There comes a moment in our lives

when we don't want to

Get out of bed

Look at sunlight

Laugh

When we just want to give up

After fighting

Slaying our demons for years

We decide

We have no strength left

After hiding under our covers

for years

to avoid the monsters

Under our bed

In our closet

We stop waiting until morning to pee

Leaping out of our bed so our legs dont get grabbed

And even then tiptoeing out of bed

We start sleeping with our bodies open

Letting the demons take us over

Until they r within us

And can't get out

We own the demons

We become the demons

We are the demons

We wandered off in the dark that night

and stood there

while they took over our soul

And after a while we give up

On fighting them

On trying to get them out

And we let them have their way

We let the darkness overpower our light

We let our eyes darken

Our souls get sucked out of us

We let our life get taken from us

And in comes the demon

Out goes us

We are demons

We are darkness

And my soul has sunk so far under

That nobody is brave enough

To dive for it

And with it is my heart

The one and only thing that keeps me breathing

Keeps me alive

I look alive

Like I am breathing

But if you looked closely

u would see

that I'm already dead

And this light is giving me false dreams

False awareness

False hope

A false sense of reality

I think that i want the world to go dark

To match me

So I will be less confused

So I can feel one last time

Feel the pain

That reminds me I'm alive

On the outside at least