"

Argo" defend him at the cost of my life" he said, I do not know how but I fiadi , for the first time in centuries I managed to fully trust a person, I knew that Argo would not betray me or at least I hoped; if not he did it meant that aliar was right; Sooner or later, everyone will betray you, and it's only a matter of time.

I woke up with a jolt in the middle of the night, which had not happened to me, I thought it was because I was thirsty , but apparently it was not true , feel that slowly my breath became more and more labored , I tried to regularize it but failed miserably.

A thousand thoughts passed through my mind, I carried it like a wave in the ocean, you feel that something was watching me , I looked around the room: nothing, total darkness. As my breathing kept speeding us up and all the attempts I made were useless, thoughts were flowing faster and faster, I had no control over anything in my body, at that moment I felt like I was trapped in my own shell, One feeling was certain : something was watching me. He was not doing anything he was just staring at me, it was disturbing: it seemed to be made of so many little clouds put together, his figure was vaguely anthropomorphic , He had two eyes of a dark araceon that made your blood freeze in your veins, I blinked, , I saw the creature moving to the foot of my bed, I made a jolt as it was possible ? But above all what is? Vorra something from me ? I tried to get away as much as I could, but it was not mine enough with every blink of an eye the creature was getting closer and closer; he demanded an arm I shoved my mouth out and stretched it out in a frowning smile, It was so frightening that I was petrified on the visa of that creature, it did nothing but stay at the foot of my bed and stare at me , as I stared at it my breath became still uneven, As if it were not enough I feel again overwhelmed by another wave of thoughts, I felt trapped forever in that eternal moment of fear. With no way out.

Argo" tara, it's okay tara you're safe"

open your eyes, it was all a dream, all my theater of fear was just a nightmare, yet it seemed so real; so alive, I saw Argo who embraced me and had brought a towel with him , I said a quick look and saw that I was all sweaty:

tara" argo, but what is happening ? Why do you have a ascigamano?

Argo" I came to see if you needed anything and I saw you writhing in pain and cursing at screams"

Tara" did this happen? I had no idea " I checked my hands, I was shaking like a leaf and not because I was cold, but you think it's because of that experience I just had.

Tara" Thank you, argo, can you tell me what time it is?

Argo" of nothing, after all what are friends for? Ah and it's 4:00 in the morning, why do you need to know?

Tara " nothing I was just curious about how long I had slept"

argo" did you subject him again? I mean Aliar"

tara" no , this time no was much worse"