HELLO EVERYBODYYYY

SO I AM BACK WITH A MAHA DHAMAKA UPDATEEEEEEEE!!!!!!

AND P.S – HINT BEFORE YOU DIG IN – I TOLD YOU ALL I WILL NEVER SEPARATE MY HG AND UG AND THEY ARE UNQUE AND THAT'S HOW THEY HAVE TACKLED THIS BERMUDA TRIANGLE.

THERES NOTHING CLICHÉ ABOUT THEM.

THERE NEVER WILL BE YA.

AND ITS LIKE A MAHA UPDATE OK – 16K WORDS – AND I SHALL WAIT TO KNOW ALL YOUR COMMENTS.

I HAVE LITERALLY BEEN ABUSING MY KEPYAD ALL DAY TODAY WITH THE FLOW OF WORDS.

HEHE.

P.S – TO ALL MY READERS WHO PMD ME PERSONALLY – I AM SORRY TO MISGUIDE YOU A LITTLE WITH THE WRONG PLOT BUT I WANTED TO GIVE YOU GUYS REASSURANCE TOO AND YET NOT GIVE THIS DHAMAKA PLOT OF MINE AWAY!! APOLOGIES FOR THAT GUYS--- I HOPE YOU ALL LOVE THISSSS ONE.

TO HOODIE GUY AND UBER GIRL – ALWAYS – WITH LOVE..WINK WINK..

I SHALL LET YOU ALL DIVE IN WITHOUT FURTHER DELAY.

PUT ON THE SEATBEALT GUYS.

ONE HELLUVA RIDE IT IS – I MEAN THAT'S WHAT I FELT WHEN I WROTE IT.

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CHAPTER 31 – MY DESTINED CATHARSIS

Khushi's POV

Zara is an Angel.

And So is Zain.

And So Is Asher.

I cannot even know – how am I going to be able to thank for them to all the support they extended out to me in my Mini Panic Attack Episode.

AND OH WAIT.

I AM HOME.

AND I AM KIND OF RECOVERING FROM MY MELTODOWN – BY SITTING UNDER THIS HOT WATER FLOW OVER MY HEAD.

AND BEFORE I GO IN ANY FURTHER WITH THE CRAZY OVERDEIVE THOUGHT PROCESS IN MY HEAD – I WANT TO MAKE A STATEMENT.

IT WAS IMPORTANT FOR ME TO KIND OF GO THROUGH THIS PANIC ATTACK – BECAUSE WHILE I WAS IN IT AND SOBBING HOPELESSLY AND CRAZILY IN ZARA'S ARMS AND HAVING THAT FREAKING MELTDOWN – I FIGURED OUT – THAT I WILL DIE IF I EVEN TRY TO PUSH MY HOODIE GUY.

ITS LIKE MY HEART WILL STOP BEATING.

OK ANOTHER THING THAT MADE ME REALISE THAT?

CALL ME A LITTLE CRAZY THOUGH – WELL YOU ALL ALREADY KNOW THAT – SO AFTER ZARA AND ZAIN TUCKED ME SAFE AND SOUND IN MY BED AND ZARA KISSED MY FORHEAD – SHE WAS TOTALLY LIKE MY ELDER SISTER IN THAT MOMENT AND I WAS SO OVERWHELEMD – BUT AFTER THEY LEFT AND I WROTE A TEXT TO HOODIE GUY THAT I WAS HOME BUT WAS GETTING INTO SHOWER SO I WOULD CALL HIM THE MINUTE I WAS DONE.

THAT MADE ME CRY A LITTLE MORE – AND ALL THIS OVERWHELEMED EMOTIONS – THEY GAVE ME A FREAKING NOSE BLEED – PROBABLY BECAUSE MY BLOOD PRESSURE MUST HAVE SHOT UP TO ANOTHER LEVEL.

I CONTROLLED IT WITH ICE OFCOURSE.

BUT I CAME TO A CONCLUSION RIGHT THEN IN MY HEAD.

I AM NOT GOING TO PUSH MY HOODIE GUY AWAY – NOT EVEN FOR A BLOODY SECOND LET ALONE 11 MONTHS

I CANNOT DO THAT TO HIM.

EVER.

LIKE DYING WOULD BE EASIER THAN THIS.

ID RATHER KILL MYSELF AND THAT WOULD KILL HIM TOO.

SO NO POINT.

I KNOW – TO THINK THAT THIS IS HOW SOLIDLY THIS BLODDY MAGICAL DUMBLEDORE IS INTO MY SYSTEM.

AND SO NOW – I HAVE WALKED INTO MY SHOWER AND RETREATED TO HAVING HOT WATER CALM MY NERVES – I HOLD ONTO MY HEART AGAIN – AND I DO NOT LET MY MIND INTERFERE FOR A WHILE.

I ASK IT TO BLOODY STAY OUT OF THE FREAKING WAY!

DEAR MIND – I SHALL CALL YOU IN FOR YOUR OPINION WHEN ASKED.

SHUT THE HELL UP FOR NOW.

STUPID BLOODY MIND!

OK SO.

LETS GET ONTO THE TRACK IN MY HEART.

SO YOU KNOW THAT NOSE BLEED – KIND OFF LIKE WAS A MOMENT THAT MADE ME REALISE – THAT IF I TRY – LIKE LITERALLY EVEN TRY TO PUSH MY HOODIE GUY AWAY – I WILL GET A MASSIVE CARDIAC ARREST IN MY SLEEP TONIGHT ONLY – MY HEART WILL GIVE UP ON ME - IT WILL REVOLT SO BAD.

LIKE THIS TOTALLY FEELS LIKE OLD SCHOOL ROMEO JULIET TYPE – YOU KNOW HOW ONE CANT LITERALLY LIVE WITHOUT ANOTHER??????????

OK DON'T LAUGH GUYS.

I TOLD YOU I AM CRAZY IN MY HEAD.

MAYBE – LETS GET ANOTHER MRI.

I HAVE JUST BEEN SHOT UPTO THE EDGE OF SPACE WITH PANIC AND BROUGHT BACK TO EARTH IN LESS THAN A NANOSECOND – AND I AM ONLY HUMAN GUYS.

PLEASE GIVE ME A BREAK.

I AM GOING TO THINK THIS THROUGH AGAIN.

YOU SEE – I HAVE REALISED SOMETHING.

EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A FREAKING REASON OK?

AND RIGHT NOW YOU SEE – IT WAS VERY IMPORTANT FOR ME TO EXPERIENCE THIS MINI ATTACK EPISODE BECAUSE ITS LIKE IT MADE ME REALISE THAT EVERYTHING ABOUT MY HOODIE GUY – IS SO DEEP INTO ME NOW – THAT IF I WERE TO EVEN THINK ABOUT EVEN FIVE MINUTES OF MY LIFE WITHOUT HIM – ITS LIKE – MY HEART WILL SAY TATA BYE BYE SEE YOU TO THIS WORLD RIGHT THEN.

I AM TELLING YOU THIS BLOODY HEART WILL STOP BEATING.

I NEED HIM.

AND I WILL NOT FREAKING TORTURE MYSELF OR HIM LIKE THIS.

NO WAY!!!!

BUT.

HIS COACH ALSO MADE SOME VALID POINTS YAAA.

AND WAIT.

DID YOU READ THAT FIRST BIT WHERE I MENTIONED – THAT ASHER IS AN ANGEL TOO??

YES SO – NEVER IN MY BLOODY LIFE WILL I HAVE HIM LOOK LIKE THE BAD GUY IN HERE!

SO YES – HIS STUPID IDEA – IS TOTALLY OUT OF MY LIST.

MY HOODIE GUY KNOWS IN HIS HEART THAT I WOULD NEVER LET ANY OTHER MAN'S LIPS EVEN TOUCH MINE.

FOR THEY ARE HIS.

HE HAS MARKED THEM AS HIS AND HE HAS ALSO STAMPED MY HEART AS HIS.

AND HOODIE GUY KNOWS THAT – IN HIS HEART.

SO HE WILL NEVER BELIEVE THIS SHIT.

ITS SO CLICHÉ!

AND WE HAVE DISCUSSED EVERYTHING ABOUT ANJALI AND RAV'S CASE – I KNOW HOW MUCH EVEN THE THOUGHT OF THAT COULD HURT MY HOODIE GUY.

NOPE – I AM NOT GOING TO HURT HIM IN SUCH A BRUTAL WAY.

OUR CARNAGE KISSES ARE BLODDY – HOLY AND PURE!

I AM NOT GOING TO CONJURE UP A IMAGE IN HIS HEAD THAT WOULD TAIN THAT IMAGE EVEN FOR A SECOND – LET ALONE HAVE HIM THINK THAT FOR 11 BLOODY MONTHS.

NOOOOOOO.

NOT HAPPENING.

BUT YOU KNOW WHAT???

ASHER OFFERING TO LOOK LIKE THE BAD GUY – WHEN I KNOW FROM ZARA AND MY LITTLE EXPERIENCE WITH KNOWING HIM- THAT HE IS LITERALLY LIKE A VERY ETHICAL AND A MORAL GUY -AND HIM OFFERING TO DO THIS SO THAT ITS AN EASIER WAY OUT FOR ME – KIND OF MADE ME REALISE THAT HE IS INTO ME QUITE DEEP.

(HMMM – I NEED TO DISCUSS THIS WITH MY HOODIE GUY)

ANYWAYS.

BACK TO THE TRACKS ON MY HEART.

SO YES.

BUT MY HEART IS ALSO RESONATING WITH WHAT THE COACH SAID – AS IN YES ALL THIS CRAZY ADDICTIVE CHEMISTRY IN BETWEEN OF ARNAV AND ME IS STARTING TO GET BLOODY ADDICTIVE TOO.

I DO NOT WANT THAT TO BE LIKE A DISTRACTION TO HIM.

SO NOWWWWWWWWWWW.

I HAVE TO LIKE THINK OF A BLOODY DIFFERENT WAY OF STEERING THE SAILS AROUND MY SHIP AROUND THIS BLOODY BERMUDA TRIANGLE – WHICH IS VERY TRICKY!

BLOODY HELL – NO WONDER ITS ALSO CALLED THE DEVILS TRIANGLE – HURRICANE ALLEY ETC!!

BUT YOU STUPID BERMUDA TRIANGLE – YOU DON'T KNOW WHICH SAILORS PATH HAVE YOU CROSSED????

YES YES – I PANICKED WHEN I FIRST CAME ACROSS YOUR DEVILICIOUS SWIRLS BUT NO – I AM NOT GOING TO FALL A VICTIM AND LET ME SHIP DROWN OR DISAPPEAR INTO YOUR WHIRLPOOL.

SO POINT TO BE NOTED – WHY WAS IT IMPORTANT FOR ME TO KIND OF EXPREINCE ALL OF THAT AGAIN???

BECAUSE I REALSIED THAT HOODIE GUY IS LIKE – OXYGEN NOW.

AND I NEED HIM – LIKE I NEED TO BREATHE.

IT'S A BASIC NECESSITY TO MY LIFE NOW.

AND NECESSITY IS THE MOTHER OF ALL FREAKING INVENTIONS IN THIS WORLD GUYS!!

SO NOW.

NOW THAT MY HEART IS CLEAR ON THIS – NOW I SHALL ASK MY BLOODY MIND TO STEP IN AND HELP ME A LITTLE.

THERE HAS TO BE ANOTHER WAY.

LIKE THERE HAS TO BE ANOTHER FREAKING WAY YA!!!!!

KHUSHI – YOU HAVE ALWAYS BEEN A BRILLAINT STUDENT.

THINK THINK.

THINK HARD.

YOU CAN CRACK THIS OUT OF SYLLABUS QUESTION PAPER.

YOU HAVE TO.

FOR HOODIE GUY.

AND I CLOSE MY EYES AND I TAKE DEEP BREATHES AND I LET THE HOT WATER KEEP FLOWING.

AND I JUST SIT THERE THINKING – DEEP IN THOUGHT.

AND I CHANNELISE ALL THAT POWER IN MY HEART TOO – ALL THAT LOVE I FEEL FOR MY HOODIE GUY – TO GIVE ME SOME HEADS UP – SOME CLUE AS TO HOW I CAN GO ABOUT THIS SO THAT ITS LIKE A WIN WIN SITUATION.

AND I THINK HARD.

MY EMOTIONAL CONTINGENT LIABILITY RESERVE IS COMING HANDY TOO.

AND THEN – JUST LIKE A THAT – A THOUGHT COMES TO MY HEAD.

AND GUYS.

I AM TELLING YOU – PLEASE NOTE THIS DOWN.

THIS IS LIKE THAT BLOODY 'EUREKA' MOMENT IN MY LIFE.

(WELL YOU KNOW HOW ARCHIMEDES DISCOVERED THE ARCHIMEDES PRINCIPLE IN THE BATH???AND EXCLAIMED EUREKA EUREKA – WHICH MEANS I FOUND IT- I FOUND IT.)

I THINK – I HAVE FIGURED SOMETHING OUT.

WAIT.

GUYYYYYYYYYYYYS.

I HAVE JUST FREAKING FIGURED A LOT OF BLOODY THINGS OUT.

AND

NOW.

IT WAS TIME TO START ACTING ON IT.

AND WAIT – I SHALL NOT DISCLOSE MY CRAZY THOUGHTS RIGHT NOW.

KHUSHI – PUT ON YOUR FREAKING SEAT BELT AND GET ONTO THIS ROLLERCOASTER HEAD ON.

ITS GOING TO BE A THRILLING FREAKING RIDE FROM HERE.

BUT

I KNOW ONE THING FOR SURE.

IT WAS GOING TO BE FREAKING WORTH EVERY SECOND OFF IT.

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Khushi's POV CONTINUES.

I am back to humming my Hoodie guys favourite songs as I dress up in my tank top and shorts for the night and my hair are obviously wet from the shower.

I rake my hand through them as I adjust them loosely to one side and I get into bed.

And I pick up my phone.

I see a text from Arnav.

Him : sunshine,where are you today?? Somethings up with you..for sure..i can feel it love..i know somethings wrong..please..where are you?? Talk to me please...

I smile to myself as I quickly reply : love..i am good to connect now on a video call.

And the very next second my phone buzzes and I accept the video call and Arnav's worried face fills in my screen immediately as he says – rubbing his hands over his face and in a stern voice – " sunshine...youv crazy freaking driven me insane with in the last two hours because your texts..the lone two ones..they just made me feel like something was wrong...somethings happened sunshine??are you ok???you don't look ok..at all...its like your eyes are weary and you look exhausted....dammit..please talk to me...you are scaring the hell out of me now..."

I give him a heartfelt smile and two tears do fall from my eyes and I say softly – " I love you dammit...I love you so goddamit much..."

He's a little relieved but worried still – " sunshine..please...talk to me dammit..."

I wipe my tears and I touch the screen lovingly – " I freaking love you so much goddamit..."

He says immediately – " I love you to khuhsi..and you know that more than anything in this world...its like there isn't anything in this world that I wont do for you..you know that..."

I say immediately – " there isn't anything in this world that I wouldn't do for you too Love..i love you so muchhh..."

He – " khushi its freaking 330 am for me right now...you talk to me right now...and you tell me what the hell has been up with you all evening...or you want me to fly to you first thing tomorrow morning?????you know what I think im getting on that plane to come to you..."

I say immediately – " no arnav...please.....you have a game tomorrow...please...listen to me...you gotta calm down...pleaseeee...I would hate it if you do that for me..like I will die of guilt ya.."

He takes a deep breathe as he rubs his hands over his face – " fine..then talk to me..dammit..tell me whats wrong???"

I say immediately – " you know love...you are my atlantic ocean right...let me see how do I put this to you...its like this evening at my end of the ocean there was big storm ok and it kind of steered me straight towards the bermuda triangle and I felt like our ship would sink or get lost into it..."

Arnav's eyes widen with worry and concern as he says – " what do you mean???sink ..lost??? what nonsense???shut up...you know that can never happen no matter how big the storm is..we will wade through it together like head on as long as we have each other we can wade through anything....you know that...I told you there isn't anything in this world I wouldn't do for you right...no matter how difficult it gets..."

I nod – " I know...",and I take a deep breathe as I say – " okkk so right now in my head I was just trying to figure things out..and I think I have...but before I get to talking to you about it...I need to sleep love...its like you know I need to shut down and reboot my systems...can we talk about this tomorrow morning love like maybe even in a couple of hours..just give me five hours of sleep maybe.."

He takes a deep breathe and rubs his hand over his face – " fine...sunshine...you look exhausted to another level right now, and I am not risking your health even a little...I don't want you to trigger migraine ok..you please sleep...and we will talk whatever it is in the morning...I love you Sunshine..."

I smile now – " carnage kisses to you...you have no bloody idea what an eureka moment I had in the shower right now..."

He grins now – " you mean like an eureka moment like the Archimedes had while he invented the Archimedes principle??"

I grin and I wipe a tear outta my eye – " yess...but you know since we are in the 21st century ya hoodie guy..so its like I had this moment under the hot shower..whilst he ofcourse had it in an old vintage tub..."

He chuckles now – " damm you sunshine...only you can make me go through a roller coaster like this...",and he says softly – " please wipe that tear away..its killing me.."

I nod as I wipe it away and I say – " I love you...arnav...and I am sorry that I did text you for those hours...it killed me...ok??you Know that right??

He nods – " ofcourse...I know...only we both know and understand what we are too each other Sunshine..."

I say immediately – " love...but this eureka moment as in its going to be one helluva a rollercoaster ride for us..as in it wont be easy...when I discuss this with you tomorrow..."

He nods as he brushes his hands over his face concerned – " just tell me one thing..all I need to know...I can handle everything else...but I need to know this.. you are going to be with me on this rollercoaster right?????? As in you will be sitting in next to me right??"

I nod frantically – " ofcourse...always...always...always right next to you...but we gotta hold each others hand tight ok love, and not let go...you know I cant live without you...you are all that I have Arnav...you are everything to me...im always next to you love...never away...I love you so much...just that this freaking storm is going to twist things for us a little..."

Arnav nods – " ok...so I don't care about any twists or how crazy they are...I just need you by my side..and I will be good Sunshine.."

I nod – " always...I love you..now please you sleep and so will i...and we will talk in the morning ok love...just trust me on this...I got this..i got US..."

Arnav nods – " I trust you more than my very life khushi and you know that..."

I nod – " I know..and so do i...you know that right???"

He nods.

I say on reflex – " I love you...I just want you to sleep with knowing this one thing Arnav, you are oxygen to me ok?? Its like I need you to breathe and live..i cant go on without you ever..its like ill die..my heart will stop beating in revolt...what have you done to me bloody you dumbledore..."

Theres a lot of emotion in his eyes too as he says immediately – " I love you goddamit...and you know it's the same for me...I don't know how can I explain myself to you further...but its like....i can never tell u..as in you will never know how much I love you khushi..."

I nod – " I know...and it's the same for me...you know that right???"

He nods and grins – " carnage kisses love.."

I smile – " carnage kisses love..i will speak to you in like about my time 6am in the morning ok? Like your 930...because I want us to talk it out before you head for the game...you did say you plan to leave home by 1030 right???"

He nods – " yes...and ill wait...you know I will..."

I nod now and I bend forward and kiss the screen – " muah...sleep now..",and he smiles at me and i finally hang up.

Ok Then.

So now that I have reassured the Love of my Life.

I need to face that Bermuda Triangle Twist.

I take a deep breathe as I walk over to my study now and you know what do I take out.

MY HARRY POTTER BOOK.

IN WHICH I KNOW I NEED TO FIND WHAT I AM LOOKING FOR.

AND I CLOSE MY EYES.

AND I HOLD THE BOOK CLOSED IN MY HANDS.

AND I KEEP MY EYES CLOSED AND I PRAY TO GOD.

GOD PLEASEEEE.

GOD PLEASEEEEEEEEEE.

PLEASEEEE.

I AM GOING TO NOW FLIP OPEN THE BOOK RANDOMLY AND TREAT THIS AS A SIGN FROM YOU.

YOU KNOW WHAT MY HEART WANTS – AND ONLY MY MINDS THAT REASSURANCE ONE MORE TIME.

ONE MORE TIME.

AND BECAUSE I SAY LOVE IS MAGIC TO ME.

ARNAV'S LOVE IS MORE POWERFUL THAN DUMBLEDORE RIGHT???

SO PLEASEEEE.

YOU KNOW WHAT I WANT.

PLEASEEE GIVE IT TO ME.

I TAKE A DEEP BREATHE AND I FLIP OPEN THE BOOK.

AND I KEEP MY HAND ON BOTH THE SIDES OF THE PAGES AND I PRAY TO GOD THAT WHEN I OPEN MY EYES – MY EYES SHOULD FALL UPON THAT VERY POWERFUL QUOTE FROM DUMBLEDORE THAT I NEED TO READ IN THIS VERY MOMENT – THE QUOTE I KNOW I WILL FIND IN THIS BOOK.

I TAKE A DEEP BREATHE AS I OPEN MY EYES.

AND I LOOK AT THE RIGHT SIDE PAGE FIRST – BECAUSE MY HOODIE GUY IS THE RIGHT HANDED BATSMEN.

AND MY EYES ARE NOW FILLED WITH HAPPY TEARS AS I SEE THE EXACT QUOTE I WANTED TO READ.

THANK YOUUUUU GODDDDDDDDDDDD.

SO DAMM YOU BERMUDA TRIANGLE – YOU BELIEVE IN SIGNS – I JUST GOT MY SIGN TOO.

AND NOW I AM GOING TO CALL YOU AND TALK TO YOU ABOUT IT.

OH AND YES – THE QUOTE I JUST READ.

HAPPINESS CAN BE FOUND EVEN IN THE DARKEST OF TIMES, IF ONE ONLY REMEMBERS TO TURN ON THE LIGHT – ALBUS DUMBLEDORE

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Ananteshwar Das – is sitting in the airport lounge and sipping in his whiskey and reading his book side by side.

There was still time to boarding and he had come to the airport early to just relax and shill but he was uneasy.

Something inside was really feeling very uneasy.

And he closed his book as he remembered the tear stricken face of the innocent girl he had spoken to this evening – as he left her on the deserted park bench.

Did he do the right thing????

His mind told him that it did.

But his Heart told him – NO.

Anyways.

He was confused.

But he was going to do what he promised.

And that is why he had already shared his contact details with her on whatsapp, and he had reassured a while ago with a text that he would always text her about the take offs and arrivals about Arnav's flights.

And he was still on that line of thought when his phone buzzed.

It was Her.

How strange!!

Anyway he picked up on the second ring and he heard her calm voice come through – " hello sir....can I talk to you for maybe ten minutes..its important.."

He nods as he says – " sure Khushi..."

Her calm and composed voive comes through – " so sir...I know Arnav greatly respects you and looks up to you..he has told me this a million times that you are a very important figure in his life..."

He says honestly – " yes I know..and like I told you that I have a soft corner for him in my heart too that is why I was conflicted about this for so many days.."

Khushi – " I know Sir...but sir..i have been thinking about everything you just said...so sir...I wanted to discuss something with you..."

Coach – " yes Khushi...go on I am listening..."

Khushi – " so sir...I agree with you on the facts that you mentioned to me and as you know I love arnav more than anything in this world like there isn't anything in this world that I wouldn't do for him, and I know you are worried about our love being a distraction to his game..but sir...why must the world always look at Love like that?? when its so wonderful...sir look I cant explain to you in words all I can say is that the love me and arnav share..its like magic and I can steer this positively as in...I don't need to hurt Arnav for this...why use hate and hurt when I can use love..."

Ok, so now the Coach is really surprised as he asks – " what do you mean????"

Khushi – " sir...arnav loves me way too much...he has often told me that he can quit the games for there will come a time and age when he will have to anyway, but he can never quit on me..and so I am not going to quit on us...and sir...I know you are the coach of the Indian cricket team and you are worried about all those important things but sir don't you think it will be unfair to use arnavs emotions against him as like some sort of a pawn of a board game of chesss..??and what 11 months after sir....when you tell him?? What do you think will happen?? He will hate you for it and he might just also end up hating the game he so deeply loved...why do you have to make him choose like he cant have both???? I love him sir...I want to be able to convince you right now that I will be able to steer this positively as I can still be with him, we will be together always, and we anyway see each other in months like the last I saw him was for 21 hours after five and a half months...and that's not a criteria for us sir...its like I cant explain...we need each other..and if I push him away..i feel like he wont be able to play sir..i know...hes an emotional person...his game his love, his head everything is rooted with the heart no sir..and I cannot do this to him...."

Coach rubs his hand over his face is helplessness but something now is staring to click his heart– " what do you suggest??"

Khushi – " sir please believe me there isn't anything in this world that arnav wouldn't do for me...and I assure you that I will find a way of convincing him to stay out of Cape Town as in until the t20 starts and I will only see him when he is cape town by default and after the world cup is over...as in I assure you that he will not fly in and between to Cape Town in between matches...I will not be a distraction sir...I can steer this in a very positive direction..i love him..i know what cricket is to him...please let me help you positively....i mean we can work positively together no sir like in a win win...why does it have to be against the heart?????"

Coach takes a deep breathe – " to be honest I couldn't take out your tear stricken face out of my head too, I think I was impulsive too....you know Khushi cricket is so much more than just a game..."

Khushi sighs – " yes sir...who would know it better than me sir..."

Coach – " what do you mean beta?"

Khushi – " sir...I lost my entire family in the air crash from cape town to johanneusburg when they were coming to see the live cricket match between India and south Africa for the first time as in my little brother was so crazyyy...everyone around me is crazy so I understand what you mean when you say its more than just a sport...I know sir...and that's why I cant watch cricket match love on tv yet or sit on a plane...but I am working on it sir...and for arnav I will be able to conquer all my fears..i will do it..."

Coach is now overwhelemed as he says – " im sorry Khushi..i didn't know...its overwhelming and challenging you know to be in my position and sometimes the mind overtakes...",and he paused – " ok...lets work towards this positively...you assure that you will not let this be a distraction but like a pillar of strength????"

Khushi – " yes sir...and all you want is for him to not come to Cape Town no until then..that I can manage....you don't have any problem with us being connected virtually like we have been all these months...sir...he has been performing brilliantly..."

Coach – " I agree with you on that, and that is why I say that there is no other candidate better than him for captaincy..."

Khushi – " sir lets take one step at a time...please...whenever you want Arnav to see things your way maybe drop me a hint...I will see if I can talk to him too from my end..positively...",and she paused as she spoke – " and sir....i never lie to Arnav..like never...I never hide anything from him ever...but..i know he respects you so much and I don't want your respect level to go down in his eyes and that is why I will never tell him about our conversation earlier this night...I will handle things differently from my end...he will never know that you came to see me from me..and I would advise you the same...because I know at the end of the day you are his well wisher and his guru...you would never wish him any ill in your heart...right sir???"

Coach sighs – " yes khushi....",and he pauses – " thank you khushi..for making this call to me..its just made me realise...that age doesn't have anything to do with wisdom...I think you just saved me from a massive blunder..and you really are too wise for your age..."

Khushi – ' life is the best teacher no Sir...",and she paused – " and sir...you have the matchs tomorrow..i wish you all the very best...may the bat always be held high..bye sir.."

"Bye khushi..",he hangs up.

Ananteshwar Das had never been clean bowled this way in this Life by that kind of conviction in ones Love – especially in this day and age when the youth doesn't have the patience and grit for relationships anymore.

And it was his bad that he thought – this was one such casual relationship – that would disappear with the blow of the harsh winds and in his heart – he was very happily surprised that – this Girl hadn't given up.

ASR – My Boy – Youv got an excellent Captain for the Ship of your Heart.

His intuition now told him that he had read it wrong on the surface.

There was so much more than what met His Eye!

And he wasn't a bad person – just in between those shades of Grey – when you get caught up between the head and heart!

But his Gut was dominating his Head now.

And maybe it was right

This girl would never let any aspect of ASR's life sink in.

She would adjust the sails around accordingly maybe – but continue sailing anyway.

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Arnav's POV

9:20 AM

OK.

SO I HAVE BEEN KIND OF FREAKING OUT BIG TIME.

BECAUSE – SOMETHINGS UP WITH MY SUNSHINE AND I DON'T KNOW ABOUT IT YET.

GODAAMIT.

AND I KNOW SHE IS ABOUT TO CALL ME IN LIKE TEN MINUTES , BUT I CANT WAIT.

ITS LIKE I AM PACING FREAKING IMPATIENTLY IN MY ROOM.

I AM SO FREAKING NERVOUS.

DID SOMEONE DO SOMETHING HURT HER????

DID SOMETHING HAPPEN TO HER LIKE HEALTH WISE?????????????

GODAAMIT.

IF SOMETHING EVER HAPPENED TO HER – I WOULD DIE!

YEAH.

THAT'S ABOUT IT.

ITS CRAZY.

BUT THAT'S HOW DEEPLY I LOVE HER GUYS.

ITS FREAKING INTENSE ON ANOTHER LEVEL.

LIKE RIGHT NOW.

I LITERAALY FEEL LIKE A MODERN DAY ROMEO MYSELF.

AND SOMETHING IS SERIOUSLY WRONG WITH HER.

AS IN – I KNOW IT.

I KNOW IT IN MY FREAKING GUT!

AS IN – SOMETHING VERY DRASTIC MUST HAVE HAPPENED TO HER FOR HER TO NOT TEXT ME LIKE SHE USUALLY DOES.

SHE LOOKED SO WEARY AND WORN LAST NIGHT ON THAT VIDEO CALL.

IT WAS LIKE MY HEART HAD BROKEN INTO A MILLION PIECES WHEN HER FACE FIRST FILLED MY SCREEN.

GODDAMMIT SUNSHINE.

CALL DAMMIT.

I pick up my phone.

Its 925 am.

FIVE FREAKING MORE MINUTES.

Theres a knock on my door and I say immediately – " come in"

I could use the distraction right now.

Its Mom.

She walks in and she pulls me into an instant hug as she asks – " all ok son ?i mean have you spoken to khushi yet??"

Ok.

So after I had woken up this morning – I had obviously talked to Mom.

Like I said.

She is my first best friend.

And I had discussed with her as in that I knew something was bothering Khushi and it was a major development for her to look so weary on the call and that how it was making me so nervous.

And Mom had helped me calm my nerves as she told me to just have faith and trust in my heart and gut.

It had helped ofcourse.

She knew everything about Khushi – as in I tell her everything so its like she told me – that even she was sure in her heart that something major must have happened for at her end and even in her head she was like just have faith and trust khushi on this – if she asked this off you.

I hug mom again as I say – " five minutes...shes about to call me..."

Mom – " breakfast beta???"

I sigh as I brush my hand over my face – ' no...after...as in...let me talk to her first Mom, my appetites dead with worry..."

Mom nods – " come find me ok after you'v spoken...and have faith..ok??"

I nod and she kisses my forhead and she leaves.

And right then my phone Buzzes and its Sunshine.

Thank God.

Finally.

I swipe up and I see her smiling face now fill up the screen as she says – " my hooddieeee guyyyyyyyyy....goodmorning...."

OKKKKKKK.

GUYS.

THANK YOU GOD.

I CAN BREATHE NOW.

AND SHE IS WEARING A MUSTARD TANK TOP.

DAMMIT.

I say on reflex – " Khushi...you werent wearing this mustard tank top when you slept..."

She grins – " yes yes..i know...I changed into mustard specially like five minutes ago..before I wanted to get on this call with you love..."

I grin now.

Ok her Energy Is All Happy Now.

And I see her walk to her kitchennete as she says – " I am about to make us some coffee hoodie guy..totally keeping some for you as usual..."

I grin as I get a glimpse of her looking so adorable in those mustard shorts too and I say – " you damm you...you wore this mustard combination on purpose...you have no ideaaa how bad I am going to fine you over Xmas..."

She grins as she take s a bite of buiscuit and gives me a mischevious wink.

I grin as I see her now pick up her coffee cup and walk to the little table and she sips her coffee as she says with a smile – ' goshhhh Arnav..."

My eyes lock with hers and I know we are about to start talking now about all that stormy stuff she was hinting to me about last night, and I say softly – " go on...tell me..."

She takes a deep breathe and a couple of coffee sips as she keeps her cup to the side as she says , her eyes have now welled up – " something happened on my side of the world yesterday night arnav...and..i was just manuevering my way around it because I didn't want to worry you...but everything is ok now..."

I say immediately – " khushi...pleaseee fast...get to it fast dammit..."

She takes a deep breathe and she smiles – " well the good news first – whatever happened made me realise that I love you so so freaking deeply...and in that context – its like I am that titanic that's happily sunk completely into the waters of the Atlantic Ocean..to never resurface again..i love you so goddamit much...I just want you to know that first..."

I THINK MY EYES HAVE WELLED UP.

THIS GIRLL.

I NOD.

She smiles – " what my hoodie guy is speechless now????"

I NOD.

AND I GESTURE HER TO GO ON.

She takes a deep breathe – "but in another context...its like this titanic was kind of about to be hitting the iceberg or get up in the whirlpool of Bermuda Triangle...and in the process of steering my ship around in order to save it...its like I had a mini panic attack episode Love...."

My eyes widen with worryyyyyyy – " whattttttttttttttttttt?????????????are you freaking ok now???? What happened?????im coming to you..now..."

She takes a deep breathe – " please calm down..and sit and listen to me...please....this is going to get really difficult for me to talk to you if you are going to get worked up like this love.."

OK.

SO YOU KNOW WHAT.

SHE IS THE BLOODY FREAKING WIZARD.

I say by gestureing both my hands in mid air – " ok fine...tell me..i will be calm...are you ok???"

She nods – " yes I am...its like Zara, Zain and Asher were with me while I had the episode Arnav..and they really saw me through it..."

I say immediately on reflex – " I need to be able to thank them Sunshine..."

Khushi smiles – " yes I will...as in..i have to go to the big bus office parking lot to pick up my car..as in I left it there, zain and zara drove me back home love...and..",and she paused as she added softly looking into my eyes – " arnav...I think asher is in love with me.."

WELL.

NOT A SURPIRSE TO ME.

I KIND OF SAW THAT COMING.

I sigh as I ask – " well to be honest to you Sunshine, I kind off saw that coming...you are magical and priceless...but what makes you think so ..i mean did he say it to you??? I don't think so??as in he is kind of a ethical moral person..i mean that's what I feel from all that I have heard from you...so if he told you it would be like was he trying to cross the line or something???"

She sighs – "nooooo he would never..as in like I tell you – he is a very ethical person.. well to be honest to you, its like when I was having that meltdown, it was like it was on his face...and not just that...i...so before the meltdown – I was going a little crazy ok as in I downed four and a half tequila shots back to back and he tried to stop me too and then ofcourse he knew I wouldn't listen to him so he fetched Zara and Zain"

I say on reflex – " whooooaaaaaaa...you gotta tell me what triggered that please???"

She paused as she spoke – well I will get to that but can we finish talking about his first as in ashers thing?"

I nod.

She took a deep breathe – " so like I said when I was having that meltdown it was like on his face ok...like he filled out ten glasses of water for me , handed me tissues, held Zara bandage my hand.."

My eyes widen now – " you hurt yourself???"

She sighed – " well it was like the glass of water cracked in my hand when I banged it on the table...",and she brings up her bandaged hand to me as she says – " I hid it on video call from you last night...sorry...I am fine now...."

I groan as I rub my face – " sunshine...you cant do this to me ya...and you cannot not tell me about this as and when it happened.."

Khushi – " please hoodie guy..please just listen first..."

I nod.

Khushi – " so when I was having that meltdown as in he suggested as in offered to something like a solution for me in that moment in that meltdown which he only would have offered because he feels something deep...I mean...I sensed it...I cant really explain moree as in..you understand don't you????"

I nod and I sigh – " yeah I get it Khushi..."

Khushi sighs – " so how do you feel about this hoodie guy as in?? I mean ideally if you say that this makes u uncomfortable...I will stop seeing Zara and Zain..because he is a part of their lives and due to this common angle – its natural for me to cross paths with him right???"

I say on reflex – " Khushi..no...I know Zara is like a sister to you and Zain is like a brother figure...I would never...I trust you...as in I trust you more than anything in the world...its like I know asher has his feelings for you and stuff..but I know that your heart beats for me so its ok...and I am very secured in our relationship.."

Her eyes well up a little as she says – " thank you and know that I would never break your trust like never...I would never..."

I nod – " khushi I know....my heart knows...you would never...that's how deep I trust you ok?? I know you will never even think about any one else ever..just like it's the same for me..."

Two Happy Tears fall off her eyes as she wipes them – " yes yes...you know its just you for me right..either you or I am going to age and live like Professor McGonagall all my life.."

I ask immediately – " now which harry potter character is this ya??"

She smiles – "she is like this savage lady professor ok she fell in love with a muggle a non magical person from a different world...and somehow it didn't work out ok..and she stayed a spinster all her life...",and finishes with a chuckle through her tear.

I grin on reflex – " I have no plans to let you remain a spinster all your Life Khushi and you know that..."

She nods – " ok so you are comfortable with this whole Asher situation???"

I nod – " totally...",and I admit – " look honestly its like to tell you the truth it does frustrate me a little as I get a little jealous and stuff but you know I have figured out a way to deal with that..."

She asks immediately – " and what is that????"

I grin – " I call him the tricky bouncer right??so its like I imagine every tough ball coming my way on the pitch to have his face in it and that kind of makes me smash it into the stands...its like I have to keep uppercutting this bloody tricky bouncer right..."

She grins now and winks – " okkk that's a good catharsis you'v planned hoodie guy for all that jealousy...keep going then...you know like smash all those tricky bouncers with uppercuts like you always do??"

I grin – " yes I will...",and I pause as I say – " okkk now can you tell me the trigger as to what happened and that eureka solution..."

She nods and takes a deep breathe – " love...yesterday in one of my uber pick ups again by chance coincidentally it was Dr Priya ok??? And we got talking ok again?? And I told her all about how I was about to drive to the airport and stuff because the guy I loved was with me etc...and then you know what she was like you know what cmon show me..drive me to the airport and so she hopped into my front seat.."

And i ask on reflex – " is that what triggered your panic attack?? The drive to the airport??"

She nods – " yes love...it was like I couldn't do it...as in I drove her there ofcourse...but while I was doing it...its like I couldn't cope up..and it traumatised me so much that I got a little nose bleed.."

WHATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT??????????????

I say immediately – " whattttttttttttt???????????dammit khushi...how ?? its like you pulled through it so well the last time..."

She sighed – " because you were with me Love...that's why...I could...",and she paused as she spoke – " so anyway it wasn't major ok...she had me park the car to the side and stuff ok like and then we got talking...shes like..you know what Khushi...you have to do this for yourself...come seek help..some anxiety medicines will help..."

I say immediately – " bullshit...you don't need any medication...you are doing well.."

She nods – " well she says it will help me speed up things and then shes like If I could do it by you by my side means that the love I feel for you is really powerful..."

OK.MY EYES HAVE WELLED UP AGAIN.

I gesture her to go on,

She sighs – " and then she said you don't want medications there is another solution – use all this love you feel for this man as a challenege as in she was like tell yourself that you will only talk to him again when youv conquered your fears..you know like use all this love you feel for him use it like a push to heal yourself.."

My eyes widen as I say – " what the hell???who talks like that????"

She sighs – " counsellors do talk like this Arnav as in they keep mentioning about you know self heal and stuff...its like I understood what she meant...",and she paused – " anyway so just that freaking thought that what if one day because of all these traumas that I have to conquer – just what if I kind of have to take on that challenge – that kind of triggered my panic attack further ok?? By the time I reached the mixer it was like in my head my mind had processed that thought of a possibility of probably putting a pause in between us for a while just in case I want to take on that challenge and my heart went all revolting on me ok...it was like no wayyyyy..i cant do this...I cant...so I was like ok so no point processing this further...because its like I love you so much I cant ever stop talking to you – id rather die I mean my heart will stop anyway.."

I AM FREAKING OVERWHELMED WITH SO MUCH EMOTION.

I sigh – " Sunshine...."

She gestures me to let her carry on and I nod – " and you know so when I was in the shower I had a little eureka moment...ok Arnav??? Its like I have to work on these fears Arnav...for you I have to conquer them..how will ever be able to sit on the plane otherwise..."

I sigh – " and you will be able to Khushi...ill be with you the first time around you try..."

She smiles – " I know...",and she pauses as she asks softly – " but what if I want to surprise you sometime around??"

I smile – " ok so whats your eureka moment??"

She grins – " well so I had this thought in my head ok..that what if I work out a middle ground..and I talked to her after we hung up on the video call and she totally said I could go ahead with it.."

I ask – " okkk so what is this middle ground..."

She sighs – " look into my eyes...this is the toughest part..."

I nod – " ok tell me...."

She sighs – " I told her that I love you way too much to not talk to you..its like so powerful right our love...and anyway by default we have all this distance in between of us..what if I just steer to a middle ground as in what if I don't physically see you in real time for a while..."

I narrow my eyes at her – " you mean like we don't meet each other in real time as in physically meet each other????"

She nods – " as in...look this is a discussion ok hear me out...im not making any decision for us..because we have to make that together...as in im discussing with you..."

THIS GIRLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.

I nod as I say – " go on..."

She takes a deep breathe – " that what if I can really self help myself by channelizing all this love that I feel for you...I mean you know not seeing in real time for a particular timeline is like shit difficult for me too right?????"

I nod.

I know what she means .

This is equally difficult for the both of us.

She goes on – " Love...I tell you all the time...you are my magic and its not just in a joke anymore...the only thing that can heal all my fears is this love I have for you in my heart...dr Priya said something like continue being like in virtual connect if you love him so much but don't meet him in real time as in physical time and how much ever that pains you write about it as in like a letter to you and decide to show it to you when we meet for real – you know like a writing form of catharsis...",and she paused as she buried her head in her hands and she says – " I know you must think youv fallen in love with a crazyyy girllll..."

I sigh but I admit honestly – " shut up khushi...I know this sounds twisted but you know what I understand...its like grieving and getting out of traumas and fears its like to each their own...but...this is going to be shit difficult love.."

She picks her head up now and her eyes are welled up – " I knowww....you know what lets forget about it...I will go with the other option..."

I ask on reflex – " whats the other option???"

She says – " according to Dr Priya ..i need to start with counselling again...as in and ofcourse some medications...."

I groannnnnnn.

WHAT THE HELL YA.

I DON'T FREAKING WANT HER TO TAKE ALL THOSE MEDS.

ITS LIKE I KNOW SHES IN THAT GREY AREA WHERE WITH JUST A LITTLE BIT OF SUPPORT SHE WILL COME OUT OF IT ALL.

SHE DOESN'T NEED TO SHIFT TO MEDS – BECAUSE I KNOW ALL THESE THINGS HAVE NEGATIVE SIDE AFFECTS TOO.

Im still thinking when she says – " love...I want to overcome my fears for you at any cost...I need to be able to do this...for myself too...",and she pauses as she asks me softly – "so what do you think I should do, I mean I know the first option is very difficult...its not going to be easy not seeing each other for that particular timeline..."

I ask on reflex – " how much is that timeline..."

She sighs – " Dr Priya says maybe 9 months to a year without medications...as in if I work on this emotionally side by side...without any counsellors help and medicines just by myself...maybe I can get to this...Arnav..i was thinking in my head giving myself a timeline around my next bday in novemeber...as in you will be done with your World Cup tour also by then and you will be in South Africa too....by then...I definetly want to keep my bday as the target..",and she pauses as she now looks into my eyes – " can we do this love??? Not see each other in real time as in physically??? I know what I am asking for is very difficult but its like you are so busy yourself from 6th of jan...time will fly love...well technically we will miss out our xmas time that we were planning....thats all....and I know we were so excited about it but...look lets decide this together..please...???"

I take a deep breathe.

Ok.

I know.

What she is asking me is really difficult.

LIKE NOT SEERING HER PHYSICALLY AT ALL FOR THE NEXT BLOODY 11 MONTHS AND NOT BEING ABLE TO TOUCH HER, HOLD HER, KISS HER.

BUTT.

MY LOVE FOR HER IS WAY DEEPER.

ITS LIKE THE DESIRE FOR THE FORMER IS BECAUSE OF THE ROOTS OF THE LOVE I FEEL IN MY HEART AND

FOR ME.

THAT WAS HOW IT ALL STARTED ANYWAY.

I WAS IN LOVE WITH HER EVEN WHEN I HADNT EVEN KISSED HER.

SO ACTUALLY .

THIS IS GOING TO BE DIFFICULT.

BUT.

NOT IMPOSSIBLE.

I COULD DO THIS FOR HER.

LIKE I ALWAYS SAY

ITS LIKE THERE WASN'T ANYTHING IN THIS WORLD I WOULDN'T DO FOR HER.

THIS WAS JUST A TEST FOR OUR LOVE MAYBE.

LIKE A LITTLE PASSING STORM.

WELL I LOVED HER DIDN'T I???

WHAT KIND OF A MAN WOULD I BE TO NOT SUPPORT THE ONE I LOVE WHEN SHE NEEDED IT THE MOST??????????????

I KNOW SHE NEEDS TO DO THIS FOR HERSELF.

I SIP ON MY GLASS ON WATER AS I LOOK AT HER INTENTLY

AND SHE IS LOOKING AT ME NERVOUSLY WAITING FOR ME TO SAY SOMETHING.

I LOVE YOU SUNSHINE.

THERE ISNT ANYTHING THAT I WOULDN'T DO FOR YOU!

...............

KHUSHI'S POV

OK THEN Guys.

So I am very nervous as I am waiting for him to answer.

I know this is still some kind of a Mind Game I had to conjure up.

Its still like a White Lie.

But no one is getting hurt from this and I think what I just told him will help me too,

As in I was going to work on this emotionally too.

For Real.

But yes I know.

I mean but for him – towards him - its still is a twist for us but with Love.

Not a TWIST with Hurt.

Its like I had to come up with something to atleast keep my word to Coach as well, because I know what his issue is – its Arnavs physical abscense from meetings, matches etc.

Now I am saying.

Just give me My Hoodie Guy.

My virtual Hoodie Guy.

This is how it started for us too right.

Its always been that way.

All I need is Him Guys.

I can postpone seeing him for 11 months.

But I still need to be Connected to him.

ITS THIS FREAKING CONNECTION THAT I NEED TO BE ABLE TO BREATHE NOW.

AND I STILL HAVE TO TALK TO HIM ABOUT TWO MORE THINGS THOUGH.

MOST IMPORTANT.

I get up from the table and drink two glasses of water myself and hes still looking at me intently silently on the video call and just as I am about finish that last sip , his voice comes through – " lets do this...Love..lets do this..as in...im ok with the first option...lets meet in real time on your bday next November...just 11 months...no worries...as long as you are with me like this as is as we always have been..i am ok...this is what I need more Khushi...I need this bloody connection in between us to breathe..."

My eyes well up.

Godaamit.

This was such a risk I had to take.

It was like my heart guided me that what if I twist this around and make this about myself as in my fears and traumas – which are true anyway??

I knew it he loved me way too much like he always says – there wasn't anything in this world he wouldn't do for me.

I FELT HE WOULD AGREE TO THIS – BECAUSE OF ALL THAT POWERFUL LOVE HE FEELS FOR ME.

Just like theres anything in this world I wouldn't do for him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I AM TELLING YOU GUYS.

WE ARE MODERN DAY ROMEO JULIET.

Happy tears fall off my eyes now as I say – " thank you love...thank you so muchhhhhh....we can do this...I know as in...we will be ok..."

He smiles now – " ofcourse we will be ok...there isn't anything that we cannot tackle together Khushi...as long as we are together..."

I grin and nod – " as long as we are together..."

OK.THEN.

Bloody You Dumblledoree YOU.

Now it's the Time to Drive you Nuts with Magic.

I sit on my chair back and I tie up my hair in the ponytail he loves and he groans – " don't sunshine...sweet torture..."

I grin as I give him a wink – " wait...",and I ask opening my laptop now – " do you have your laptop with you????"

He nods – " yes..."

I say imeediately with a grin – " open your email Love...as in I will need you to check it as I tell you..."

He nods – " okkk now what is your crazy head coming up with Love??"

I grin - "you know after I get my degree what's the only one dream left for me Arnav the one I am working for???"

I say – " your daddys restaurant...I know its your dream to buy that back..."

She smiles now and wipes a lone tear from her other eye – " yes and from sometime I have been thinking that I can continue saving up on funds from whereever I am working post my Bday in November..and once I have the funds I will buy it back but not physically run it myself as in I will give it to Rahul and uncle to take care off...so that...I can make that shift for you by then as in that deadline I just told you about...why I also want to get to it by then is that I want to be able to get on a plane with you by then and come to India with you Love..."

HIS EYES ARE FREAKING GIVING HIM AWAY.

HE IS REALLY MOVED.

WAIT

WAIT.

I now pick up the small box from behind the table, and I adjust the phone against the books stacked on my table and he is looking at me speechless.

Wait.

I am going to make you more speechless.

And I am doing this because I want this for us – and also a way of securing things further for us both in our Hearts while we Head on the Road Ahead.

FREAKING BOLD OF ME I KNOW.

BUT.

GUYS.

WHAT CAN I SAY.

INVENTION IS THE MOTHER OF ALL NECESSITY.

HES FREAKING CAST SUCH A POWERFUL SPELL OF HIS MAGIC OVER ME.

THIS IS WHAT I NEED TO DO FOR US.

SO I SHALL MAKE THE FIRST MOVE.

AS IN YOU ALL ALREADY KNOW I AM CRAZY IN MY HEAD ANYWAY.

I shift my chair aside and I get on my one knee..and I see his eyes widen on the videocall screen and I open the small ring box in which theres a coffee bean from the shop below and I say, my very own eyes wet – " I know we are very serious about each other love..and I know this is it for both of us...and that is why I am going down on my knee for you to tell you wholeheartedly today that I want to marry you Arnav...I really want to..and in this ring box is a coffee bean that I want to propose you with as in..a promise of a lifetime...I want us to be together forever my hoodie guy...a coffee made from this type of coffee bean was what I offered you to the first time when you were still in that hoodie and walked into chai and coffee for the very first time...you already know I cant live without you...and I want to propose this to you that by the end of your world cup tour and by the end of that timeline in my head in tackling all these fears – I want to marry you...do you want to marry me too????????"

.........................................

Arnav's POV

(Lets rewind that lats bit from Arnav's Pov too)

Shes got something on her mind.

Some Crazy stuff.

I switch on my laptop anyway.

And then when I tell her about that dream of hers she says softly - " yes and from sometime I have been thinking that I can continue saving up on funds from whereever I am working post my Bday in November..and once I have the funds I will buy it back but not physically run it myself as in I will give it to Rahul and uncle to take care off...so that...I can make that shift for you by then as in that deadline I just told you about...why I also want to get to it by then is that I want to be able to get on a plane with you by then and come to India with you Love..."

WAITTTTTTTTTTTT.

OKKKKKKKKK.

SO THIS WAS LIKE AN UNDERSTOOD UNSAID FACT IN BETWEEN OF US.

AS IN - IN OUR HEARTS WE KNEW.

BUT I DIDN'T SAY IT TO HER YET BECAUSE I WAS LIKE I WANTED HER TO COME AROUND TO IT BY HERSELF – I WOULD NEVER PUSH HER INTO ANYTHING THAT WOULD MAKE HER UNCOMFORTABLE.

AND BUT SHES SAYING IT OUT LOUD TO ME AND ITS MADE ME VERY EMOTIONAL.

ITS MOVED ME.

And I am looking at her speechless still as in she has a smile on her face.

Shes going to do something I know.

But What???????????/

And right then I see her push the chair aside and she gets on her one knee and I am sure my eyes have widened to a different size as in as big as the size of my maroon cricket ball and I see her open the ring box that has Coffee Beans in it and her eyes are wet with all this emotion as she says - " I know we are very serious about each other love..and I know this is it for both of us...and that is why I am going down on my knee for you to tell you wholeheartedly today that I want to marry you Arnav...I really want to..and in this ring box is a coffee bean that I want to propose you with as in..a promise of a lifetime...I want us to be together forever my hoodie guy...a coffee made from this type of coffee bean was what I offered you to the first time when you were still in that hoodie and walked into chai and coffee for the very first time...and so what can be better than this for us...you already know I cant live without you...and I want to propose this to you that by the end of your world cup tour and by the end of that timeline in my head in tackling all these fears – I want to marry you...do you want to marry me too????????"

WHATTTTTTTTTTTT THE FREAKING HELLLLLLLLLLLL??????

DID MY SUNSHINE GET DOWN ON ONE KNEE AND PROPOSE ME WITH A COFFEE BEAN ON A VIDEO CALL – RIGHT AFTER WE DECIDE THAT WE WONT MEET IN REAL TIME FOR 11 MONTHS????????????

CRAZYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

FREAKINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG CRAZYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY THIS GIRL IS.

AND I AM FREAKING CRAZY AND NUTS ABOUT HER ON ANOTHER LEVEL

YESSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!DAMMIT YES OFCOURSE I WILL MARRY YOU LOVE – I CANT BELIEVE YOU FREAKING BEAT ME TO IT.

And right then I hear her voice and a chuckle – " well love your eyes are giving you away...but you gotta get your voice box to answer me hoodie guy...I am still on my knee...."

I get up from my seat now and I pace around grinning like an idiot speechlessly and I look into the phone as I sayyyy excited like a stupid nut – " bloody yes...you know that's a bloody yes...I cant believe you beat me to this dammit....are you freaking crazy?????????you propose me on a video call right after you tell me that I am going to have to wait 11 months to seal this with a carnage kiss....khushi yaaaaaaaa............."

She grins as she says – " I know right....i know I am crazy but you already know that hoodie guy....i love you so muchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh......what can I do...its like this captain has to come around with stronger sails...to help me steer my ship through these tricky waters of 11 months in between of us...it wont be easy...but love...I want us to be secured in our hearts in every way...I am yours and you are mine.....and...",and she paused and she put a finger on her cheek in one cute adorable gesture.

I grin happily and I ask – " and I know you are now about to say that lets wait to tell your side of the people about us until your bday in November..as in real time when we see each other.."

She grins – " I knowww....cmon I have kept this as a secret for so long love...I have to tell them like in your real time presence..."

I grin – " ok no worries...but..",and I wink – " but my side everyone knows about us already..."

Her eyes widen – " what???????????as in everyone???"

I grin – " yes everyone as in not just anjali...mom, dad, and dadi...they all know how crazy I am bout you...infact just last night mom was telling me that the next party she throws in the house will be for us..."

Her eyes widen in surprise – " reallyyyyyyyyyyyyyy???????????they are ok with me?????"

I grin – " ofcourse Sunshine..they cant wait to meet you...",and I paused as I saw her eyes well up – " and I want them to meet you in real time too...but you know mom and Anjali they will atleast want to talk to you over phone...so whenever you are comfortable love.."

She smiles and nods – " okkk yes....",and she takes a deep sigh – " goddamit Arnav..i am so freaking happy now...you have no idea what I went through last night...I am at peace now..."

I grin as I say – " me too Love...me too..."

And she says – " okkkk soooo I know its about to be time for you to leave for the hotel to be with the team....carry on hoodie guy...lets text and call later then???"

I nod.

She winks at me – " carnage kisses love..."

I grin – " carnage kisses..."

And we Hang up.

AND I CANT FREAKING BELIEVE WHAT HAS HAPPENED.

I AM JUST RUNNING OUT MY ROOM WHEN I BUMP INTO MOM AND ANJALI AND THE CONCERNED LOOK ON THEIR FACES GETS CONVERTED INTO A HAPPY ONE AND I PULL THEM BOTH INTO A GROUP HUG.

Mom hugs me as she asks – " ohhkk so all ok with Khushi then????????"

Anjali – " bhai what happened?????????"

I grin as I pull back and I say – " she freaking proposed to me on a video call with a coffee bean in a ring box...mom..."

Mom and Anjali hug me immediately and Mom kisses my forhead – " whattt??? That's so amazing son...what happened..."

Anjali – " bhai tell us everything...."

I grin as I say excitedly – " ok ok...sit...I have to leave for the hotel but I will give you a brief summary...a lot of developments as in she asked me to marry her..i cant believe I let her beat me too it...and we are still keeping this a secret, and I am not going to see her in real time for 11 months..but....i can do this for her..."

Mom looks at me excited – " wait wait...whatttt...what start from the top..."

And I grin and I do.

I give them a brief of everything and Khushi's reasons and her wish to want to deal with all those fears and traumas.

Once I finish Mom hugs me immediately – " god son, I am so proud of you both....your love shines...it always will..."

Anjali hugs me too – " I am so happy for you Bhai...",and she grins as she looks at the time on the clock on the wall – " bhai...you need to leave now in order to get to the hotel on time before the team starts to leave for the stadium....",and she winks at mom as she says folding her hands across the chest – " poor Bangladeshi bowlers..my brother is going to unleash crazy havoc with their balls today...."

I grin as I pick up my cricketing kit and mom shuffs a egg roll wrapped in my hand to eat on the way and I wink at them both – " Not Havoc guys...Carnage...Absolute Massive Carnage is what this bat is going to fire now and for the next bloody 11 months too..."

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Khushi's POV

11:20 PM

I get off the bus stop and I am now grinning , jumping and hopping to my hoodie guys favourite music playlist as I am walking towards the Big Bus Office.

I have called Asher, Zara and Zain to Zains cabin so that I can tell them about my crazy rollercoaster solution to that twist from last night.

I haven't told them anything yet.

I mean I wanted to tell them face to face.

And I have to thank them too.

And right then my phone beeps.

Its my Hoodie Guy ofcourse.

Him : Sunshine...its almost 3pm now Toss time for the ODI – locking up the phone in the locker now for the next eight hours.I will text you love after as soon as I am free.

I grin as I reply : ok love...just enjoy yourself out there and it is going to be a good game anyway.and its Sunday today love so I will be doing Uber now.as in after I talk to Zain,Zara and Asher.

Him : Khushi you just had a panic attack yesterday.please rest...ok ok..i know you don't like to be home on Sundays.ok but take care...and keep texting me...love you Sunshine.

Me : ofcourse Arnav..as always.

Him : okkk bbye now. Now let your hoodie guy go and unleash some massive carnage at the Firoz Shah Kotla.

Me : ahaaaa...Cricketing Carnage...love..i keep telling that you are one magician..My dumbledore- for you I will always on the light to find that happiness no matter how dark the room is.Always.

Him : you just freaking hit wicketed my heart all over freaking again – Love.

Me : I know.Now goooooo...play...always hold that bat High love..always.

Him : always..

I grin and I now walk in happily to the Big Bus's empty office.

And I take the elevtor up to the 7th floor.

Goddamit.

Just last night when I was taking this elevator up – it felt like the world had crashed.

I do a happy dance with my Hands.

I am a freaking awesome pilot and sailor.

Bring on all the Freaking Bermuda Triangles in all off Planet Earth.

Hoodie Guy and Uber Girl are not going to let their Ship SINK.

EVER.

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So the thing which Asher mentioned last night about Love.

That Love does crazy things to you.

It drives you nuts and insane.

It makes you do stupid blunders – Happily.

And that its only Love that has that magical power to actually make you believe – that the other persons happiness is more important than your own.

Hes just discovered that every bit of that is True as he cant stop grinning to himself as he , Zain and Zara listen with pure joy on their face – as Khushi narrates to them the most 'loving' twist she had come up with in order to navigate this tricky situation with her Hoodie Guy.

Its like Uptil he saw her enter this room – he couldn't even get himself to Smile.

And Now as he sees her So Happy and Grinning – He feels like He can smile again.

Weird.

So weird.

But Nice Too.

Khushi is now jumping and clapping her hands in glee as she says – " Zara...I switched on the light....i freaking switched on the light you know how like dumbledore says you can find happiness in the darkest of the times only if you remember to turn on the light...I switched on the light....and I told you guys...he loves me so much....for my sake...he agreed to everything as in I knew it if I twist this around to myself...hed do it in a drop of a hat...I mean I twisted things but like I didn't use hurt I used Love Zara..and I spoke to his guru too before..and he agreed to this way out too..."

Zara hugs Khushi and she says kissing her forhead – " you are freaking magic yourself...I cant believe this..."

Zain grins – " I tell you...your head is bloody brilliant...it can do anything..."

Asher winks at Khushi as he says – " I know right Zain and this crazy girl wont come and give us advises on our financial investments...khushi seriously...I think you should consider this for real...you see things differently...you see the world differently...sure their some loophole in trade and stock markets that we cant see...but you can..."

Khushi smiles as she now walks up to Asher and she says softly – " thank you for what ever you offered to do last night..as in I knew it right then I would never use it but still...I know you are so strong on your ethics and morals and still u were ok to look like the bad one in there...Asher...",and she pauses as she says with a smile – " thank you..and I will advise you on your investments..all my life..but for free...no fees ok..for sure..."

Asher grins and Nods.

And right then Khushi's phone Buzzes and she picks it out – " ok so hoodie guy is not available for the next 8 hours who is calling me on a Sunday then...",and she pauses – " oh its that donkey Rahul...",and she says to asher, zain and Zara – " you guys have to meet them...soon ok??"

Zara and Zain and Asher grin – " sure..."

Khushi gestures to them that she gotta take the call and she chirps – " yes donkey please don't tell me you are troubling diyaaaa too much because the..m...",and she pauses as she hears the news of what is being told to her over the phone.

AND SHE FEELS LIKE THE GROUND HAS SHAKEN BENATH HER FEET AGAIN.

AND SHE SITS DOWN ON THE FLOOR WITH A THUD AND TEARS START TO ROLL DOWN HER EYES.

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Khushi's POV

WHAT JUST FREAKING HAPPENED?????????

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

THIS CANT BE FREAKING TRUEEEEEEE.

I HEAR WHAT RAHUL IS SAYING ON THE OTHER END AND I CANT STOP CRYING.

WHAT DOES GOD WANT FROM ME??????????????

WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

JUST WHEN EVERYTHING IS PERFECT.

WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

I DODGE ONE STORM AND ANOTHER COMES.

Asher , Zain and Zara are by my side immediately as Zara asks – " Khushi????"

I say now trembling into the phone – " Rahul...are you sure????sure????really sure?????its all burned to ashes?????????????

I hear what he says on the other end and I say – " I will try to be there..i will be there..."

And I hang up and Zain asks immediately – " what happned khushi?????"

I look at the three of them dazed as I say – " my fathers restaurant...there was a fire in the kitchen an hour ago...an accidental fire...they managed to evaculate all the staff that was prepping for lunch before opening time but its burnt down...the fire raged out of control and the damage was done before the firemen could control it...everythings burned...my daddys resturant...my only dream....i wanted to buy it back for him....i was saving for it...working towards it....its burned..."

I look at them – " please take me there...please...I cant drive right now...I cant..."

I AM STARTING TO SHAKE AGAIN.

Zara – " khushi you want to talk to hoodie guy????"

I say immediately – " noooooooooooo.....not right now..he is busy for the next 8 hours I cannot disturb him....i will talk to him later..please...just take me there..."

They nod and I walk out with them.

WHAT JUST HAPPENED TO ME??????????????

JUSTTTTTTTTTTTTTT WHAT HAPPENED TO ME??????

I am starting to shake in Zara's arms again as she gets me into the backseat of the car.

AND I AM DAZED.

AND I AM SHOCKED.

WHY DID THIS HAPPEN TO ME??????????

MY DADDY'S RESTURANT – THE ONE HE WORKED SO HARD FOR ALL HIS LIFE.

THE INTERIORS WERE SET UP BY MOM.

THE KICTHEN WAS DADDYES HEAVEN.

IT HAD MEMORIES.

SO MANY MEMORIES.

Zain is driving at the speed of light and Zara is holding on to me tight as I look out dazed and silent out of the window.

Asher throws a bottle of water at Zara – " here..give her some water..."

Zara makes me sip on some and I sip on it and I continue to look out dazed and shocked.

Minutes later as I finally feel the car come to a halt I look out the window and I see Rahul, diya, Uncle and aunty stand on the side barricaded area as they are talking to Ashwin Uncle – the one I sold it too with the promise that that Uncle I will save up enough money one day and come and buy this back from you.

I step out dazed and I walk and I Hug Rahul and Diya immediately and I hear Ashwin uncle say – " khushi...beta I know what this was to you...I am so sorry...there was an accidental flame in the kitchen due to some gas issue...they are investigating..."

Uncle and aunty hug me hard and I see Asher, Zain and Zara stand from across of them with solemn faces and I walk towards the burned ruins of the restaurant – which was my Dream.

I take dazed steps towards the bruned ruins and Rahul and Zain come to stop me and I look at them with tearful eyes as I say – " please...I need to touch the walls once.."

They let me be.

The fire is over anyway.

Whats left is burnt ruins.

I walk dazed as tears now leave my eyes.

Its gone.

Its Burnt.

I slowly move my hand, shakingly and I touch the Wall and I feel so much emotion overwhelm me as I now fall to the ground with a thud and I feel everyone rush around me and now I am experiencing a full fledged panic attack and I can only shiver and cry as Diya, Zara, aunty hold onto me and I cant say a word.

I am crying.

I am shaking.

A DREAM – SHATTERED – ONCE AGAIN.

AND I COULD NOT SAVE THIS ONE.

I COULD NOT.

I hear unlce say rushing – " Rahul call dr Priya...we are rushing her to the hospital now...this is a severe panic attack..."

I close my eyes as tears continue to fall my eyes and I keep shivering and shaking.

MY HOODIE GUYS SMILING FACE REVOLVES IN FRONT OF MY EYES.

AND JUST LIKE THAT I REMEMBER MY WORDS TO HIM IN THAT LAST TEXT - My dumbledore- for you I will always on the light to find that happiness no matter how dark the room is.Always.

AND I HAVE MY ANSWER NOW.

Just like that in a moment of time as monumental heartbreaking as this – I have my Answer as to why this happened.

AND.

I HAVE TO SWITCH ON THE FREAKING LIGHT.

WHERE IS THAT FREAKING LIGHT.

I WILL SWITCH IT ON.

And trust me I am not crazy as I say this – I feel a vision of my Daddy go through my head – of him Waving a Bye at me at the Airport where I last saw Him

And A Happy smiling Face of My Mother.

And MY Krish.

WHERE IS THAT FREAKING LIGHT.

I WILL SWITCH IT ON.

I WILL DAMMIT.

I FEEL MYSELF BEING SHOVED INTO THE CAR NOW.

I DON'T KNOW WHATS HAPPENING AROUND ME ANYMORE.

I THINK I AM GOING TO GET SOME MAJOR INJECTIONS AND SOME SEDATIVE FOR THE NEXT FOUR -FIVE HOURS.

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Five Hours Later

KHUSHI'S POV CONTINUES..

I feel my eyes open and just like I knew it.

I find a drip up my arm and I know I was sedated because I can feel the affect of it as I am now coming out off it.

I see Dr Priya as she asks along with her nurse – " Khushi do you feel better now???"

I nod – " yes Dr...",and I ask – " everyone???"

She smiles – " everyone is outside..waiting...I just came to check on you..for I knew the affect of the sedative would wear out..."

I gesture to her that I need help sit up and I say – " I want to go home dr..i am fine now..."

She nods – " maybe in an hour...let me monitor you for sometime..??and maybe have some of those anxiety medicines I am prescribing for you...I know you hate them...but maybe for a day or two???ok????"

I look at her and I say – " no dr I don't want medicines...I will be ok..."

She sits next to me and touches my forhead – " Khushi...I know this was a huge shock...this was your dream...your biggest dream..i know you were working so hard and saving up for it..."

I sigh as I ask her – " dr...tell me something do you believe in the power of catharsis??"

Dr Priya smiles as she holds my hand – " ofcourse Khushi..i am a practicing counsellor and an academic researcher into the human mind too ofcourse I believe in the power of catharsis..."

Ok. So because I had done a lot of research on this already I say – " you know how they say it's the purification and the purgation of emotions particularly fear and anxieties and trauma—through art or any extreme change in emotion that results in renewal and restoration..."

She nods – " yes...ofcoursee..thats what it is..."

I look at her – " I think that's what I went through outside the restaurant Dr as in there was such a extreme switch in my emotions in between two strong spectrums..and that's why I feel all calm and composed now...like I feel like I will be ok...I feel like its like My daddys way of telling me that it was time to let go of his dreams..and go on with building newer ones for myself...I mean I cant explain it in words..but I felt it...its like they are telling me to start letting go of all this spent up grief now....",and I pause as I ask with a smile – " do you think I am crazy??i always feel I am wired differently in my head anyway...do you know I had an MRI I asked the radilologist..he said everything was fine.."

Dr Priya chuckles– " no you are not crazy Khushi...you are doing great...",and she asks softly – ' and I want to ask like you said you felt a strong exchange of emotions between two strong spectrums??? One was grief ofcourse what was the other??"

I smile as I say – " Love...."

She grins now as she says – " possible...",and she says to the nurse- " we will send her out in an hour...",and she says – " so apart from Uncle, aunty, diya and Rahul, there are three other people outside too...I think their names are Asher, Zain and Zara and they are all bonding over their love for you...so Khushi...you are not alone...you never will be...your family from up there is watching over you and they are making sure...daddy's little girl isn't alone..."

I smile as I say – " I am my Daddy's Brave Girl...I always was..i always will be..."

She grins and she kisses my forhead – " I have a soft corner for you, you know that right??"

I nod as I say – " I know....",and I say – " dr..please send everyone in on the way out...I want to assure them that I am fine..."

She nods and she makes her way out.

So you know what Just Happened to Me??????

I feel like a Newly Born – Phoneix right now!!!!!!

OK THEN.

SO GUYS.

PHONEIX IS A MAGICAL MYTHICAL CREATURE THAT represents transformation and rebirth in its fire. As a powerful spiritual totem, the phoenix is the ultimate symbol of strength and renewal.In this sense, it never truly dies; rather, it is an immortal creature continually rising from the ashes.

YES YES.

THAT'S WHAT I FEEL LIKE!

Because I feel transformed from within

AND YOU KNOW WHAT one more crazy fact?????

IN THE HARRY POTTER WORLD – DUMBLEDORE'S FAVOURITE PET WAS A PHOENIX – HIS NAME WAS FAWKS.

AND WHO IS MY DUMBLEDORE???

ARNAV SINGH RAIZADA.

This is all freaking some kind of a twisted interwined Destiny.

I am telling you guys – it always was from Day One.

WE ARE FREAKING WRITTEN IN THE STARS.

HE IS MY DESTINED FREAKING CATHARSIS.

HE ALWAYS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE – MY DESTINED CATHARSIS

I smile at everyone as they walk in my room now and I now start to assure them that I was absolutely fine

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90 Minutes Later

Khushi's POV

I hug Zara, Zain and I shake hands with Asher as I bid them bye outside uncle, aunty's home and they all wave me bye as they get into the car and leave.

Rahul hugs me and Diya hugs me too and Rahul asks – " you fine no donkey???"

I smile and nod – " yes totally...."

Diya – " you are staying with us tonight please????"

I nod – " yes I will..."

Uncle and Aunty call us in now and I walk into the main door and I walk to the living lounge and I ask Rahul as I look at the time on the wall – " where is the remote Rahul???"

Rahul looks at me confused – " you want to watch TV donkey??"

I nod and he flungs the remote to me and I look at him – " Rahul...come sit with me ya..last 15 minutes of India's batting...krish's favorute player ASR is on the crease no...he is your favourite too right....and I was checking my phone on the way Cricbuzz told me that Bangladesh made like 300 and now India was at like what 284-7 with last 12 balls remaining...you love nail biting finishes...come lets watch it together...."

RAHUL'S EYES HAVE GONE UPTO CUPS AND SAUCERS AS HE GAPES AT ME – " YOU WANT TO WATCH CRICKET??? LIVE ON TV??"

I NOD.

HAHA.

LOOK AT HIS FACE.

DIYA IS GAPING AT ME TOO AND SO IN UNCLE AND AUNTY AND I TURN TO THEM AS I SAY WITH A SMILE – " ARRE I WANT TO SEE WHAT KRISH AND DADDY USED TO LOVE ABOUT HIM SO MUCH?? MAYBE..JUST MAYBE..HIS SHOTS MIGHT MAKE ME A CRAZY FAN TOO.."

HAHAHA.

LOOK AT THEIR FREAKING FACES.

Rahul looks at me as he knocks on my head – " what just happened in there????"

I grin and wink – ' a destined catharsis Rahul..."

Rahul looks at Diya as he says – " this donkey has lost her marbles I think.."

I glare at him amused as I say – " arreee now I want to watch the match with you...you have a problem...when I don't watch then problem..."

Rahul grins as he laces an arm around my shoulder and Diya laces another around the other and we sit on the sofa and I switch on the TV.

And guess what do I see Guys????

My Hoodie Guy.

My Heart Swells with So Much Love.

The entire focus is on his face as I hear the commentator say – " India need 10 in the last three balls...but ladies and gentleman we have nothing to fear as ASR is here...on the crease...we know he can do it...hes anchored the innings for his team brilliantly all day today..what a game for him ladies and gentleman....three brilliant catches in the field two wickets too his name and now he is batting at 130 out of 120 balls "

The other commentator says – " and somethings different in his demaneour today...he looks very excited and happy even though that last bouncer almost hit him in the face...and he literally laughed about it with the Bangladeshi wicket keeper behind him and he actually walked across the pitch and pat the bolwers shoulder – did he just congratulate him for a wonderful delivery????or maybe challenge him that he will smash the next ball..the bowler is smiling so I think it was the former..what a display of sportsmanship ladies and gentleman....this man just continues to win all our hearts..."

I grin.

Ok.

I grin a little.

I see Rahul and Diya grin too and Rahul says – " oh my god...this man...he is a super hero....just look at him...they should build a cricket temple in his name in India.."

Diya grins – " and he is so hot ya..."

I chuckle as I look at Diya – " diya really??what will you do if you ever meet him in real?

Diya grins – " I will faint..."

Rahul winks at me– " I will get an heart attack...",and he says – " shut up donkey let me watch now..."

I chuckle.

Just the reactions I had anticipated.

I grin to myself as I return my attention to the TV and the commentators go on – " ok here comes the third last ball of the over...and ASR takes a double successfully and returns to the crease...2 balls eight runs needed..."

Uncle sits on the wing chair now – "shhhhhhhhhh ok??? Keep quiet you all he will win this remember that game..."

Rahul nods – " yes yes daddy...can we watch now.."

OHHH YAAA.

LOOK AT THIS HOODIE GUY.

HE LOOKS SO FREAKING HANDSOME ON TV.

The crowds all shown to be all tense.

But I am not Tense.

I know he is going to Go for Double again.

And Then he is going to Uppercut the last ball for SiX into the Stands.

I know it.

I can sense it.

And that's exactly what happens and I smile to myself as I sip on a glass of water and Rahul says nervously – " last ball and a six....it has to be a freaking six..."

JEEEZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

CALM DOWN RAHUL.

IT WILL BE A SIX.

YOU DON'T KNOW THAT MAN ON THE CREASE IS A MAGICIAN.

And the last ball is now bowled and I see My Hoodie guy Smash it with his Bat and he flings it up in the air and he keeps his eyes on it and theres that rakish grin on his face – the grin I love that tells me that he knows it's a SIX!

And the commentators voice comes through – " and it's a SIXXXXXXXXXXXX...IN ASR'S SIGNATURE Uppercut style...and INDIA WINS IT AGAIN..AND WINS IT IN STYLEEE AND SWAG ONE MORE TIME..ITS BEOCME A REGULAR OFF THIS MAN'S BAT OFF LATE – HE HAS HAD AN AMAZING YEAR AND LOOK at that Happiness on his face as he now holds that Bat high to the crowd that's gone roaring – for that's 140 not out...what a wonderful win for India and look at the smiling faces of his team as they run to hug him – the Indian Captain is very happy with that performance and so is the Coach of the Indian Cricket Team...they know that this man is special...that ability with the bat- that grit – that commitment to his game – is special..."

I AM SEEING IT ALL.

I AM FREAKING SEEING IT ALL.

AND I FEEL SO HAPPPYYYYYY!!!

I CANT TELL YOU HOW HAPPY I FEEL SEEING HIM ON SCREEN AND THAT HAPPY AS HE HUGS HIS TEAM MATES IN SHEER HAPPINESS.

I look at Rahul and Diya as I say – " ohh now I know...I think you guys are right...he does have some sort of a charm ya.."

Rahul grins – " you just saw a little bit...you have no idea what he is capable of.."

I smile at him – ' really??"

Rahul nods.

And now I know.

Its time to talk to Rahul and Uncle about what I have on my mind.

Now everyone is getting ready for the presentations and I see my Hoodie Guy shake hands with every Bangalesh team member as he takes off his gloves in his hand and tucks his helmet under his arm and is now happily walking towards the dressing room with Cap – Ravi- Shiv and Coach and Kunal.

I smile to myself.

I look at Rahul as I say with a deep breathe – " Rahul, I want to talk to you about something..uncle you too.."

They nod.

I take a deep breathe – " so you know now with daddy restaurant being burned down, its like I was after it for the memories that were in it and that's all gone now..as in the ambience the environment...etc and whats left is just a ruin...and I know Ashwin uncle said he will give me some part of the insurance claim because he feels sorry for this to have happened – but I will not take it...I will not take a penny ok...I want to move on now....Rahul and I have been saving so much , it isn't much...but I want to be able to invest it with you both...even if its little...and I have a new idea too..."

Rahul looks at me – " what idea????"

I turn to uncle as I say – " uncle chai and coffee where I love on the top...will you give me the permission to rebrand it completely? As in in a new theme...I know you love that place because it was the first outlet you started so maybe I am asking for too much..."

Uncle smiles at me – ' okkk go on...what are you saying continue??"

I take a deep breathe – " how about we convert it to a cricket themed café...like make it all about cricket....only fair to daddy and krishs love for the game too, its like today I realised that I can honor it happily too rather than holding onto the hurt – I have a choice to switch on the light uncle...and I am going to...",and I look at Rahul who is looking at me with a amused expression and I say – " you love cricket too and we can make it like the complete cricketing spot...like from the interiors to eveyrhting – and the wall panels with all epic cricketing history like really an ode to Cricket and you can have like two sectiosn you know like one highlighting india and one South africa...rahul think about this...cricketing season is coming up...its going to be a hit – and then in feb you have our boys going to india and then all those serioes and I hear the t20 world cup is also in SA no??? you know what screen the matches..i will ask diya and aunty to revamp the entire bakery menu as well...and Stacey and Varun too get on those drinks and lets introduce a new food menu as well dishes named after cricket terms..etc..."

Rahul looks at me amused – " whoaaaaaaaaaaaaa I am loving this....but from where did this come outta your head right now???? I have no clue how your head works donkey..."

I grin – " trust me even I don't know how that works but tell me are you in??? if we get into this head on now its like we will be able to revamp everything by feb...before the SA boys head to india for the tour..."

I look at Uncle and he is grinning and he nods and I get up and I hug him and I now hug Rahul and I say – " I will invest all that I have earned into this Rahul...please..and I will help you set up everything..."

Rahul grins at me and he hugs me – ' ofcourse donkey...this is your idea...your baby...",and he pulls back and he asks – " but wait..we have to think of a name for rebranding no...it cant be Chai and Coffee..."

I grin at him as I say – " oh I have that figured out already...and I think you will love it too..."

Rahul looks at me – " really what is it???"

I grin as I say – " HIT WICKET YOUR TONGUE..."

He grins – " as in we tell the customers that the food and everything about in there is so gorgeous that they hit wicket their taste buds themselves with their own hands.."

I nod Frantically.

Rahul grins – ' brilliant...I love it..."

Uncle grins – " I love it too..."

Diya and Aunty pitch in from behind – " we love it too..."

And I Hug Rahul and Uncle.

And I feel my Heart Glow.

GODDAMIT HOODIE GUY – I LOVE YOU SO MUCH – THERE ISNT ANYTHING IN THE WORLD THAT I WOULDN'T DO FOR YOU.

BUT FOR YOU – HOODIE GUY.

ALWAYS WITH LOVE.

FOR YOU ARE NOT JUST THE LOVE OF MY LIFE

YOU WERE, ARE – AND ALWAYS WILL BE - MY DESTINED CATHARSIS.

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