Lisa's POV:

I unconsciously kissed him back.

I don't know if because I want to believe him so much or if because of how used I am to it, but I did.

And for a couple of seconds it was like everything was back to normal, like this whole Tyuyu situation never happened and like I wasn't hurt over it.

But that was until Tzuyu's voice came into my head once again. Telling me all the things Jungkook allegedly tried to do.

And I pulled away.

"Jungkook sto-" I started only to be cut off by him again.

And he kept his grasp on my waist.

"Lisa, please believe me. I don't know another way of ask you that. I didn't do anything. My hyungs were there when she appeared, they saw how shocked I was. Please don't do this to me." He begged once again, desperation all over his face as he tried to convince me one last time.

And for some reason something inside me clicked.

Stop thinking so much, Lisa.

He is right. I have to trust him. I will never know if he is telling the truth or not but I have to believe him. As much as Tzuyu is my friend, Jungkook is my boyfriend. What kind of relationship do we have if I can't believe what he tells me?

And I want to trust him. I have to put all my stupid insecurities behind me and get into my head once and for all that Jungkook isn't Sehun. That he won't hurt me.

Jungkook has been nothing but sweet to me, he showers me with love and treats me right.

I have to be able to give him at least this.

I looked at him for a couple more seconds, as I let tears run down my face.

"Okay." I nodded faintly.

His eyes lighten up like a little boy's on Christmas day, "Really?"

"Yeah." I answered before wrapping my arms around him to hug him tightly, letting the final tears run down.

Why would Tzuyu lie? It makes no sense.
Is she really trying to separate me and Jungkook? Is she jealous? Is she going to try again?

"C'mon, stop crying. I don't like it when you cry." He asked me as his hand reached for my head to console me.

"I love you too, Jungkook. Very much." I said pulling away to look him in the eye.

How I managed to fall in love with someone so quickly is something I will never understand.

We've been dating for a month and a half and I already feel so attached to him like I've known him my whole life.

Its feels good to have someone like that.

I looked up to find him guiltily looking at me, "I'm sorry, I should have told you Tzuyu had gone to BH. I didn't mean to hurt you like that."

My heart melted at his words, this boy, always so caring.

I stoked his cheek, my fingers running over the cute little scar he got from fighting his brother as a kid, "It's not your fault, if you say you didn't do anything then I trust you."

I don't have any proof of Tzuyu's theory either so why believe her? I have to get over this "protect myself" way of living, Sehun doesn't deserve having me scared like that. What happened between us can't ruin my future relationships.

That made him smile and I returned shyly, my eyes still red and dry from crying.

"I love you." He declared before kissing me.

And I gladly kissed him back, slowly and lovingly.

Sick on being in the middle of the hallway, I started to lead us to my room, not breaking our kiss.

Until Jungkook picked me up and we reached our destination more quickly, laying me carefully on the soft mattress and placing himself between my legs.

And he kept kissing me and exploring my body like we always do.

But this time something was different.

Like new feelings and trust had been found and like our relationships had evolved somehow.

And for me, I finally felt ready to give him all of me. Like the fact that I was able to trust him and put behind all my fears and insecurities had unblocked the feeling of safety I needed before being finally able to do it.

I knew Jungkook was ready and that he is waiting for me to be ready like the gentleman he is. He has probably done it before even.

So right now I wanted it and wanted to give him that.

My fingers found his shirt and I pulled it off of his body, revealing his toned physique.

And it kept escalating from there, us removing each other's clothing as we kissed and giggled.

My skin connecting with his warm one more and more as we get we undressed until all the is left are his pants.

I reach his belt using my hands and start to undo it, as I get more and more anxious each passing second.

But I get stopped. His hands met mine and stopped me.

He pulled away from my neck, "Lisa, no."

What?

I stop my actions immediately as his soft eyes meet my confused one.

Why did he stop me?

"W-what do you mean?" I asked

I'm ready, I want to do this.

"Lisa, I don't want our first time to be after what just happened. You don't have to do that." He explained calmly and I became even more confused.

What does what happened with Tzuyu have to do with this? I mean, I know it's not ideal scenario nor does it look like those first times you see in movies where they are all romantic and cute but I don't need that. All that matters is us and how we feel about each other.

But then I understood what he meant.

He thought I wanted to do it because I was insecure of this relationship and of his feelings for me. That sex would secure him.

That I wanted to do it for him and not for me.

"Jungkook, I'm ready. I want to do this and that as nothing to do with Tzuyu. I love you and want to show you that." I tried to explain but he kept shaking his head

What is his problem?

I'm ready, I thought that was all he was waiting for.

"But I don't want it to mark the day it happened. I want it to be special and also, it's getting late and you must be tired. If you want I can stay with you but that's it."  He said calmly.

He can stay here? Like, spend the night here with me? Sleep with me?

I try to picture Jungkook while sleeping and him being the first thing I wake up to.

I feel myself smiling at the thought, "You can stay?!"

I probably squealed like a little girl but it was worth it because of the smile that appeared on his face

"I can, it's our free day tomorrow and I intend to spend it with you especially now that you are alone here." He told me before lowering himself to kiss me quickly.

Ugh why can't he just give me what I want?

"Jungkook, please..." I begged wrapping my legs around his bare torso more tightly to push him closer to me.

"Lisa...I already said no...please don't do this." He sighed

Well that leaves me no choice.

I leave my place from under his body to sit on his lap, straddling him and my hands on his face, myself only covered by my bra and panties.

His hands automatically rested on my ass.

"Jungkookie..." I said as I lowered my face to kiss his neck.

I felt his breathing quicken and him getting harder between my legs.

It's working.

"See...your body also wants it." I whispered in his ear.

I cringe to myself.

I have never in my life seduced someone, I have no idea if I'm doing this correctly or not but apparently he is responding to it well.

But as I thought I had finally been able to make him agree to what I wanted, he picked me up in one move and laid me down on my bed again.

"You almost got me, babe, and while you are incredibly good at being seductive, I'm not going to break. I want our first time to be special." He said as he stood up to take his pants off before sliding into my bed with me and kissing my cheek.

I pouted. I was really in the mood.

"You are so cute when you pout. Come here." He asked as I pulled myself closer to his body, only for him to wrap me in his arms.

It's so comfortable and warm. I could spend my days like this.

"I promise I will give you what you want okay? Just not today." He told me

I sure hope so.

"Okay." I answered and rested my head on his chest.

"Goodnight, I love you." I heard him say and I'm not sure if I replied or not because Jungkook was right. I was tired so I didn't last long before falling asleep.

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