~NAMJOON POV~

(I lost pic for Namjoons room.)

Work tonight was exhausting, I worked late but I'm not complaining too much since it's all I've ever really done since y/n left five days ago.

She's texted me every day, telling me about her day but not mentioning Jimin so much. If know her too well to know that she's done that on purpose to not make me feel worse about this whole thing.

I try not to think about her but I can't help it.

Especially when she texts me, it's lights up my day but then the memory comes back. The fact she says it's too risky for our friendship to even give it a try. I mean, I'm willing to take that risk if it, just for the chance to have her by my side as a life partner but if she only wants that as friends, it's better than nothing. I'll have to move on at some point but it's gonna be really hard.

I took a shower, a long hot needed shower but again it only brings back the memories of us again. The hot make out sessions that always led to amazing and heated shower sex.

Once I was done, I just dressed myself in some boxer shorts for the night. I have to get up work in the morning anyway so I might as well wearing almost nothing and plus no one is here right now but I can tell Jungkook and Tae were here earlier at least and maybe Yoongi. I could tell because the game controllers were left on the coffee table as well as one can of coke, on small bottle of milk and another can of beer, that is the very type that Yoongi drinks.

Y/n has basically stoked up our cupboards filled with snacks for the guys and drinks for them too. She knew they of course would come round like always but she's made an effort to learn what everyone likes. She's the best that way.

She even did a weeks worth of food shopping of me. I'm more than capable but she insisted and wanted to make sure I didn't 'starve' as she says. An absolute gem.

I'm so jealous of Jimin, it's unbelievable.

He better treat her right or I'll kill him.

And I'm not joking.

My phone lights up next to my bed with a little ping noise to it. I sighed and walked away from my chest of drawers to walk over to the side table and pick up my phone. Y/n's name popped up on it so I had to see what she texted me about.

I opened it up and she wrote:

Y/N -Turn on your laptop, xxxx

Confused to why, I didn't respond but stepped over to the desk and sat down in my chair to open my laptop up and turn it on. I had to put in my password and security details in first before it fully turned on. Once it ran through all the security I had on it, I could only think of one reason at this point to why she would want me to open my laptop and that is to skype.

I opened the app on my laptop and logged in but the moment I do I received a video chat request from Y/n. It's been a few days since I last saw her and it made me nervous even when I know I have no reason to be. Butterflies developed in my stomach and I accepted the call.

The call connecting immediately. It started out fuzzy at first until it sorted itself out and I could see Y/n more clearly. A wide smile appeared on my face along with a blush that I hoped she didn't notice.

"Joonie!!" Y/n

I laughed at her outburst when she could finally see me after squinting her eyes cutely at the camera. I didn't know where she was because the background was white walls and I couldn't hear Jimin anywhere around her, but oh well, this is my time with her now.

"Hey Y/n!"

I waved at the camera and she waved back excitedly. I'm glad to see her happy.

"How have you been Joonie?" Y/n

I nodded at her question before I responded.

"I've been okay. Not much different than yesterday though."

I laughed and she giggled, leaning closer to the screen and nodding.

"That's very true." Y/n

"What about you? How was your day?"

She leaned back against what I think would be the wall and she smiles.

"It was really good. We went shopping in the gift shops. You wont believe how many gift shops this place has and don't worry I got you something too!" Y/n

I know what she would of gotten, she's so original.

"Well thank you. The Floral shirt with go really nice to my collection."

She gasped with one hand over her heart and her mouth hanging open.

"Joonie, you ruined the surprise! How could you do this to me?!" Y/n

I laughed at her and she burst out in laughter too.

"Hey, where Jimin? Its awfully quiet there."

Her smile faulter a little bit and looked up at something away from the camera before she looked back at me again.

"He's just in the next room. I'm in the bathroom." Y/n

Strange, why talk to me in the bathroom?

"Okay, but why the bathroom?"

She shrugged but I couldn't help but feel like there was more to it.

"Just for the two of us to talk to another. He know I'm talking to you so it's fine." Y/n

I nodded at her but stayed quiet. I can see the thoughts behind her eyes and she clearly has something to tell me.

"Y/n? What's wrong?"

She shakes her head and completely now drops her smile,

"Nothings wrong, I just want to tell you something." Y/n

Oh god, he hasn't asked her already has he?

"Okay?"

I was so nervous and anxious but I already know what's coming. I can sense it, I can see it on her face.

"So, you see, I.....em...Jimin-" Y/n

I cut her off immediately. I know what she's going to say but I don't want to hear her actually say the words.

"It's okay Y/n, I know already."

She hangs her mouth open with her gorgeous brown eyes staring back at me.

"How did you know?" Y/n

I sighed and looked down to my hands on my lap.

"I can just tell by the look on your face."

She didn't say anything more and it became quiet between the two of us. I'm actually devested and she obviously said yes like she told me she was going to otherwise she wouldn't be telling me this and it wouldn't be so hard for her to tell me. Maybe a small part of me hoped that if Jimin asked her to his girlfriend she would have second thoughts and say no, but obviously that didn't happen.

"Are you okay Joonie?" Y/n

She whispered to me from the other end and I nod to take another deep breath in and out to look back at her on my screen. Her brows furrowed together and she shown clear worry for me but I forced a smile to show her I'm okay. I don't want her to feel guilty and she should enjoy this time if this is what she wants.

"I'm okay Y/n. Thanks. Did you have a lovely evening then?"

I didn't want her to actually answer but I may as well as something like that since we're best friends and that's what friends do, she did it for me when I first started dating Jin.

"I did, thank you." Y/n

Thank goodness that's all she said. She must know me too well to know that I didn't actually mean the question and she gave me very little information as possible. When she comes back I can bet she'll tell either Jin or Hoseok about her time with Jimin. I doubt very much she'll tell me much just like with her texts.

"That's good. I'm glad. I'm happy for you both."

Lies.

I lied but again I don't want her to feel bad. She already felt bad leaving but I have to understand where shes coming from I suppose.

"Thank you Joonie." Y/n

I nodded at her and kept my forced smile. It kind of became awkward now and I didn't know what else to say.

"Hey, Y/n. I'm gonna go now, its pretty late and I have work in the morning."

"Oh, yeah sure. I'm sorry." Y/n

A chuckle escaped my lips when she said sorry and I shook my head.

"You don't need to be sorry Y/n, its perfectly okay."

She looked down and battered her long eyelashes a few times before looking back at me through the screen.

"Goodnight Joonie." Y/n

"Goodnight Y/n."

I ended our call after that with a click of a button and groaned in frustration, running my hands through my damp hair. I felt like screaming as I was suffocated by heart break. This is defiantly not going to be easy and I have no choice but to move on.

Its the only thing I can do at this point. Everything else is completely out of my control and I hate it. To move on, I'm going to take her advise that she told me over a month ago. It's the only thing I can think of right now to ignore the pain, it might work, it might now. Only time will tell.