This chapter contains mature and sensitive themes such as abuse, drugs, overdosing, and other things like depression. Proceed with caution and if you have any type of dark thoughts about yourself, talk with someone. You can talk to me if you want. I'll listen and help you the best I can. Make sure you can talk with your friends and family and know that you are loved.

If you need to talk with a professional, here is the suicide hotline phone number and the link to the website.

1-800-273-8255
https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org

Know that you may be the reason someone's depressed and suicidal... or maybe you're the reason that someone isn't. You're a light in these dark times, but it's up to you to decide how to use that light. Treat people with love and respect.

Depression and suicide is not a joke and must be treated carefully. Suicide is a permanent solution to your temporary problems, and you'll hurt people by taking yourself out of their life. Life isn't a story that you can just simply end, deciding to finish it as if you have the right to do that. You don't. You have no right to do that because it will cause pain to so many people and you'll be ridding yourself of the most precious thing: living life. Just because it's dark now doesn't mean it won't get better. It will. I promise.

I know how it feels to think down about yourself and feel as if you're nothing but garbage on fire... basically worthless. You're not. You're amazing

Remember that, even if you can't see if or can't feel it or don't know it, you are loved by someone somewhere. Trust me. I'm one of them.

Now, without further ado, enjoy the chapter.
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In a room at Valentino's Porn Studios, Y/n can be seen unconscious on one of the chairs. On a nearby drawer, some containers of pills can be seen opened and basically empty. Then a familiar voice starts whispering Y/n's name.

"Ketsueki..."

Nothing as Y/n doesn't stir.

"Ketsueki~"

Nothing again, and the voice then shouts.

"KETSUEKI!"

A mighty slap on the face wakes Y/n up as they falls out of the chair, tumbling the chair over in the process. They look around in fear and confusion, wondering where they were until they saw their boss, Valentino.

Y/n Ketsueki: Boss? Where--

Valentino: "Stop with the fuckin' Sign Language! I told you to wear your mask when you talk to me!"

Valentino grabs a super techy black and red mask from a nearby table and throws it at Y/n's face, making a red mark on their face. They scramble to get the mask and put it on their face, but they eventually get it on and turn to Valentino.

Y/n Ketsueki: "B-Boss? Where am I-I?"

Valentino: "You know damn well where you are! I can't believe you did this while on the clock!"

Y/n Ketsueki: "Wh-what?"

Valentino: "Heheh. You only took enough pain medication for an elephant to OD on, you brat." *roughly grabs Y/n's face* "Too bad that sorta thing doesn't stick down here. What? Is it that time of the month already? Oh, and it must so be so much worse because of yesterday. Hahaha!"

Y/n couldn't respond. They hated Valentino, but they also knew he was right. Their body was filled with pain, and the only ways to get rid of it was pain medication or a more vicious route.

Valentino: *tosses a towel at Y/n's face* "Clean yourself up. I got a job I need you to do."

"Y-yes, Boss..."

Y/n said with their computerized voice, making Valentino scoff and walk away. He leaves the room as tears begin to fill Y/n's eyes, but they quickly wipe them away and wipes their face off with the towel they were oh-so kindly given. They then place the towel down on the chair they were sitting on and stand up, letting out a sigh.

"Don't think I can take it.
With every drama, a piece of me dies."

They walk up to the mirror in the room, looking at it as they rub the scar on their neck.

"Like some kinda sadist,
I think that he likes to see the pain in my eyes."

They turn away and take a step forward as they wipe away another tear.

"He knows that I'm sick.
He hugs me and promised that I would be alright."

They grow angry as they clench their fists, making the mirror behind them crack and shatter.

"We both know it's bullshit.
The longer I'm with him, the less I'm alive."

They glance over at the pill containers on the drawer.

"Doctor's on the other line,
'Cause he's not coming home tonight,
And I just took my very last pill."

They walk off, heading to the bathroom that was conveniently build inside the room which also had a shower which the intend to use.

"Need something to numb the pain.
Demons knocking on my brain.
I think they're coming in for the kill."

They enter the bathroom, starting the shower with hot water and going to get undressed.

"911, I need someone.
My boss plays me like a game, I'm not having fun.

911, tell him he's why
Why my heart is always aching,
And I gotta be done, 'cause
I~
I~
I gotta lose that guy.
Or I'm~
I'm~
I'm gonna lose my mind."

They get in the shower and begin to wash themself, keeping the mask on as Valentino had told them. They breathed deeply a few times as they felt the water hit their face and drip down their skin.

"You must think that I'm crazy.
Heh. Well he does, too, so I guess that makes one plus three.
Need someone save him and me.
I'd really appreciate if you'd intervene."

Tears begin to fill their eyes again as they lean on the shower wall and slide down it, holding their legs close to their body.

"Doctor's on the other line,
'Cause he's not coming home tonight.
Can't seem to find my bottle of pills.

I swear to God, I'm not insane.
The voices only say his name
When I'm starting to think that they're real."

Their face contors and shifts into a horrifying one as their mask is forced off, showing of deadly black and red eyes with contorted blood red skin and sharp teeth as they let out a horrible shriek.

Then they're seen out of the shower as they begin to get dressed, putting on their jacket and the rest of the outfit.

"911, I need someone.
My boss plays me like a game, I'm not having fun.

911, tell him he's why
Why my heart is aching
And I gotta be done be done, 'Cause
I~
I~
I gotta lose that guy.
Or I'm~
I'm~
I'm gonna lose my mind."

They walk off, fully dressed in their outfit as they leave the room. They walk through the halls of the studio, making their way towards Valentino's office.

"911, I need some (need someone)
My baby please me like a game
I'm not having fun (not having fun)

911, tell him he's why
Why my heart is always aching,
And I gotta be done 'cause (gotta be, gotta be done),
I~
I~
I gotta loose that guy (I~ I~).
Or I'm~
I'm~"

They put on a stern and serious face as they push open Valentino's office door open, being greeted by Valentino's sick and twisted grin which is seen in the reflection of their glasses.

"I'm gonna lose my mind."

They sigh once more before speaking.

"What's the job you oh-so kindly asked me to do the day after The Cleansing, Boss?"