15 | SKYLAR

Motley Crüe's newest album, Dr. Feelgood was a hit. The boys were at the peak of their careers and they were completely sober, too. They sold out tons of arenas for the tour and the album went number one, their first number one album, ever. They travelled around the world to perform for millions of people.

The years 1989 and 1990 were truly their best.

They were in an Australian strip club before one of their various shows and Nicole was there accompanying them to celebrate. A waitress came over with a plate full of shots. "Lemon drop?" She offered the table.

They had all been utterly sober for months now and it was great. But, refusing to have some fun from time to time was getting a bit boring. Nikki didn't mind though, he was keeping clean so that he'd never return to the dark place. "No thank you. Just some more waters." Nikki began to wave off the nearly nude waitress.

"Great." Vince mumbled.

Nicole lifted up her cup of water to clink it with Vince's. "It's the same old situation." She chuckled, getting Vince to crack a smile.

"They're keeping us on the road. Fifteen new days in Canada." Nikki informed the boys.

"I haven't seen anything about any new dates." Vince scoffed.

"Check your itinerary, man." Nikki grabbed his glass to take a sip of water.

"I would, but somebody doesn't think it's important to let the lead fucking singer know what the fuck is going on here." Vince huffed.

"Well, since we're here. I want to tell you I fucked up. Heathers been all weird and distant... and I drank." Tommy blurted out after feeling the awkward tension rise between Vince and Nikki.

Nikki huffed. "Well, a little. I had one shot and I'm sorry." Tommy apologized, feeling really guilty.

"I'm gonna have a fucking cocktail, too. What are you gonna do about it, Nikki?" Vince spat.

"Okay, look. Everybody falls off the wagon once in a while." Nikki tried to excuse Tommy's behavior.

"Oh, fuck you, man! Fuck off! Fuck the rest of this tour. It's the no fucking fun tour, and I am sick and tired of not having any fucking fun." Vince exclaimed.

"Are you tired of not having any fun, or tired that Sharise barely speaks to you and you haven't seen Skylar in months?" Nicole leaned forward and narrowed her eyes at Vince.

"Fuck you, Nic!" Vince hissed at her.

She shrugged and took a few sips from her own water. "I think you guys should have a drink. Since Vince has his a stick up his ass." Nicole rolled her eyes.

"I think I will!" Vince jumped to his feet and hurried over to a waitress nearby to grab one of the lemon drops she was serving.

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When the tour was finally over, Nikki and Nicole went home. Vince had disappeared, for he had his own problems to worry about like Sharise and Skylar moving out, leaving him alone. "He just needs a break. I think it's a rash decision for your band to change out the lead singer." Nicole simply stated her opinion about the situation.

"You don't get it, Nic. He hasn't shown up once to the studio since we got back from touring." Nikki sighed, taking a seat on the couch.

"You don't have a kid, Nikki. You don't understand what Vince is going through. He just wants to be with his family." Nicole retorted.

Nikki sighed, feeling a bit defeated. "I may not have a kid, but I do fucking know that I want one. It's practically the same thing." Nikki spoke up after a minute of silence.

"It's not the same." Nicole smacked her tongue in annoyance.

"How would you know?" Nikki turned his head to look at her.

"I don't." Nicole folded her arms across her chest.

Nikki got up with a cheeky smile and walked over to stand in front of Nicole. "Wouldn't you like to know, though?" He reached down to lift her chin so that she'd be looking up at him.

Nicole shook her head at him. "What the hell do you think you're doing?" She chortled.

"I think you know what I'm about to do." He pushed her down against the couch on her back.

* * *

A couple months later, it was the break of dawn and Nicole had been growing worried that her period hadn't came just yet. She knew she and Nikki had been trying to get pregnant recently, but she didn't realize how quick it would come. Nikki was off at the studio already, working on writing some new lyrics Motley Crüe's new lead singer. Vince had officially left the group and Nicole hadn't heard from him since. Well, she hadn't heard from him until that very morning.

Nicole had just peed on a few pregnancy tests when she heard the phone ring. It was unusual for the house to be receiving calls that early in the morning unless it was Nikki calling to ask her to bring something to studio that he had forgot at home. "Hello?" She picked up the phone.

"Hey, Nicole," the sound of Vince Neil's crying voice could be heard over the phone, "uh, I'm sorry to bother you."

"Hey, Vince. It's no problem, really. I was already up." She grew worried hearing him cry over the phone.

"Uhm, ahem," Vince struggled to get his words out due to him being choked up, "Skylar, she uh, she got diagnosed with cancer. I just need you to pick something up for me, I can't leave her side."

Nicole's heart dropped to her stomach. Her life was a complete reflection of Vince's life in that very moment. She was trying to get pregnant, but she only ever thought of the positives. Never the possible scary parts of having a child. "Of course, Vinny. Anything you need." Nicole's voice cracked, she tried to hide her despair for Vince's situation.

"There's a key under the fake rock by the front door. Can you go in and grab her teddy bear? Can you bring it to me so that I could give it to her?" Vince asked.

"Yeah, of course." Nicole assured him.

They gave each other their brief goodbyes then ended the call. Nicole returned to the bathroom to take a look at her pregnancy tests, and on all three, it said positive. Nicole closed her eyes and took a deep breath. "How the hell am I supposed to be a mother now? I don't know if I'm ready." She whispered to herself.