Lisa's POV:

It's worse than I thought it would be.

The whole country was in shock, it was one of the biggest scandals of all time.

One female idol caught partying and a new idol couple being blackmailed by another one.

Sounds like something straight out of a movie.

But it wasn't a movie. It was my life at the moment.

And Jungkook's. And Tzuyu's.

And even if my boyfriend was the one receiving less criticism, both for being a man and for having a huge international fanbase protecting him, he was still hurting.

Hurting because of the way the korean part of ARMY reacted and for me and the hate I was getting.

Because even though Sehun was caught blackmailing us, which is literally illegal, people were still concerned about my love life and how I even dared to date someone. It's absolutely ridiculous.

As for Tzuyu, she is the one getting the most hate, which to be honest I don't really get.

She is not a minor, she can drink and party legally, and even if she is an idol and has to set an example to kids, it's not like she was wasted in those photos. She is just dancing, you can't even tell she had had alcohol.

But the general public was outraged over the baby-faced visual member of Twice going out.

I had talked to her somewhere between my panic attacks where I start crying because of either the online comments or over what I did to Blackpink's career.

Incredibly, she was more worried for her member than for herself. Many of the fans think the girls or some babies just because they have a cute concept, apparently.

But they are strong girls and will pull through.

I'm not so sure about us.

We don't have a stable fanbase. General Public loves our songs but our fandom is not that big locally.

And we are completely aware of how much it had been affected in the last couple of days.

Jisoo unnie encountered less blinks on her little car fanmeet she has every Sunday on her way out of the SBS studios. It was like they were pissed at the rest of the girls too.

But at least we still got some fans here and our internacional fanbase. People who understand their place as fans and supporters and don't think they are the bosses of us. People who aren't delusional enough to think no idol ever dates or parties.

And to be honest, that's the kind of fans I want. They may be a small group, and the loss of the others may have hurt, but at least now we know who will stick beside us till the end.

And now all we have to do is wait for this to subside.

But first, I want to see what happens to Sehun. I want to know if he gets fired, if his group is disbanded (which would be a shame) or if he gets arrested for blackmail and invasion of privacy.

I am doing much better than last week. Slowly the hate comments stopped affecting me and and while I'm still worried about our future, but I've realized that closing myself up in my room crying and making my members worry for me won't do anything about it.

I am ready for what's to come.

At least we know we are not getting fired, YG sajangnim refuses to do something like that as part of his stubbornness. Preparations for our japanese repackaged album are to start soon, with no new song but oh well.

Also, Jin oppa's party is on Monday so it's a good opportunity for us to take our minds off everything.

BTS wanted to cancel it but both us and Twice insisted on not doing it. Jin oppa deserves it and it's not fair for him to be affected by this and we know everyone will have lots of fun together.

And Award show season for us starts with Gayo  Dejeun three weeks after so I'm both nervous and excited. Sajangnim wants us to do a cover of So Hot from the Wonder Girls.

Needless to say, it's all work from now on and I'm glad it is.

But for now, and until two days after Jin oppa's party, YG sajangnim gave us a couple of days to rest and to calm down from all of this.

And Jungkook has been doing his best to spend that time with me, which hasn't been easy because of them being invited to the AMA's and doing a couple of promotions there.

He felt so bad for leaving me just three days after everything went down but I couldn't let him waste an opportunity like that. They deserve it so much and he was so excited to go before the news got out. I hope he had fun in the end despite everything going on here.

First thing my boyfriend did after touching down in Korea yesterday was coming to our dorm. He was so tired he ended up taking a short nap without noticing.

So right now I'm waiting for him to arrive again at our apartment so we can do something together like watching a movie or playing board games. Simple things.

"Chaeng, do you want to play some games with Jungkook and I when he arrives? Jisoo and Jennie unnie could join too." I asked getting out of my room and walking into the living room, where my member texts someone while watching tv.

"Jisoo unnie went somewhere she didn't say where but sure I'll play with you guys. Jennie unnie will probably want to join too. Just go to her room and ask." She replied, giving me a sweet smile and standing up from our couch.

As she did so, our doorbell rang, indicating Jungkook had arrived.

"Ask Jennie unnie, please. I'm going to open the door" I said before rushing to our communicator so I can press the open button.

I waited for my boyfriend to come up, we live on the top floors so it takes a while for the elevator to come up.

Once it finally did, I saw a smiling Jungkook coming out of it.

"Hi, baby." He said excitedly before pecking my lips.

"Hi, someone's happy today." I replied, closing the door.

He looks like a child, all smiley and cheerful.

"I am. I hope that you are too." He said entering my room.

"I am, much better, don't worry. I don't even go online anymore."

He closed the door behind me right after I came in and pushed my back onto it and his faced changed into his serious and hot face.

"Jungkook...my members are waiting for us. We are playing games with them." I breathed but he didn't move an inch and stayed close to my body to the point I could feel his breath.

"Well, I miss you. I haven't seen you in a week." He replied, his voice low.

"You saw me yesterday, dumb bunny."

His face got even closer to mine, "Yesterday I fell asleep so it doesn't count."

I tried to create space between us while I spoke, "I hope no one saw you coming in, we want this scandal to subside, not to grow."

"Don't change the subject, baby." He said before kissing my lips and I couldn't do anything other than replying.

I missed him too.

His hands rolled down my body onto my thighs, indicating me to put my legs around his torso, which I did without hesitation.

Laying us both on the bed, his mouth went to my neck as he kissed it.

It was going on as usual. Our heavy make-out session no different from any other. Me moaning his name and grabbing his hair or kissing his lips.

That was until I heard him whisper, "God, please don't leave me, Lisa."

And I stopped.

"Wait, Jungkook, wait." I asked, pushing him off me.

His face looked worried as I did so, "What did I hurt you?"

"No no, you didn't, baby, but: "don't leave me, lisa?" is that what this is about? You are afraid I'll leave you because of this scandal? Is that why you pushed us into my room to make out or whatever?" I asked

His face changed from worried to something between guilty and sad. He had been caught.

Yes, of course I treasure my career and my members' , but I also treasure my happiness and Jungkook. I thought I had already made myself clear about that. The public already knows. Us breaking up wouldn't make it any better. It's done.

"It's just...your fandom lost so many fans and my fans are so angry at you...I thought you would want me far away from you after everything you went through last week and I wasn't even here for the most part. I thought me being way could have changed your mind about staying with me." I confessed and I swear I could see tears in his eyes.

"Jungkook, no. Of course not. I'm not leaving you because you had an amazing opportunity aboard or because of the hate i'm getting. I'm over that. Fans come and go unfortunately. We will gain new ones. We are going to be okay. I love you, and i'm not breaking what we have over that." I explained grabbing his baby face in my hands.

It was like all the emotions he had been trying  to conceal were coming out. All past week he had to look happy and okay in front of the cameras when he truly wasn't. He was worried.

And this was the first opportunity he had to let that come out and be fragile for once.

"I love you too. So much." He said back, kissing me much more softly than before.

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Sorry for the long wait and for this shitty filler.

Next chapter will be better I promise, I just didn't want to rush the plot.

I love you all thank you for supporting me 🧡