Lisa's POV:

Me and Jungkook laid in the private room's couch, wrapped in each other's arms, him shirtless and my dress a mess.

He kept kissing me sweetly as I smiled, we had been like this for the past 10 minutes. Him showering me with caresses.

"So much for not doing anything here huh?" He teased.

Yeah after I gave up on trying to stop him things escalated.

We repeated what had happened in my room and oh my god...it's like it was even better.

Having this type of contact with Jungkook is so much different than it was with my ex.

Back then it meant nothing to me, I didn't know that, of course, but looking back, I was doing it only to please my boyfriend and not myself.

But Jungkook makes me feel special, gives me attention and worries about my boundaries. I have to admit I'm becoming addicted to it.

And because of this and after he made me feel the way he did, I took him by surprise by wanting to return.

I wanted to make him feel good as well.

He insisted he didn't need me to do anything to him but I was persistent. It's a little unfair to him. Sometimes Jungkook can be a little too selfless and respectful.

But I did it and honestly I'm proud of myself for doing it. The look of pleasure on his face made me feel confident and happy for accomplishing my goal...or at least I hope I have.

We ended up in this position right after, with Jungkook acting extra sweet.

"I can't believe we did what we did here." I exclaimed, slightly embarrassed.

He tightened our embrace, "Don't be embarrassed, baby. It was amazing and the door is locked. It would be impossible for someone to see us."

I smiled as I feel him kissing my temple for the 100th time, "Was it really that amazing? I mean...I wanted to make you feel like you do to me..."

I know he probably liked it but I can't help but be self conscious, I guess you could say my past experiences aren't the best.

But being the sweetheart he is, he must have sensed that since his face turned stern almost right after

"Lisa, it was incredible. I don't want you to feel self conscious about these things like I don't want you doing anything you are not comfortable with. I loved it, of course I did." He said caressing my cheek.

We are being so cheesy someone stop us.

But I guess we are in that phase we just want to shower each other with love and physical affection. I feel like I could cover Jungkook in kisses and it still wouldn't be enough.

It's a very weird feeling, consuming almost.

"Jungkook," I started "Thank you for being so sweet to me and for worrying for me, it means a lot."

My boyfriend smiled softly, "Of course, baby, I'm your boyfriend that's the point. What kind of partner would I be if I didn't do that?"

Yeah, what kind of partner would you be...if only you knew...

But it's in the past. No use in bothering him with that issue.

I didn't say anything, just kissed him, more forcefully than I had wanted but that didn't make me pull away.

I left his embrace to climb on top of him, to which he responded by sitting up, never breaking our kiss.

When I stopped it, he pulled me closer to give me a hug, something that I didn't expect.

My chin rested on his shoulder as he tightened the embrace, "and I promise I will keep on treating you like that"

That was a whisper on my ear.

A whisper that made me the happiest.

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"I'll text you after asking my hyung if they need anything from me after tomorrow, okay?" He confirmed as we got to my dorm and it was time for me to leave the van.

This night went by so fast, I wish it had lasted longer.

I prepared to leave, picking my stuff up.

"Okay. Thank you for the dinner and for the necklace. It was amazing." I said.

"You're welcome, come here." He requested and we kissed softly before I pulled away due to respect for his manager who was in the driver's seat.

"Goodnight." and with that I left the vehicle.

I opened the door to our building and waited for the elevator to come down.

As I entered the elevator and looked at the mirror I noticed that I have a permanent smile on my face without even noticing.

My hair was okay even after what had happened and my members can clearly tell the necklace is new but I think my smile is enough for them to understand.

I'm smiling like an idiot.

I entered the apartment to find all my members on our living room, waiting for me.

"Ohh new necklace and a huge smile? Tell us everything." Jennie unnie inquiried, opening a little space for me next to them in the couch.

"I-It was amazing..." I started

Amazing is an understatement, Lisa.

Jisoo unnie looked perplexed, "Amazing? I bet, he gave you a Tiffany's necklace. What for?"

All my members looked at me in anticipation, the silence between us seemed to last forever.

I look at them, the smile never leaving my face, "To mark the day we started dating..."

I can't believe I just said that out loud.

The sound of cheering filled the room, my members clapping and squeaking like crazy.

I can see why they are so happy. After my past relationship they saw how much time it took for me to get over it. They didn't know why, of course, but they have been waiting for this moment for a long time probably.

"Lisa, I'm so happy for you two!" Chaeng squeaked hugging me.

Jennie unnie nodded, calming down, "Yeah, Lisa, congratulations. Jungkook is a great boy."

We spent the rest of the night talking about my relationship and our date.

I may have gushed about how sweet Jungkook is for most of the conversation while my members were trying to get me to answer to other questions.

They wanted to know everything. Including sexual things.

For some reason they were extremely interested in that part.

But I hate to tell others what I have or have not done yet. I feel like it's a very personal matter.

"Girls, please, you know I don't like to expose my life like that..." I pleaded

"Ohh that means there's something to tell..." Jisoo unnie teased.

I know I will have to give them some kind of information for them to shut up about it.

"We have done a couple of things okay? Don't make me tell more, please."

"Uhhhh" Jennie unnie let out as the other girls giggled like high schoolers.

Jisoo unnie sent me a dirty look, "Was he good at it, Lalisa?"

Oh my god

"I need to go to sleep." I annouced standing up to ran away from the conversation.

"Was he?!" She insisted as our two other members laughed at my reaction.

"Yeah, unnie, he was! Really good at it, okay?!" I admit before entering my room and closing the door.
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I lay in bed thinking about today.

I'm so happy, I can't even believe it myself.

I had been hoping for so long I would find someone who cared about me deeply, who gave me attention and love.

It's not like it was a main concern of mine but I had always hoped to find someone like that.

My past relationship affected my self-esteem so much I knew my boyfriend's behavior was bad but thought it was my fault for provoking it.

Now looking back, I can see the difference.

Though I thought the beginning of that relationship was loving, I can now see some of the red flags my innocent self didn't notice.

But it was like he knew he wasn't acting correctly, he would hide it in front of our members.

Since our breakup I have avoided him as much as possible. I greet him but only in public where I'm obligated to do so.

He tried to contact me a lot of time since then but it was always stopped by one of my members or friends after I gave the simple explanation that I didn't want anything to do with him.

Lisa, stop thinking about that. You have Jungkook now and he would never do that to you.

Yeah, I'm with Jungkook now but that doesn't make me forget about a problem.

Tzuyu.

Will she understand that we were already a thing before she told me? That I truly like him?

I need to talk to her tomorrow, I can't let her discover through someone else.

I hope she forgives me and supports us. I treasure her so much as a friend.

As I thought about this my mind started to get sleepy as I slowly closed my eyes and let myself fall into a deep slumber.
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I wake up the next day with the same thought in my head, worry and guiltiness consuming me.

I notice I'm much more nervous today than yesterday, like the burden I carry gets bigger as time passes.

I need to talk to her today.

As I picked up the phone to look at the time I realized that it's only 9am.

My body must have woken up because of how nervous I am.

I'm someone who gets really anxious when they do something they know it's wrong. I hate to hurt others and don't deal well with it. I don't want people to think I'm mean or evil.

I never do it on purpose of course and that is exactly the reason why I get nervous.

I clicked on her contact and started to type the message.

Me: "Tzuyu, can we meet up today? I need to talk to you."

That's it. I will finally end this.

It didn't take long for her to respond.

Tzuyu ✨: "Yeah, I have a small break in 2 hours. Want to grab lunch?"

Me: "Sure! At the restaurant near jype?"

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I'm sorry this chapter sucks, it's just a filler.

I'm still setting everything up for the main plot so it's been a bit boring to write since I want to get into the best part as soon as possible. I'm sorry if it seems rushed, I'm trying to do the exact opposite.

Also I don't double check most of the chapters so excuse any mistakes, I type really fast haha