i woke up when the sunlight hit my eyes and birds chirped loudly. Looking at the clock on my phone it was 7am. I groaned and sat up. Taking the warm covers off me I shivered at the chill that hit my feet first. I placed my feet on the floor and walked to the bathroom fluffing my hair. I washed my face and brushed out my hair.

I put some makeup on not like it mattered though I still get called ugly and they're right, i put my hair in a French braid with a few pieces of hair on the side of my face out.

I went back into my room and put my dark blue Attila shirt with a black hoodie, navy colored skinny jeans and my white and black converse. spraying my favorite raspberry perfume on me i headed out the door whilst grabbing my baby blue with white dots and brown leather ascent back pack. i slowly walked down the stairs not in a hurry in any means and walked to the door. 

"arent you forgetting something?" my mom chimed from the kitchen. 

"sorry." i walked over and kissed her cheek. she hugged me tightly and kissed the top of my head.

"arent you going to eat before you go?"

i froze and my heart felt like it stopped for a moment. "umm no im not really hungry."

"youve been saying that this past few months, what has gotten into you?"

"i dont know maybe my appetite just changed."

"ok.." she shrugged her shoulders and went back to the kitchen. 

i breathed a sigh of relief and walked out the door. i placed my headphones in my ears and listened to some james bay. his music calms me down and lets me escape my reality and think of how i wished things were. it gave me hope. pulling the hood over my head and my sleeves over my hands i walked with my head low and avoided eye contact with anyone. through my music i can hear kids whispering already. 

i wish i didnt have to be here. this is torture. maybe i should ditch today. i was lost in my thoughts when i ran into someone. a guy with red hair on top where it was kinda long and dark brown on the sides where it was cut shorter turned around looking down at me.

"im sorry." i muttered looking up at him. 

"its cool." he looked at me strangely. i was walking away when he tapped my arm and shooed his friend away.

"hey arent you that girl that was at my party on halloween with tyler?" i choked on my spit nearly and my anxiety started to sky rocket. 

"im sorry what happened carly is a fucking bitch and i kicked her out. tyler told her off in front of everyone. it was funny seeing her get her karma."

"w-what did he say?" i stuttered out. 

"he told her that she was a low life self centered bitch who has nothing better to do than to point out people's personal things and that she needs to take a look in the mirror and judge herself before she judges anyone else."

"w-why would he do that?" he looked at me confused as if i didnt know something that was obvious. 

"well tyler is my best friend and he talks about you a lot even when you were with that asshole jessie-"

"youre josh?" i cut him off.

"yes and as i was saying, tyler talks about you all the time whether its that you guys played a match in battlefield or when you invited him over on halloween."

"he talks about me?" i was stunned i didnt know what else to say besides ask josh questions.

"yeah. it really bugged him when you shut him out."

"why?"

"i dont know, i think he sees something in you."

i said nothing to his response and just abruptly left. when i got about 5ft away i heard tyler run up to josh and started talking with him. i think josh was telling him what just happened and i could feel eyes on me. 

tyler talks about me? probably just saying how much i suck at life. he only 'sees something in me' to get out my personal info and use it against me. im a lost cause like ive been told by my parents. no one can help me.