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Louis closed his eyes and turned his head to the side whispering over and over again, "Let me go."

Let me go, let me go.

"You can't go." Harry mumbled, "You have a life ahead of you an-"

"A life that doesn't belong to me, it's unnatural." Louis interrupted him feeling empty with no emotions whatsoever, "My life was over ten years ago. Why can't you understand that."

"I- It wasn't over Louis, it was taken from you. I spent so many years preparing myself to be who I am today to be able to bring you back where you belong. Don't do it for yourself much less for me if you don't want to, but do it for Blake, your son." Harry pulled away from Louis grabbing his arm with the intention of starting the exercises one of the doctors had recommended so he could gain mobility again even though Jay had been doing them for a while now.

"Did he ever see me like that?" Louis asked, his bottom lip trembling and more tears rolling down his cheeks, "Did he ever see his father like a frozen piece of meat. Nothing but a corpse."

Harry wanted to protest and tell him it was never like that but stayed quiet choosing to answer his question, Louis deserved them after all. Anything Louis asked, Harry was going to answer it.

"No, I never allowed him to. We've had many arguments over it but I never allowed him, I wanted him to meet you once you were awake and aware of what's going on." Harry told him hearing Louis' relieved sigh.

"He's mine, but he sounds like a complete stranger. Do you- Do you have a picture?" Louis asked him as he watched Harry. He was a complete stranger to him too.

"I have something better." Harry smiled at him showing him his dimples that even after ten years, were still there completely untouched, "The other day I brought a bag full of videos of Blake growing up. Do you want to watch them?"

"When are you going to bring him to see me? So I can meet him." Louis asked instead of answering his question.

"Soon. I have to talk to him first, get him used to the idea of you being here again." Harry set Louis' right arm down then got up and made his way to the other side where he grabbed his left arm.

"When?" Louis insisted.

"I promise you'll see him soon. He's a very sensitive child and I need to explain what's going on or else he'll close off." Harry gave him a small smile, "Do you want to watch those videos first? Last one was recorded a few months ago on his ninth birthday.

He mentally scolded himself when Louis once again closed off and looked away not answering his question realizing how truly frightened he still was until he felt his hand shaking. He stayed silent taking more time to do the exercises until he felt Louis had had enough of it then gently set his arm down. He got up and made sure Louis was comfortable before checking his heart monitor making sure everything was alright feeling Louis' eyes on him.

"I'm going to leave the oxygen on until you have more strength and feel that you can breathe on your own." Harry informed him going on doctor mode.

"Don't...don't let Mark and Jay come in here again, I don't want to see them." Louis settled his gaze on him begging with his eyes.

"Alright, I'm sure they'll understand." Harry sighed knowing they weren't going to but it's what Louis wanted.

"Are you going back to Blake?" Louis asked.

"I can stay here with you if you want to, my mum can watch him and Gemma is there too." Harry went to sit next to Louis on the bed seeing him moving his fingers, it wasn't much but it was something.

"I don't want to be alone...I'm- I'm scared to be alone." Louis confessed not knowing what he was feeling when Harry hugged him again. It was the same yet it wasn't, he still felt the same but at the same time he didn't.

"I'm gonna go outside for a little bit to make a call and tell your parents I'm staying with you." Harry pulled back and when Louis nodded, he got up and left the room leaving Louis alone.

As soon as he stepped outside Jay got up from the chair she had been sitting on making Harry feel sorry for her when he saw how red her eyes were from all the crying. Mark wasn't doing any better but stayed behind giving Harry some space when Jay was already invading it.

"Did you tell him the truth?" Jay asked.

"He didn't take it so well but he calmed down and he- he wants me to stay with him." Harry informed her.

"What?" Jay took a step back, "I thought I was going to be the one to stay with him. I- I've been doing that ever since he was brought back."

"You have to understand him, Jay. The last memories he has of both of you are not that pleasant, just give him time. Go home tonight, I'm going to stay with him." Harry insisted.

"No! I'm not going anywhere, I'm his mother and I'm staying with him. You go home to Blake, he needs you." Jay argued and when Harry didn't budge, she pushed him aside and walked in without knocking.

The reaction was immediate when as soon as she stepped into the room, Louis started screaming at her telling her to get out making it more painful when his voice kept cracking. Jay was a sobbing mess watching Harry run to Louis and hold him in his arms hiding Louis' face on his chest while Mark wrapped his arms around her and made her go outside closing the door after them.

"Tell them to leave, tell them to leave. Get them out!" Louis screamed, millions of memories flashing through his head. Ones he didn't like to remember when to him they felt as if they had just happened yesterday when it had been over nine years ago.

"Shh, it's okay. They're gone." Harry whispered against Louis' ear as he ran his fingers through his hair that needed a wash but he could care less.

"I don't want to see them ever again." Louis sobbed, "They- They ruined everything, they- it's their fault."

"You're okay." Harry rubbed his back until Louis calmed down enough to be left alone while he called his mum and went to his office to get the bag full of dvd's and a MacBook.

Anne and Gemma agreed to stay with Blake and after promising him a big surprise for him in the next few days, his son finally agreed on staying with his nana. When he got back to Louis' room he expected him to be calmly waiting for him but instead found him crying making his own eyes sting with tears seeing the state Louis was in. Looking frightened like something was out to get him and ready to jump him at any second. He put the items on top of the overbed table by the door then rushed to Louis hugging him again. He stayed there until Louis let it all out having used a full box of tissues on both of them and when Louis spoke up, he knew he was in for a long night.

"T- Tell me everything that's happened for the past nine years. I want to know everything about everybody." Louis said against Harry's chest.

"Tell me if you want me to stop." Harry said and when Louis nodded he started from the very beginning, "A week after you...you left us, Jay went looking for me having decided that it was better for Blake if he was with me. She gave him to me and she and Mark let me raise him."

"They did?" Louis looked up at him seeing the way his jaw was moving, "I- I thought they will never let you see him, when I was so sick I thought they would keep him away from you. I was terrified."

"I know you want nothing to do with them much less hear from them, but Mark realized the error of his ways. Too late but he did, he helped me so much, he- he is part of the reason I am who I am today. I would have never made it without his help."

"After he showed me where he was keeping you, a month after I graduated, he asked for my help. He told me I was a genius and I could help him bring you back. I was so broken then and I just wanted you back, I wanted us to have that family we promised to each other." Harry started crying quickly wiping his tears away, "I spent all this time preparing myself to be who I am today. School was already paid for and Mark helped me economically."

"Raising Blake wasn't easy but everybody helped me. Jay or my mum would watch him, my mum if she had time, now she works part time in a day care and in the afternoons she watches Blake. She picks him up from school and stays with him until I get home and if she can't then your mum does. Niall, Zayn and Liam helped me raise him too and they still do, Blake loves them to death."

"Zayn." Louis said out of nowhere and when he started shaking, Harry made sure to hug him tighter kissing the top of his head.

"Zayn is okay, love. Remember how he was studying to be a teacher?" Harry asked and when Louis nodded he continued, "He changed his mind and is now an architect, Liam just completed his residency and is now a pediatrician. Niall the nerd is a software engineer." He chuckled.

"Liam and Zayn. Did they end up together?" Louis asked feeling his eyelids getting heavier wanting to sleep.

"They...They got married three years ago and now Zayn- he's expecting their first child, he's four months along." Harry told him expecting Louis to freak getting confused when Louis pulled away from him then looked at him with a small smile on his face.

The first one ever.

"Zayn used to always say he wasn't going to pop out anybody's kids but Liam's. At least he got what he wanted." Louis' smile vanished leaning against Harry once again.

"If- If we didn't get what we wanted then we can still get it now. It's never too late." Harry shyly said seeing how tired Louis looked, "Go to sleep darling, I'll be here when you wake up." Harry told him getting up to fix Louis' blankets around him.

"I want to take a bath, I feel dirty." Louis yawned.

"Tomorrow after you have breakfast, that way your bed will get cleaned up if you have an accident. We need to get you started on liquids first then solids. How are you feeling right now?"

"My stomach feels empty but I don't want to eat anything, food sounds gross right now." Louis' face scrunched up in distaste, "I do want to sleep."

"Go to sleep, okay. If you need something just call for me." Harry said.

He watched Louis nod before he fell asleep and half an hour later he did the same after he had asked a nurse for toothpaste and a toothbrush to brush his teeth. When he woke up again it was already five in the morning getting up to do his business and brush his teeth again now that Louis was still asleep. As soon as he was back in the room he took a seat on the couch where he had spent the night with his laptop on his lap going to his son's school website to check his grades.

He had smiled the entire time seeing how his son was an A+ student and he couldn't be more proud of him as he was going through the many assignments he had completed and turned in. When he was done he checked his schedule and his eyes widened when he saw he had many appointments starting at ten and he still had to shower and eat something. He didn't know what to do wondering if it was a good idea to call Zayn over since Louis didn't want to see his mother but couldn't when it could impact Zayn in a bad way. Or it would brighten his day.

"Ha- Harry." Louis groaned moving his head from side to side looking a bit green, "I want to..."

He didn't even get the chance to finish when he was trying to move to his side as he gagged wanting to throw up, but with nothing in his stomach, it was impossible for him to vomit at all. Harry got up as fast as he could calling one of the nurses over asking for medication already knowing what was wrong with Louis. He moved him over to his side making sure his head was at the edge of the bed as he rubbed his back seeing tears forming on Louis' eyes the more he gagged.

"You'll be okay, darling. It's just a side effect, it will go away soon." Harry soothed him reaching to press the button again when the nurse was taking too long just as a male nurse ran in with the syringe already in his hand, "Do it slowly or it will make it worse." Harry instructed him seeing him nodding.

He held Louis close as the male nurse injected medicine through the IV hearing Louis gagging again letting out a pained cry making him worry even more. He comforted him taking a water bottle the nurse offered to him before leaving then let Louis rest back on the bed as soon as he said he was feeling a bit better.

"I'm gonna give you water but just to rinse your mouth, spit it out after you're done okay." Harry instructed him not wanting him to get sick again, "They're going to bring you breakfast soon."

Louis nodded then Harry gave him water making sure to have a container close so Louis could spit the water out after he was done. He repeated the process two more times then announced he was done hearing a knock on the door then one of the ladies who worked in the cafeteria walked in with a tray in her hands. It only had a bowl filled with chicken broth making Louis' stomach growl realizing he was actually hungry and a cup filled with something Louis couldn't guess.

"Alright, here's your breakfast sweetheart. Enjoy!" The female told him making Louis smile.

"Thank you, Elena." Harry thanked her.

"You are welcome, sweetheart! Are you sure you don't want me to bring you anything?" She asked.

"Now that you offered I'm gonna have to take you up on that offer." Harry gave him a cheeky smile, "I have appointments all day starting at ten and I'm barely going to have time to take a shower."

"I'll be right back, we have biscuits and gravy. Oh! And sausages." Elena smiled.

"Sounds delicious." Harry gave her a thumbs up watching her leave.

"You have to leave?" Louis asked as soon as she was gone watching him roll the overbed closer to him.

"I have appointments and I can't cancel them. I'm sorry Lou, but I promise I'll come back as soon as I'm finished." Harry kissed the top of his head never noticing Louis stiffening then grabbed a spoon to start feeding him

"Who's going to stay with me?" Louis looked up at him with teary eyes, "Not Jay please...or Mark."

"Actually..." Harry started, pausing to feed him seeing Louis swallowing before he continued, "I was thinking about calling Zayn, he's on vacation right now and I know he's dying to come see you. He doesn't know you're awake but I can call him if you want me too. It's okay if you don't."

"I- I want to see him." Louis said and that was enough for Harry to know he had agreed reaching to pull out his phone from his back pocket.

"What is that?" Louis' gaze was settled on the phone as he took another spoonful of the broth.

"This is an Iphone 6S. It just came out." Harry told him letting him see the phone watching in wonder how impressed Louis looked by it.

"An I- what?" Louis' brow furrowed in confusion looking from the phone to Harry and back to it.

"It's from the apple company. You remember them?" Harry smiled.

"They're still around? This phone is huge, phones weren't that big then." Louis looked completely mesmerized by it that Harry couldn't help but grab his hand and let him hold it seeing how big it looked in his small hand.

"They're still around, darling." Harry chuckled taking the phone back quickly sending a text to Zayn to meet him in his office then started feeding Louis again, "How are you feeling? Any nausea?"

"Not yet." Louis informed him then opened his mouth to eat more, "Can you give me the water?" He asked after he had swallowed the broth.

Harry nodded reaching for the cup and a straw just as they heard a knock then Elena walked in with a tray full of food for Harry. She set it in the nightstand then walked out with a smile on her face after Harry had thanked her not bothering to eat until Louis was done.

"Let me know if you start feeling nauseous again. Any kind of discomfort, please let me know." Harry rolled the overbed table towards the couch then sat down starting to eat his food while Louis watched him.

He watched the way his jaw would move whenever he chewed then his adam's apple bobbing up and down unable to stop comparing the now twenty eight year old man in front of him to the nineteen year old boy he had been back then. The sudden urge to see what he looked like hit him out of nowhere making him choke on his spit gaining Harry's attention who got up faster than lightning.

"Are you okay?" Harry asked starting to get worried when Louis couldn't stop.

"I'm- I'm okay." Louis gasped out trying to take deep breaths, the oxygen cannula helping him a little.

Harry nodded giving Louis a bit more of water and when he was done and once again feeling okay, he went back to eating his food trying to finish it on time. When he was done he put his tray aside then began folding the blanket he had used feeling someone watching him. When he looked up he found Louis already watching him and without thinking, he gave him a smile that had Louis blushing and looking back down at his lap just like all those years ago.

"I need to take a bath." Louis muttered.

"I'll get it ready for you. I asked a few of the nurses to prepare a new room for you, you'll be more comfortable and it will be easier for visits." Harry finished folding the blanket then made his way to the bathroom.

"Visits...like Blake?" Louis asked wanting nothing more than to see his son but it was- it felt, as if Harry was keeping him away from him.

"He'll definitely want to spend everyday here once he meets you." Harry continued completely unaware of the turmoil going on inside Louis' head.

As soon as the warm bath was ready Harry carefully unhooked Louis then placed him in a wheelchair noticing how light he was and when he undressed him, he noticed just how fragile he looked. Louis expected himself to feel embarrassment whenever Harry would look at him in his naked state but when it didn't seem to bother Harry, Louis was able to relax.

"I'm gonna pick you up now, okay?" Harry said and when Louis nodded, he gently picked him up again.

He felt Louis stiffening and seconds later sharp fingernails digging into his back making him wince a little realizing that it was Louis. He turned to look at him seeing him staring at the mirror in front of them and once Harry met his eyes through it, Louis burst out crying hiding his face on his chest.

Harry could feel him shaking against him forcing him to sit down on top of the closed lid of the toilet rocking him back and forth as he rubbed his naked back. His cries slowly turned into hiccups until he stopped and sat there not wanting to move at all wanting to stay warm and Harry's arms were the only ones that could provide it.

"I was supposed to get old with you." Louis mumbled after what seemed like an eternity but had only been minutes, "We were supposed to raise our son together, to watch him grow together."

"It's never too late to start now." Harry kissed the top of his head still holding onto a life with Louis and Blake. His family.

"Sometimes it is, Harry. Sometimes it is too late for everything. I will never get back all those years I missed, w- we were supposed to be a family by now." Louis started crying again, "Remember how we used to say we were going to have a lot of kids? Now look at me. I- I don't even know if I should consider myself a nineteen year old or- or whatever age I am supposed to be by now."

"I'm not going to force you to do anything you don't want. Everything is your choice now, you weren't allowed one back then but now you do." Harry told him blinking the tears away knowing that maybe being with him isn't what Louis wanted now, "How about that bath, huh?"

Harry gently set Louis down in the tub then helped him bath and when he was finished he dried him and changed him into a pair of sweatpants and a long sleeved shirt leaving the hoodie aside in case Louis got cold later on. He placed him in the wheelchair then took him straight to another room where in Louis' opinion, was so much better and homey than the last one.

"Zayn is already here. Do you want to see him now?" Harry asked him as he helped him on the bed and when Louis nodded he went to get him. Zayn was already in his office waiting for Harry to come get him getting up as soon as Harry walked in.

"How is he doing?" Zayn asked him, "He's awake, right?"

"Yes and he wants to see you." Harry opened the door wider letting Zayn go first then walked together to Louis' new room.

"Is there anything I need to know before you let me in?" Zayn asked not wanting to upset Louis in anyway.

"Don't mention Jay and Mark, he doesn't want to see them at the moment and don't be afraid if it gets a bit overwhelming for him...has been happening a lot. Moments when he, I don't know, doesn't want to be here...alive. He can't move his arms and legs but we've been doing exercises and I'll teach you how to do them before I leave. Ready?" Harry asked.

"Ready." Zayn confirmed feeling a lump in his throat at the new information.

He slowly opened the door peeking in to see Louis looking at the door expectantly and when he opened it wider, was when life long friends finally saw each other again. Zayn's vision was already blurry from all the tears while Louis wasn't doing any better and slowly but surely, Zayn made his way inside followed by Harry who stayed behind the closer Zayn was getting to Louis.

Nothing was said nor was needed to be said when Zayn slowly got closer to Louis and after a few seconds where nothing happened, Zayn finally brought Louis into a hug having missed him. He started crying again unable to stay quiet wondering if it was only a dream and when would he have to face the cruel reality of having to wake up. When Louis mumbled a quiet Zayn, he pulled back placing his warm hands on Louis' cheeks wanting to get a better look before hugging him again.

"I missed you so much, you have no idea." Zayn whispered.

Louis couldn't say anything feeling a lump in his throat and instead carefully observed him, his friend was still the same yet looked so different. Everything suited him back then and everything was still suiting him now even the blond hair and the little round tummy he had noticed right away.

"I- I'm sorry for- for leaving." Louis mumbled.

"You're here now. You don't have to apologize for anything." Zayn let go of his face then grabbed his hand rubbing small circles on top of it, "I'm going to stay with you, we have a lot to talk about."

"Call me if you need anything. Let me show you how to do those exercises." Harry spoke up and soon enough he was showing Zayn how to do them before leaving.

Zayn had carefully observed the way Louis' eyes had fluttered shut when Harry kissed the top of his head before leaving watching Louis staring at him until he disappeared. Once he was gone, Zayn took a seat on the bed right next to Louis just looking at each other until Zayn smiled once again taking Louis' hand in his.

"What are you going to have?" Louis asked not knowing how else to start a conversation.

"It's a girl. Liam and Blake are the only ones who know." Zayn happily told him seeing the way Louis' eyes shined at the mention of Blake.

"Blake...I hate how he's a complete stranger. What's he like?" Louis' eyes started watering at the mere thought of his baby boy.

"Oh Lou, he's the most wonderful and sweetest boy you will ever meet." Zayn answered and it was enough to bring Louis to tears.

His own child was a stranger to him, someone he didn't know at all.

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