Chapter 36: Temptation pt. 1

You didn't get what you wanted. But you knew that from the start, and it was never easy to get what you wanted in this life.

Taehyung never came back, and Yoongi didn't bother going back either. It was you and Seokjin only. You couldn't settle in. It felt quiet, and you couldn't understand how your mind couldn't function in silence. It felt wrong to give up.

So you go to the only place you think you can get answers.

"You are going to hurt yourself," Seokjin walks inside Yoongi's room. The room felt airy as the last time you walked here, "and not because you're standing in one chair, trying to find files you can understand."

"I've been in the police for years, and a thing or two I learn is that if you don't understand another case, then don't bother. You need to understand yours first then you can proceed. You can't even understand your case; how will you understand the others?"

You look at him, climbing down slowly, "Then what? Wait?"

"I never said that."

"Is it wrong?" You asked. "That unsettling feeling, that it's not over Seokjin, it feels like it's only the start."

Seokjin was quiet until he chuckled, "I hate to believe it. I didn't want to agree to such bullshit. I thought things like that only happen in movies, but who would have thought?"

"What?"

"Anne," Seokjin started, "You could never feel like you did it. Like it's done, your story and mine was not supposed to be. I'm afraid that the things that should be held a secret is the only thing holding you back."

You couldn't help to groan; not this again.

"Are you not going to tell me then? Giving me hints so that I can figure things out. Well, I hate to break to you, but I don't –"

"You never ask," He chuckles, "You never asked me or talked to me after that day. Do you realise the moment we were out of there, where you and I were together once again? It was not enough?"

"When you and I are here alone in this house. But all you care about was anything else than what we are."

"Seokjin." You spoke.

"Or does it bother you to know, out there, everything is unsettling that my presence here is not enough for you to tell yourself it's enough?" He continues, "But I don't blame you; the human tendency is always greedy for more. It's like biting something more than you can chew."

"Seokjin..." Guilt was now visible in your mind; he was right. Everything was never enough; he was not enough.

He looks at you with eyes that are hard to understand. But he walks to you and hugs you silently.

"Even so, I still don't blame you," He started, "I want to tell you about many things. We all do; we wanted to be a part of that story. But we can't. Telling you something we can't assure an ending will not happen."

"Then who?" you ask, "Who can I ask about all of this?"

"I think we all know who, to the person, who had always been there. You talked to him, didn't you?" he asked, "I don't know how he got here if he's still lurking."

"He didn't hurt me," you whisper, "He answers the question I have asked so many times in my head and answer even you couldn't give."

Seokjin nods, "I'm not surprised; he's getting restless. He wanted you to remember; he's afraid you will completely forget one day, and it will need another time to rewind all of this. He's tired."

"I asked him about someone else; he didn't look happy."

"Who would? When their lover is asking for someone else."

"I'm afraid of Jungkook." You admit, "I'm afraid because I don't know him, but I'm more afraid of everyone else because I seem to know them, but in fact, I don't."

"Jungkook came all the way from Korea to here," Seokjin started, "Yoongi had allowed some slips in hiding you; the kid is smart. But it'll take more than just a smart brain; even the universe had pulled your strings together."

"I'm not ready to face what will happen next; Taehyung and Yoongi are gone."

"I know, but for now, you need to trust the only person you don't trust," he said, "Because you know he can't be trusted, but those people are the ones has the biggest truth coming out from their mouths."

"I know, I'm not the one you are looking for," Seokjin held your hand quietly, and he rubbed them gently. "I know. I wish it was easier than all of this. The punishment you needed to bear is greater, but I wanted to thank you for searching for me regardless of that."

"Seokjin, I –"Before you could say anything, he had shaken his head and smiled.

"No. You don't have to explain. I know this sounds confusing, and you can't explain it." He started, "Even from the start, our stories were not meant for each other."

-

That's how you had broken everything with Seokjin. It felt wrong because he was the reason why you came back. You even wonder, if you had listened to Hoseok that day, would he still be here? Or would someone else's life be taken away?

"Namjoon, you usefulness fool, you're still greedy even till the end," Yoongi growls, "You rather sacrifice the whole world if it means your ass to be safe."

Namjoon chuckles as he takes hold of the duffel bag, " You right, I would. I told you before, didn't I?"

Yoongi, who was tied to a chair, was struggling. It happened too fast; it was the first for Yoongi had been linked to a chair unwillingly. He shouldn't have pushed Jungkook's button and certainly not remembered that Namjoon was also cunning.

"Do you think sending Jungkook there was your most brilliant plan? He knows. He's smarter than you'll ever be –"Namjoon tighten his hold, making Yoongi wince.

"Oh, I know. He knows that I was the one who put those clues. He still thinks you still care about him."

"I do."

"And I don't like that."

"Namjoon, you can't mess with fate. Please don't make the same mistake he did."

"He and I were bound to make the same mistakes. It was part of the story."

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