Hiccupa's POV:

After arguing with Dagur about how I couldn't possibly eat all the food he had piled onto my plate and about inviting Alvin to Berserk. I went off to meet with Heather as I needed someone to talk to. Dagur in turn went to see Alvin and the Outcasts to discuss the mornings events of coming onto Berserker shores earlier than planned with no announcement. I know he could tell I was still shaken up from the encounter and that I was not happy about Alvin the Treacherous being on the same island as myself at all.

I entered the sitting room and smiled to see Heather I went up to her. "Hiccupa thank Freya, I was so worried when the guards changed and they found the last guard asleep and you were missing. We all feared the worse and then when I heard about Alvin" she paused and grimaced.

"Heather I'm sorry I made you worry it was my fault I just wanted to be alone for once.  I thought I could take a walk without any trouble arising . Unfortunately I was wrong so-so very wrong" I told her bowing my head.

"Come why don't you sit you look like you need someone to talk to" Heather said taking my hands and gesturing me over to chairs by the fire. I nodded my head in agreement and followed her taking a chair.

"Now Alvin and the Outcasts are here and I shudder to think what is going to happen with them around. If your brother is wise he will get rid of them and not form close partnerships with them. No could can ever come from them." I said cringing in fear and memories.

"Unfortunately Hiccupa I have little influence over my brother and tribal affairs but I will talk to him about your concerns. Poor thing you have been through a lot these past few days make that weeks" Heather said "It couldn't have been easy saying good bye to your home, your friends, your father..."

I snickered cutting Heather off "What father? I was never anything more than a nuisance to him just an after thought the village always came first" I said bitterly.

Heather seemed surprised "Hiccupa you always cared and loved your father and surely Stoick must be beside himself with worry that his only daughter is so far away from him. Your father loves you, Hiccupa" she said.

"Yeah, well he has always had a strange way of showing it" I said "Do you know when he first discovered Toothless he disowned me. Said I wasn't his daughter I had sided with the dragons instead. I didn't know what I was going to do with myself. Of course it was only after I managed to train the other dragons and with the help of Toothless we defeated the Red Death and I lost my...well I made a sacrifice and he still isn't satisfied is he. I have always suspected I was only useful as a way to secure tribal relations through my marriage."

"You don't really think that Hiccupa" she said shock on her face.

"Of course I do it's the truth I saw the letter with my own eyes written in his own hand. It's only through divine intervention that Dagur and I are in love that this wedding isn't my impending doom" I said sullenly leaning back in the chair and glowering at the flames.

"What about Ash? it must have been hard having to leave behind the man you loved?" she asked.

"Man I loved" I scoffed. "I was wrong about him as well. He was only interested in my hand for the Chiefdom. Never really loved me I was a fool too blind to see. He would sooner threaten me with that ax then love me. I was too weak and foolish to see."

Heather looked towards me in disbelief "That doesn't sound like the Ash I know lying and manipulation aren't his methods. He's a Viking warrior he believes in honor and settling things on the battlefield. He wouldn't threaten and dominate an  unarmed woman either" Heather debated back.

"No Heather you don't know him at all do you?" I said looking at her sadly.

"I never want to return to Berk. I have too many dreadful memories  you weren't there Heather you wouldn't know or understand. I was terrified Ash was trying to abduct me back to Berk. I only wish poor Toothless wasn't stuck there as well. Gods only know what they are doing to him" I said sadly thinking of him all alone without me.

"You don't sound like yourself Hiccupa" Heather said "You haven't sounded like yourself in a long time. The Hiccupa I knew loved her father and Ash and cared for the island of her birth. She also didn't think so negatively if something was wrong she did something about it not just dwell on it."

"So sorry to disappoint you" I said standing up in annoyance "Unfortunately I'm out of my element here I don't know enough about Berserk having not grown up here. I don't have my dragon with me who is my best friend and ally when I'm in trouble. Also, I'm under constant watch and criticism while I am here. Now I'm tired I have had a difficult morning and I really don't need this right now so if you'll excuse me I am going back to bed."

I stood up and hefted up the skirts of my dress and strolled out of the room quickly and off to my own chambers on my own. The guards greeted me but I just nodded and entered my bed chamber kicking off the slippers I had on and crawling back in to bed blowing out a frustrated breath I tugged the covers over my head as I went to sleep.

~~~Heather's POV~~~

I was shocked after Hiccupa had left the room. I had never seen her behave that way before. Of course  I have seen her sarcasm but never as scathing and angry as the way she had become during our discussion. As soon as I had brought up her Father and Berk. What had she experienced growing up on Berk when she was younger? I thought to myself. It was a slip up on my part I know part of Dagur's plan was to avoid discussing Ash or her father in case she would have found memories and it would interfere with the potion. I didn't expect the reactions she gave she seemed dismissive and doubtful of her fathers love and scared of Ash which I was surprised. What exactly has Dagur been up to anyway?

She's been so fearful and anxious that she isn't eating enough I've noticed her bones have been protruding out more when I help her dress. I know she isn't sleeping either because of the dark circles under her eyes Ingrid has been applying powders and potions so no will notice but I see how dazed and forgetful Hiccupa has become. While she did look happy about tracking down the skrill I remembered her talking in the past how dangerous and impossible to train skrills were and she had vowed to never let Dagur have one. She has random mood swings fairly often as demonstrated by the fireside discussion she was fearful and scared and then became angry. I fear the potion Dagur has been giving her to cause her to fall in love with him is causing more harm than good.

No this is not the Hiccupa I know at all I have spoken to Dagur about how anxious and fearful she had been lately but he had been unconcerned at the time. I debated on whether I should try talking to him again he might just dismiss me again. I would at least discuss Alvin the Treacherous and the Outcasts which seemed to be a great source of anxiety for Hiccupa to cope with at the moment. I remember her telling me tales of what she had been through with the Outcasts and being a prisoner the thought made me shiver and gave me the feeling of spiders crawling on my skin they were a bunch of sleazy, barbarians. I wouldn't trust them as far as I could throw a gronckle.

I also can't help but feel guilty after all I do share some of the blame. I agreed to help Dagur and to be a party to this deception. I do find Ash attractive and had always wondered if it were not for Hiccupa could we have gotten along? and it was tempting when Dagur told me Ash would be alone and needing someone but now I don't know if that is how I want to establish a nurturing relationship with someone through a lie. No this is all wrong I can't do this anymore and yet it is as Dagur told me we are in too deep now.

Maybe not I think as I walk to my quarters I walk over to my desk gathering up a parchment and quill and start writing a letter quickly. I need to get this to Berk as soon as possible before it does indeed become to late. I am sorry my brother but this is not the way to win your beloved. You should have tried showing her your love and affections instead you went down the road to Helheim. If you really love her you will let her go and be happy with whoever she chooses because she is carefree and content with her life.

After I wrote my missive I sealed it in wax and ran from my chambers. Down the stairs to the stables to where we keep our terrible terrors I fetched a blue one that went to Berk and attached the letter to its leg. Then I threw it up in the air and watched it flap its wings "May the Gods watch and protect you little one" I said as I watched her fly away. I pray Fishlegs gets my letter in time or my hope of redemption is lost.