Chapter 39: Knife

                 "I have a problem..." he started, you were sitting in your bed as he was sitting in the sofa, it was an agreement you guys had since a part of you didn't want to say that you were afraid.

He had agreed on telling you everything, and for now, all you can do now is hoped he had told you the truth.

"and that is?"

"I swear I'm not bipolar, and I didn't mean to do anything to you that might seems off and all," he started, you wanted to believe him. Still, it was not helping, not the kind of information you were hoping, "But I have my reasons and all, and I'm hoping you." He paused.

"I hope you would understand."

You looked at him, signalling him to continue. He then took a deep breath as he told his story.

"The way I acted, and all of the things that have been happening lately was because it is a part of me. I was trying so hard to hide me. I was trying to hide. I did not realise it was building another person behind me, and I was taken over."

"Every time I was reminded of the demon, I didn't know I had built, guilt took over me, and I didn't know how to stop myself, and I just lash out." He took a deep breath.

"Everyone has their own demons, and mine happens to be a memory, and every time it triggers the memory... I -I..." you waited for Taehyung to continue, but it feels like you already know the answer to that question.

He looks at you sadly, "I think you already know what happens when those things trigger me."

"How could I not remember?" recalling the first few days you were put in your room Taehyung decided to go hulk on you for being nosy. But was that enough reason for him to lash out like that?

"yeah..." he looks down.

"Will you tell me then?" you asked him and he looks up.

"Will you judge me different if I did?" he asked, "Will my story because of you being more afraid? Is it going to be the final reason why you might want to run away further than you already did?"

You looked at him, "Taehyung..."

"I know right now you're trying so hard to believe me, and I will try my best to find you that reason."

He looks at you, and you usher him to go on.

"Alright... where do I start... I was an only child, my mother and father was killed, and I didn't know who did it, but then I was left with my grandparents." He laughs.

"I didn't eat or come out of the room after days of my parents died," he chuckles sadly, "my grandma thought I was a hopeless case, the therapy that they've given me was also not working, but you know who had pulled me out of all of these things?"

"It was my grandfather, wanted revenge on those people who had killed my parents, but he chose to turn those hate into something else." he took a deep breath.

"he thought me how to channel all those energy to another thing, something that might even scare people." He looks at you. He walks to a drawer, and he pulls out a bag, he looks up to you, and you anticipate what he had brought.

Suddenly he pulled out a handle, and he pulled out a glistering knife, and you stood up from your place as he looks at you sadly.

"Please don't run away... I have never hurt anyone with the knife, and I will never do that either, it's against everything I was thought." He looks at you.

He walks closer, and you look at him as he held out the knife to you and he ushers you to hold the blade, you took it unexpectedly, and you look at him.

"I was taught by my grandpa the art of knives, it did cause some scar and two, but it did help me," he started to do some tricks here and there, and you couldn't help to look at him amaze it was the first time you see him so happy and not tense at all.

"It was all fun until everything started to go downhill," he started. "I had thought that he had thought me those knife tricks because I was told to channel my anger turns out. It was in my own life. He was one of the seven assassins in the world war II, you had hoped after killing so many they'll just forget, huh?" he started.

"Didn't know he once had killed a family leaving his only son, and he son had become a very well known businessman and had to track down grandpa's location, a blood bath was spilt," he stops.

"I still could remember how they had dragged my body away from my grandparents after I saw them slaughtered."

He started to cry.

"Since then, I also develop Thanatophobia, and Jimin said that it might be the cause of what's happening that's triggering everything." He mumbled.

"The cause of losing not only my parents and my grandparents, knowing you were slipping to the right have cause it too..."

"But... you were mad because I had opened the painting and –"

"Because she was the first person who made me alive since everything when falling down." He started, "She was my everything in another lifetime, but now I saw you, and how you were so sure of everything.

when you had opened the painting for me it was a new chapter that you're trying to flip, I was not ready, and I acted so selfishly."

"You were ready to open up what I was so afraid to open and try too hard so desperately, but now I'm ready to move forward with you," he looks at you," I'm ready to be what you need. I will do anything to keep you safe, you have my word."

"and this knife?"

"I will use this knife not to hurt anyone, and I promise you that."

That's what you're afraid of.

A/N: Hello please don't kill me or throw me inside the psycho's lair, but I have decided to update prior to 15 minutes to MAMA award. 

it's been a hectic week for me and all of the achievements the boys had overcome I had to celebrate it a little late, like I want to congratulate the boys on their billboard and then my lovely bias Mr. kim's birthday. and now I'm waiting for the MAMA's award and I hope our boys can get another award like in MMA yesterday.

But I want to thank everyone for waiting for this update.