I smile throughout the day
It fluxuates
From real to fake
I see you with her
I feel nothing
But empty
My fate
Has been decided
Where I used to hold a place for you in my heart
Where I used to think about you nonstop
Is now a battlefield of scars
But I don't cry anymore
Because I feel absolutely nothing at all
You have caused scars
You have become the scars
More than you could ever know
More than I will ever show
All the words you used to say
All the reasons I didn't stay
The reason, among my wrists, these scars lay
But just for today, I will look away
I will pretend to be someone else
I will pretend I can choose my destiny
And look up at the stars
Because I have faught all my life
Losing to myself
but not to you
And suddenly I had an epiphany