Kensi's POV

It was him in the flesh. It was the man I loved. He saved my life even though, I couldn't save his. I have a second chance. I can't screw up.

I still can't believe it's him. I'm getting hopelessly lost in his eyes. Searching making sure I'm not dreaming.

"Hey there Fern" he says with his most charming smile. I slap him partly for calling me Fern, partly for dying but mostly to make sure he's real. Then I hug him, how screwed up are my emotions? I hug him tightly not wanting to ever let him go. I breathe in his heavenly sent, until he says jokily

"You're acting like I died or something!"

I hit him as hard as I can in the shoulder and hope it hurts.

"You did die you jerk!"

He pulls back and looks me in the eyes, he's searching them as I search his. I can see how shocked and sorry he is that he died, that he broke the promise he made me - not to die - over a year ago. However he's back now, he has a second chance with me, if that's what he wants.

"I'm so, so sorry, I was never told I died, I didn't know. I couldn't even remember who I was. I only ended up at LAPD because of my badge. I told Lt. Bates and he rang... no way..." he stopped looking dazed and confused as if he just suddenly remembered something important. "where the hell is Hetty!" I finally find out he's alive and he wants to find Hetty.

"Deeks slow down you were talking about what happened after you woke up from you coma, why do you need to talk to hett..." he doesn't let me finish, he storms out. I call his name but get no reply. Deeks gets in his car and speeds off.

I look around and see Sam and Callen looking as confused as me, what the hell just happened.

I don't know what to do should I give him some space or go after him. I decide the latter, I jump in my car and head to the only place he should be. Forgetting he wants to see Hetty.

I pull up to his favourite spot. The Beach. I spent so much time here after I thought he died. He's alive, I still can't believe it for just over a month, in my eyes, he was dead and gone. Never coming back. I'm never letting him out of my grasp again. I wish I had told him how I feel. Now I have a chance.

He's gone to go see Hetty, so I head over to OSP. The drive was silent. It seemed more silent that it has ever been. After 15 minutes I pull up outside the mission and head inside. I see Deeks shouting at Hetty, it's something to do with me, I'll ask him later.

I head outside to wait for Deeks in the car. When he comes out, I hop out of the car. He walks over to me and gives me a hug I tense up as I wasn't expecting it but return the hug. With one month of no contact, I need to smell his scent, the scent I never thought I'd smell again. I need to feel his heart beat that always seems to calm me.

"Don't get used to these shaggy" I say jokily, in his ear, it feels good to use his nickname.

"Can't promise anything Fern, I'm quite enjoying it."

Authors note: let's hope they stay happy. Thx for sticking with the story next update soon promise XD