Emma's POV.
I sat in the bed and sobbed. I can't believe I just did that. Why did I just do that? I probably lost him forever. Oh my God. Harry. He's never been to Toronto before how does he know where to go, or how to get back. He's probably in some alley somewhere or wrapped around a tree. I need to find him, and explain. Even if he doesn't wanna talk I have to make sure he's alright. I grabbed my phone and called Alana. On the third ring she finally answered. "Hello" "Alana Harry's missing" "what do you mean Harry's missing I thought he was with you" she said in a panicked tone. "We'll he told me he loves me and-" "HE WHAT?!" She screamed. "Alana that's not the key issue right now" "sorry so he told you he loves you then what happened?" "I said I can't be with him and he just left" "you can't be with him? Wait because of Blake right?" "No I broke up with Blake" "what why?" "He cheated on me the whole time we were together" "WHAT?! I'll kill him with my bare hands I swear to God" "Al Focus, Harry's out there alone, and it's getting dark soon. He probably doesn't even know where he's going he's probably lost" "ok ok, I'll get the boys together and we'll meet you in the lobby in 5" "ok thank you" I hung up and quickly grabbed Harry's sweat pants and put them on, then I grabbed a sweatshirt for when we find him because he's only got sweat pants on. I rushed out the door and ran to the lobby. When I got there, the boys and Al were waiting. "Harry's missing" "we know, Alana told us" Niall said. "what are we gonna do" I rushed out.  "I've tried calling him but he won't answer" "He left his phone in his room Zane" "Crap, ok it's still light out which means we have a couple hours to find him before it gets dark" "Liam and Alana you guys look around the hotel area and work your way up to the arena while Niall and Emma look backwards towards the mall in the other direction and Louis and I look around the hotel property and in the hotel call us if you find him" Zane said. "Hopefully the fans don't find him first" Niall said worriedly" "why what would happen" "well-" "let's not worry about that. What we need to do is find him" Liam interjected. We all split up and started looking for Harry. Niall and I looked in a few shops, the movie theater, the pond by the hotel and the chocolate shop. No Harry. "I don't get it. He left like ten minutes before I called you guys and he's on foot he couldn't have gotten that far" "I know Emma but he's gonna be fine" "I wish I could just explain" "you will explain, when we find him" "will we find him" Niall looked me in the eye. "Yes we will find him, trust me" I nodded with tears in my eyes. "You can walk it back later" "you mean you hope we can" "no you can and you will" I nodded and hugged him. I took some deep breaths and looked at the sky. "Crap it's getting dark" Niall said. "We have to keep looking" "Emma it's getting late, by the time we make it back to the hotel it's gonna be dark" "I don't care we can't just leave him" "Em he can find his way back" "I hope he does" "no he will" "I just can't think of where he could be" "has he ever done this before" "well yeah once but that was when his girlfriend at the time broke up with him for another guy. He was so upset that he ran away and I didn't see him all day until I finally went out and looked for him" "where was he?" "In the attic of his house" "not any good that does us now" Niall said as he pulled out his phone. He called the other boys but they couldn't find him either so they were heading back to the hotel. This was driving me crazy where could he be? Ok let's think when Harry's upset he always goes to my place to calm down and we go to the park. THE PARK THATS IT IT HAS TO BE. "Niall he's at the park" "are you sure?!" "Yes whenever Harry's upset he used to always go to my place and we'd go to the park" "let's go I'll call the boys" we ran to the park and it was still kinda light out but it would be dark any minute. We finally got to Bellswood Park and I ran over to the bench. No Harry. "No, God No" I fell to my knees. Niall held me tightly. "Emma it's ok" "no no it's not ok Niall. I lost him all over again. He out there alone and it's all my fault" "it's not your fault princess" he whispered rubbing my back. The boys came up to us and wrapped their arms around me while I cried. "Come on Em we brought the car so you don't have to walk" "I can't leave" I whispered. "Not without him" "Em" I looked up at Alana. "Please" I sighed and stood up. I nodded and followed them to the car. I got in and leaned my head against the window. I looked at the clock 12:02am. No wonder it was pitch black out. We finally made it back to the hotel and we all piled out and into the hotel. "Give me a minute I'm gonna use the restroom" I said. "Want me to go with you?" "That's ok Al, you go on ahead I'll be right there" she nodded and walked into the elevator. I walked further into the lobby, sat down and started to think. Let's see, Harry was always good at hiding in plain sight and if I was in the most popular boy band in the world, and I got rejected by someone I love I wouldn't want to go outside and face fans. I would be in a place where no one would recognize me. Where would that be? Well no one recognized him in this hotel. He's gotta be in the hotel. A restaurant maybe, no he didn't take his wallet plus we just ate. The spa? No the spa's closed today. It has to be somewhere in the lobby. This is a huge lobby so if I was Harry I would wanna watch the day go by like he and I used to do back in Cheshire. I looked around and got up and walked towards the windows. As I got closer I saw someone laying on the booth staring at the window. I got closer and saw a familiar mop of curls. I got closer and saw Harry looking out the window with tears stained on his cheeks. I slowly walked up to him and he saw me through the window. He sighed and slowly got up and stood in front of me with tears in his eyes. "I'm not gonna ask why you lied to me earlier. I'm asking you now, right now if you love me Emma, or even like me" I walked towards him. "Of course I love you Harry, but I can't give you the answer you want" he shook his head at me. "Why" "you are so perfect. I've never been good enough for you. I'll never be good enough for you" He looked down then back up at me. "What do you mean Emma were exactly the same. We share the same interest's, life goals and.." he paused. "We have the same mental illness. I understand what you go through" "No you don't Harry" "yes I do" "No you don't. You've always been the golden boy. The one everybody loved because you're so sweet, kind, caring and so funny. You're very easy to talk to and you're very good at comforting people, but me? I can't even get two words out to anyone" "what about Alana?" "What Alana and I have is nice but she does all the talking. The truth is, I know everything about her but she doesn't know anything about me, because I can't tell her anything, because I'm too scared to talk to her. You may have anxiety Harry, but you can talk to people, communicate, carry on a conversation I can't do that. Not with anyone but you and even with you, it took you thirteen years to get me to open up to you. Who's gonna wanna spend thirteen years getting to know me?" "I would" Harry whispered. I sighed "We are not the same Harry. I'm not like you I can't just go around and start up a conversation with someone and in two minutes become their best friend. This world has so much to offer you. You're going places Haz but me? I have nothing to offer this world. I have nothing to offer you because I'm just someone you used to hang out with, your high school groupie" "you are not my high school groupie. Is that how you see yourself" I shook my head. "No, but you will. When the time comes" he looked to the side as tears rolled down his cheeks. He looked me in the eyes and walked past me and to the elevator. I closed my eyes tightly as I heard the elevator go up to his room. I sat down in the booth and stared out the window and started to cry. "I'm sorry" I whispered as I cried silently to myself.