during class i just doodled. drawing circles and lines, then the teacher called on me.

"jamie whats the answer to this?"

"uhh i dont know." i said embarrassed.

"then maybe you should start paying attention more instead of sleeping in my class."

"i wasnt sleeping."

"your eyes were closed."

"im half asian i always look like that." she grew a shade of red.

"just pay attention."

some kids laughed and i just went back to drawing. i started drawing a picture of this girl with a busted lip,bloody nose, a black eye and scratches on her face. she looked so...empty. i didnt know i could make my emotion come out onto paper but i did and a part of me liked seeing this and the other part hated it because it was like a mirror for me.

the bell rang. students got up from their seats and rushed out the door. as i was walking to my next class i saw carly. she locked eyes with me and started heading my way. i froze. my heart sped up and i felt like passing out or running but i couldnt do anything.

"jamie." her voice was harsh. i didnt respond to her and just stared.

"look you better keep your little boyfriend in check or youll pay for his consequences." she glared at me.

"hes not my boyfriend."

"oh thats right youre a lesbo." she spat at me.

"why would that be any of your concern if i was or not?"

"excuse me?"

"you heard me clearly carly. you can pick on me about my appearance or what fucking ever but dont throw sexuality into the mix because thats none of your business whether it was about me or someone else dont do it because you know what karma will bite you in the ass so hard youll regret everything youve ever said to someone. how would you feel if you were the reason someone killed themselves tonight?"

"itd be good redience." she and her friends laughed.

"really? so it wouldnt bother you at all that your little sister killed her self because you keep calling her ugly and a dumb fuck that your parents never wanted on top of all the bullying and comparing of you she gets from others at school?"

her face dropped as if she didnt know what was going on or that i had found out something i wasnt supposed to know. she shooed her friends away and grabbed my arm pushing me through the crowds out side where she stood in front of me.

"what hell are you talking about?!"

"you think i dont know? carly you are so mean to your sister in front of everyone embarrassing her even more and i can go under radar so easily you dont even know that half of the time you do that shit to her im around and so are others."

"she wouldnt do that to herself. she knows im joking."

"does she? have you not seen her arms or questioned why she wears jackets and pants all the time?"

not replying to me she turned away and walked back into the school. i turned the opposite way and sat on the lunch tables that were out front of section b. i plugged in headphones and closed my eyes feeling the warmth of the sun beat down on me.

i felt vibration of the side in front of me shake as if someone sat down. i looked up and saw tyler with a serious look on his face holding his hands together in front of him. i went to look down at my phone and the screen was locked on me and my headphones were yanked out.

"what the hell-?!"

"just please listen." i looked at him with an eyebrow raised.

"what carly did on halloween was way out of line, but why didnt you tell about that?"

"i barley know you and its not exactly a conversation started." i crossed my arms.

"i know im sorry but i just i really dont want to loose you." i was taken back like so stunned i couldnt help but say nothing and glare at him.

"why?" i said with venom.

"because we got really close lately."

"we've been hanging out for only 4 weeks."

"doesnt matter i trust you."

"i dont trust you." i glared at him with anger.

"just give me a chance to prove you that you can trust me and that im not a douche like all those other people."

i just looked at him with disbelief. " fine." was all i said when i saw the softness in his eyes and walked away.