( Imagine Anika instead of Jankee. Used this pic as I think I will not get any more beautiful pic rather than this♥️)

After few months

Anika is 7th month pregnant now and her baby bump is visible now. They enjoyed the whole phase, Shivaay took care of Anika and became very protective towards her. He used to take Anika to his office and they used to work together. He used to take Anika for a walk as the doctor suggested them to go for a walk. Today she and Shivaay are going for a checkup and are very excited to go as tomorrow is their god bharai and Shivaay is sure that the baby is fine. Anika is excited but more than that she is nervous because she doesn't want to hear from the doctor that her baby is not healthy. When Shivaay sat inside the car, he noticed Anika looking towards the empty road.

"Is your husband walking there? Or road is more beautiful and handsome than me", Shivaay asked. Anika looked at him and shooked her head, she knows why Shivaay said this and huffed to calm herself. By looking at his face she can guess that he is relaxed but how?

"Why are you tensed?", Shivaay asked and held both of her hands in his

"Baby is healthy right?", Anika asked

"Of course my girl is healthy. Hana baby?", Shivaay asked in a childish voice and kissed Anika's hand

"Don't worry, everything will be fine. Relax, take a long breath", Shivaay suggested and intertwined their fingers. Anika nodded and took a long breath.

"Good now smile", Shivaay said, Anika smiled hearing him. She is still scared but her fear is reduced now because of him.

"I wish every girl gets a husband like you", Anika said

"Are you praising me or taunt...", Shivaay said but Anika interrupted him in middle

"Of course, I will praise you. There is nothing to taunt you", Anika said. Shivaay nodded and noticed Anika didn't tie her seatbelt yet. He smiled as he got a chance to distract her from her fear now, he knows that if he comes toward her Anika forgets her fears. He went towards her side and pulled her seatbelt but Anika stopped him by holding his hand

"Don't tie s... Seatbelt ", Anika said and looked outside as she started to fall weak because of his proximity. She knows that Shivaay is not innocent now, he knows how to take advantage of the situation. Before he used to maintain a little distance in the car but past few months, he always try to find reasons to touch her and started to tie her seatbelt without giving her time to tie this herself. He won't leave any space between them which becomes her big weakness.

"I am more concerned about you both so don't interfere ", Shivaay said and caressed her cheeks softly. He knows why Anika is stopping him to tie seatbelt but her fear is baseless because it is more dangerous for her in this phase if she didn't tie her seatbelt. Anika hummed in response as she don't know what to say.

"You look beautiful. Your Pregnancy glow can make anyone fall in love with you ", Shivaay said and kissed both of her cheeks, he wanted to pull them but he don't want to lose his balance in the car, he can't take this risk. These days Anika's cheeks have turned chubby which he is loving the most.

"But I am married so stay away ", Anika said, her cheeks turning red as he always drive her crazy for him.

"I will not", Shivaay said

"Keep... in mind we are getting late", Anika said with a pause as she also don't want him to go away, she likes his presence and want to cherish him forever.

"I can't wait to see you, my baby. Papa is waiting ", Shivaay said and tied her seatbelt carefully and then looked towards her baby bump.

"Yes your mom and dad are waiting for you", Anika said and held his hand when he placed his hand on gear. Shivaay started to drive while holding her hand and soon they reached the hospital and went to the gynaecologist's cabin.

"Your child and wife both are healthy. Keep it up. Take care of them and always keep them happy ", the doctor said while showing the screen. Anika giggled seeing her baby growing inside her womb. Nowadays Anika started to feel baby's kick too whenever they fight with each other. This always makes Anika realise that they should not fight in front of their baby.

"I told you ", Shivaay said and kissed Anika's forehead. After some time they reached home, Anika was going to change when Shivaay gave her one dress which he purchased yesterday. He started to buy loose dresses as the doctor restricted Anika to wear tight clothes.

"Wear this", Shivaay said

"This is beautiful but do you think I will lose weight again after delivery?", Anika asked when she opened the dress and found that this dress is loose, especially for fat people.

"I don't care my wife, I love chubby Anika more because she will symbolise my child. You will always remind me of the beautiful days I spent with you ", Shivaay said and tucked her hair stand behind her ear. In the morning Anika's hair was set but now her hair is falling on her face and he can't lose his chance.

"Now stay happy because tomorrow is your god bharai ritual and I want to see you enjoying ", Shivaay said and gestured for her to go
"I can enjoy in hell too if you are with me patidev ", Anika said with a wink

"Seriously? Didn't you got something else on your mind ?", Shivaay asked

"Ok I meant I can enjoy anywhere", Anika said and went to the washroom. Shivaay smiled and went towards the poolside. He sat on the couch and noticed the edge of the notebook visible, Shivaay stood up and pulled that notebook out and noticed it is the same diary which belonged to Pinky before and then Anika started to write about Shivaay in this diary. Shivaay remembered how he got to know about Anika's feelings last time and opened his diary excitedly

"Hwww, this is cheating. You can't touch this diary ", Anika shouted and snatched the diary from him but Shivaay took the diary back from her hand and ran toward the room

"And you can't run. Aww my cute baby", Shivaay said when he reached the room

"Shivaay give me otherwise... Otherwise, I will go and will not talk with you ", Anika warned him, she knows she can't defeat him but she don't want to see this diary now. She needs to remove one page where she was thinking stupid about him. She walked towards the room slowly but Shivaay again went from there to tease her

"Impossible ", Shivaay said

"Mean you will not hear me?", Anika said and pouted sadly. Shivaay found her cute but he can't do a mistake by going in front of the hungry lioness.

"Ok turn aside and count 20", Shivaay said as he got an idea

"You will read the whole diary", Anika said in a low voice

"I can't do that in 20 seconds ", Shivaay said stating the fact, Anika nodded and turned aside. She started to count 20 seconds, Shivaay took his mobile phone out and clicked pictures of the diary from the page where he left reading. Later he started to read when Anika slept in his arms. These days Anika has to sleep straight so Shivaay takes care that Anika doesn't turn. He pulled Anika over his chest and kissed her forehead and opened the gallery to start reading pages of the diary.

Today again I'm here but heartbroken. Don't misunderstand me baby but I thought your father is not ready for a child that's why I was going for an abortion, otherwise, I can never think of it. I don't know if we will live together or not as he threatened me that if something happened to you then he will leave me. If by chance we got separated then take care of him. I love you my child and Shivaay too, you both are my lifelines. I can't see him looking at me with hate, I am very sad. He left me alone in the office and at home too.

"Are you mad? How can you think I will hate you? I just said that in anger", Shivaay said and whispered "I love you" near her ears and rubbed Anika's shoulder. He pulled Anika close to his heart, he started to feel peace now.

"Was writing about abortion important? What if my child started to hate Anika?", Shivaay thought

"No I will never let our child hate her", he said to himself and started to read further.

Yyy. He came back and forgave me, he is a very understanding and forgiving person. I did many mistakes and every time he forgave me. He is an understanding and very sweet husband. I don't know when he will leave me if something happened to our first child but I never hated my baby. His actions are making me doubt him, what if he is planning to leave me after my delivery?

"I think that she lost her mental stability ", Shivaay said angrily which disturbed Anika's sleep and she opened her eyes slowly

"Why are you shouting? ", Anika asked

"Do you think I am planning to leave you after delivery?", Shivaay asked

"Don't ask silly questions. I know you can't live without me", Anika said and turned her face aside as she is sleepy

"Then how can you write this? Did someone force you to write this", Shivaay said but didn't get any reply. He realised that she slept again and decided to ask her this question from her tomorrow. The doctor told him to let her take a rest as after the 7th month they need to be more careful. They can't hug each other now. A side hug is allowed but he wants to hug her tightly but he can't which sometimes disappoints him. Anika always tries to cheer him whenever he needs a hug by kissing him and ruffling his hair but those never sound peaceful.

He looked at Anika and smiled thinking about thier journey. Her diary is also a symbol of thier beautiful journey which started as strangers and now they are madly in love with each other. He remembers how crazy he was to read Anika's sweet point of view regarding him.

"Love you more for writing this diary Anika", he said and kissed her forehead. Before Anika wrote everything about Shivaay for her child, which gave him a hint that she want to become a mother but at that time he was not ready. That diary was dedicated to him mentioning every detail of Shivaay
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If anyone is new then I am talking about the diary which is a part of the "breaking wall of insecurity " story. I have tried to give details but if anyone still needs them then I will add them in the next chapter

Thought to write about the diary to make you happy ❤❤.