Diary?

Diary,

Ok, so I completely forgot. Three weeks. I dunno, maintaining a diary isn't difficult, this should be simple. Anyways I wanna write today.

I met three interesting people in this time, two girls and a boy. So, they moved in recently, newcomers into this gated community. They actually lived quite close to one of our most famous rendezvous points, the community store. So, we saw these people riding on bikes, looking about our ages and looked kinda new. I wish I had the guts to start the conversation but no, it was our bubbly Ashish. Sanjay and Shreya helped too.

We chatted with them for a while, got their names, found out that two of them, a boy and girl came to visit the third one, their cousin. We soon got ourselves invited to their house, not intentionally, and met the owners. So the girl who lived there, Ananya, she was quite quiet but I couldn't help but try build a conversation only with her, maybe make her laugh. She was this thin, light brown, thin oval face with small eyes and a small pointy nose, pink soft looking lips and bony skeletal person. She's extremley thin. But she had a beautiful smile, her eyes shone and brought this amazing glow onto her face.

I was getting self conscious around her, I could feel the fat on my stomach mocking me, the slight love handles making me feel like an elephant. I just didn't want to feel judged by my looks, especially her and on this occasion, I wish I was dressed to impress, sadly again Ashish was the only one who seemed to pull that off. He looked amazing everytime. I talked to her quite a lot, learnt her hobbies, her taste in music, her taste in clothes, books. I made sure she kept talking and laughing, at least with me. And I was feeling slightly agitated when someone else was talking to her and she laughed or smiled in an approving manner. It didn't really make me angry, just kinda dejected for no reason.

I think I know what this feeling was. I just don't know what to do with it.

Oh by the way, obnoxious Ashish and Preethi were finally together. Dude Preethi is amazing, I felt sad that she couldn't choose someone else. I mean Ashish is great and all but he's also kinda my best friend, I guess I'm being a jealous friend.

Anyways, my heart's pounding and I'm sure there's an extremely high adrenaline rush in my body right now. Ananya just texted me.