~Y/N POV~

I don't know why but I found myself being really nervous about this date with Namjoon. It's not like we haven't done anything like this before but I guess it's because it's not just as friends like we always have done before. This time is different, I just hope I don't screw it up.

I wore the dress that Jin helped me pick out. I didn't want anything fancy just something simple and comfortable but suitable to go out in for something to eat like tonight. On the drive here I watched Namjoon closely and noticed how he would glance at me every now and then but also that he is also nervous. I could tell by the way he would nibble on his bottom lip every now and then which is cute but also makes me relived to know that he is nervous too.

This restaurant that we ended up at I had never been before. I've heard of it but never been even after hearing lovely things about this place like the view from the top floor of the restaurant which was like a skyline restaurant. It's a good thing I'm not scared of heights.

We entered the building together and we took up our table through reservations that Namjoon made. We order our drinks first, had a quick look at the menu which I came to find I couldn't decide what to eat since it all sounds so good but in the end I did end up deciding and with that the waiter then left Namjoon and I alone to wait for our orders.

At first no one spoke but eventually the waiter came back with our drinks which was quite fast and then left again. I looked out the window next to us, giving the view over the city that was lit up from street light, cars and also lights from different buildings around the city. It was so colourful.

"You look beautiful tonight." Namjoon

His compliment caught me off guard and my cheeks heated up, just so I could tuck a strand of hair behind my ear to see him staring at me from across the table.

"Thank you. You don't look quite bad yourself."

He laughs lightly at my compliment back, to shyly look down at the table. He truly was a handsome man and he doesn't even realise it.

"You know, do you remember when the first time we met?" Namjoon

I let out a laugh, the sudden memory coming back to me.

"Yes I remember, how could I not?"

It's something I will always remember. It was before he found out he liked men too and we just connected the moment our eyes met from across the pitch when he was with his friends and I was with mine.

"Well I guess it will be hard to forget when I made a fool of myself." Namjoon

He says smiling ear to ear, picking up his glass of water to take drink. I covered my mouth to prevent myself from laughing harder and receive funny looks. It's been a long time since I thought about this and yet its funny everytime. It's one story to tell our son that's for sure.

"I thought it was cute."

"Yeah if you call falling your my ass to come talk to you cute, then yes it was cute." Namjoon

He chuckles to himself, placing his glass down and I swear I almost snorted.

"It was cute. A very good first impression if you ask me but then you had to ruin it when you started to come one strong about wanting in my pants."

I raised a brow at him and he threw his head back to laugh.

"What can I say? You were smoking and I had to have you one way or another but when you told me you wanted to be just friends I couldn't pass up on that. I'd rather have you as my friend than nothing at all." Namjoon

"And look at us now."

I pointed at my stomach and again he laughs with a little nod, looking down at my stomach with admiration.

"Yes, look at us now but one thing I can say is that as soon as I saw you across the pitch I knew you'd be special to me. I just didn't know in what way. But looking back I think I always did, I just didn't fully understand the feelings I had for you." Namjoon

He picked up his fork on the table, nervously chewing in his bottom lip as I stared at his face touched my his words. I felt the same but I just didn't want to ruin anything with him and I guess I unknowingly friends zoned him and saw no chance when he told me he likes men.

"What? Do I have something on my face?" Namjoon

I didn't even notice I was staring at him but to chuckle and shake my head to look away all embarrassed for staring too long.

"No, no I was just touched my what you just told me."

"Oh? Well I have a lot more I could say but I can leave that for another time." Namjoon

He winks at me and I blush yet again to look away and back out the window to the view of the city. The waiter then came back with our food, carefully setting down the food and then took his leave again. I tucked right into my food since I felt starving as soon as I walked into this place. I ate as if I hadn't eaten in days but lately I do find myself more hungry. I asked my doctor about that and she mentioned it was because my sickness had passed on so my body would be trying to fuel itself from what I was lacking before at the beginning of my pregnancy.

"Jeez, are you hungry?" Namjoon

With a mouthful of food did I nod but he chuckles at me and leans over the table with a napkin and wipe the corner of my mouth. My cheeks redden in embarrassment again and I swallowed my food.

"Sorry you had a little bit of sauce in the corner there." Namjoon

"No, its okay. Thank you for that."

He nods and tucks into his own food. But through out the meal did we exchange glances at one another and of course chatted away about other things in school from when we first met. Just like the time my boyfriend back when I was seventeen cheated on me and Namjoon broke his nose in front of the whole school. I always thought it was a lovely gesture and from that moment on I knew and I trusted him to know that he would be there for me when I needed him and since then he has been.

Despite my feelings for him over the years and up to now, I never thought we would be where we are now but in all honesty I'm loving it and I couldn't be happier. Just looking at this man across the table from me, I can tell by his looks alone that he willing to do anything for me and not only just me, but our son too. I cant wait to see what the future holds for the three of us.