I turned over and picked up my phone. As I scrolled through my messages, I landed on a chat with Sophia and I. Sitting up in my bed, I sighed. Scrolling past our chat, I finally got my lazy, depressed self out of bed.

I'm sorry Sophia. I can't be strong for you. I know you'd want me to... but I can't.

I looked in the mirror. I was a mess. If I wanted to go to her funeral, I would have to clean myself up a bit. Okay, not a bit... A lot. Running my hand through my hair, I stared at the mess in front of me. Bags under my eyes, puffy face, messed up hair, slumped stature. It could not be any worse? Could it? Probably.

I picked up my phone, as if expecting a text from her. I stared at the lock screen longer and longer. Finally, I threw my phone on the bed. I would never see the day when she would text me again. I could not see the day when she would. She could not. She was gone. Forever.

I looked in my closet. Looking through my closet, I picked out a black dress shirt and a black pair of slacks to wear. I went to the bathroom and started to wash my face, brushed my teeth, hair and maybe slapped my face a couple of times to wake myself up. After that, I went back to my room and got into my all black outfit. I sighed and took my keys, wallet and phone. Looking in my room once again, I checked for anything I needed. That is when I spotted it. I had forgotten all about it, but I could not forget to wear it today. It meant too much to be left behind. I went over to my desk and picked up a bracelet. It had a brown leather strap and a silver infinity sign on it. I turned the sign over and stared at the engraving. Graham x Sophia was what it said. She had gotten it for my birthday a year ago. I never wore it unless it was a special occasion. I just thought that it was too special for an ordinary day so I would put it away until a special occasion popped up.

Today, no doubt, was a special occasion. Sure it was her funeral, but it was not just that. It was a celebration of her life. I may not be the happiest person on earth now, but I cannot help but be grateful for every moment I spent with her. For every hug, kiss, laugh, cry, thought... everything. I could not be more grateful for her. She gave me something I never had before. Someone to love. I never thought that I would have someone, until she came along. Lucky for me, she did. Had she not, maybe I would never have turned out the way I have.

I was going to miss her. I always will. I guess that she would want me go on strong. I would have to try, it would be hard though. "Keep moving forward with no regrets." She would always say. Maybe I should take her advice. It is a good idea.

Sophia, I'm going to miss you dearly. Thank you for everything, love.

And with that, I went out of the room, out the door, a smile on my face, knowing that she would be proud of me.

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