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I sit up straight, gasping softly. I look around me and attempt to process what was going on. I look around and see the white walls, as well as tubes and needles in and out of my arms.

Why the fuck am I in a hospital?

I then grab my head, as there was a sudden sharp pain. Doctors then rush in and I look up at all of them, confused as to what they were doing. They layed me down and then took out a couple tubes and did more stuff I couldn't see because I wasn't really paying attention.

Once they were done swarming me, there was only one nurse left in the room who was holding a clipboard. "Mr. Hamilton, you do have a couple visitors, would you like me to send them your way?"

"Who is it?" I ask, figuring one of them was Eliza.

"Well, there's Elizabeth Schuyler, Hercules Mulligan, John Laurens and uh...A really long name..?"

"Does it end with Lafayette?" I ask, sighing softly.

She scans the clipboard and nods. "Yes, it does. Would you like me to send them in?"

I look down at my lap and then nod. "Yeah..Uh..I'm sorry actually..Did you say John Laurens?" I ask.

She nods. "Yes, he seems extremely concerned about you."

I bite the inside of my cheek. Why would he be here? "Uh, I don't really want to talk to John Laurens...Could you send the other three in, though?"

She nods and then heads out, to the waiting room I assume, and then three people burst through the door.

"Alex, oh my God, are you okay?" Eliza asks, sitting in the chair right next to my bed.

"Yeah, I think. What even happened?" I ask, frowning gently.

Hercules tilted his head. "You don't remember?"

"Mon ami, you got hit by a car."

I stare in shock at the three. "You mean...I what?"

Eliza nodded slowly. "John was there, he's really worried about you."

I scoff. "Yeah, well John's the reason I was in the road in the first place, so-"

"We know, Alex." Hercules says, crossing his arms.

"John explained everything that happened, after we all interrogated him, of course." Lafayette explains.

"Alex, if you don't talk to John, he's going to feel guilty about this for the rest of his life.." Eliza says. "Plus, you'll feel guilty, and you know it." She says a bit sterner.

I sigh. "Eliza, I stopped feeling regret years ago, I don't fucking care if he feels upset, I don't want to talk to him."

Hercules and Lafayette looked at each other, frowning, and then looked at Eliza. Eliza looked at them and nodded, and then back at me. "Well, it's a good thing you're stuck here, then." She says before standing up.

She begins walking towards the door and I sit up, raising an eyebrow. "Where are you guys going? Eliza? Laf, Herc?"

They don't answer me and just leave, and I frown. Then the door reopens and I look up to see the one and only John. I furrow my eyebrows before crossing my arms and looking down.

"Of course she would.." I mumble, cursing myself for not realizing Eliza would send John in.

"Alex, listen, I understand that you hate me, but-"

"I have every right to hate you, John. You lef-"

"Will you just shut up, Alex?" He interrupts, sounding really angry. I frown and lean against my headboard, silencing myself. "God, you think I wanted to fucking leave you? I had a life here, Alex. I loved you, I didn't want to leave. Now if you could please, just listen for once in your life."

I don't know how to respond, so I just don't. The old John never cursed unless it was serious and he was really, really upset. I don't know if that's the case now, but I do know that he sounds very upset, so I just nod and motion for him to sit in the seat Eliza sat in.

He gives a half smile and sits down. "First off...Are you okay, Alex?" He seems very concerned, like Eliza said, so I sigh and give in.

"Yes, John, I'm fine. The only pain I feel right now is really in my head..." I say.

He lets out a breath that he seemed to be holding for a while. "Thank God. I don't know if I could live with myself if you weren't...I've been so worried-"

"How long was I unconscious?" I ask, interrupting him.

"A week." He answers plainly.

I hesitate before asking, "How long have you been here?"

He blushes and looks down. "Since the start of visiting hours to the end of visiting hours everyday for the past week..." He mumbles loud enough for me to hear.

There was an awkward moment of silence and I place my hand on his gently. He looks up at me, his beautiful green eyes looking ready to spill tears. To say I hadn't missed John would be a complete lie, he was the only person I wanted back in my life. But how could I let him back in so easily?

"John, tell me what happened. I want every, single, detail." I say to him, looking him in the eyes.

He nods. "Yes...Yes, of course. It's what you deserve." He takes a deep breath. "Okay...Bare with me, Alex." I nod and he prepares himself.

"So...The night of your eighteenth birthday, I got a call from my father. He told me that if I didn't come home, he would...He would..." He bit his lip to try and not cry, but a single tear rolled down his cheek. I held his hand in mine and nodded.

"John, it's okay, you can tell me." I say, trying to calm him down.

"He..He threatened to hurt my little sister....I knew she was being abused, but I knew he wanted me back in the house and I had to protect her. Well, I ended up staying longer than I had planned, and soon enough my dad had taken complete control of my life. He changed my phone number, he got me a job at his corporation, he bought me a house in South Carolina..." He started to cry a bit harder.

"I just...I couldn't leave. I was in such a deep hole and I knew the only way to get out was to have him force me out. So I tried coming out to him...Boy was he pissed.." He looked down at his arms and then pulled up his sleeve to show scars on his arms. "That's not even the worst of it.." He mumbles before pulling his sleeves back down.

I look up at him and begin rubbing circles with my thumb on his knuckles. He was sobbing now, and I frowned. I treated him like shit.. I had no idea what he was going through, and I had the audacity to yell at him to stay away from me.

"There wasn't a day that went by where I didn't think of you, Alex..I just...I want you to know I love you..."

My eyes widen. He...loves me still..?

"I just...can't be with you." He says, looking down.

I raise an eyebrow, really disappointed by this information. I know I should move on, but I just couldn't. "Why not..?"

He holds up his left hand and shows me the ring on his finger. "I'm engaged to Carrie...."

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A/N: Bahahaha I know you hate me now, but it's okay. You'll love me sooner or later...Maybe..