Baekhyun

Ⓣhe boys were finally in their dorm and it was already late. Baekhyun was waiting for Sehun - who was the youngest in their group - to finish up in the bathroom so he could take a quick shower, brush his teeth and finally get to bed. He hadn't seen whom he was sharing his room with yet though. He remembered he heard the guys talking about that they didn't have enough rooms for everyone alone and had to share. Baekhyun didn't mind though, he wanted to get closer to them. Being the last person who didn't know them that much could be pretty hard, in his opinion.

"The bathroom's yours hyung," Sehun said as he stepped out with only just a short towel around his waist. Baekhyun nodded and could finally take a shower himself. As he stepped into the shower, he felt it refreshing when it was cold and he could feel his body cool off, and he let it continue to relax his body, as well as washing his body and hair. 

"I see you still like showering in cold water," he suddenly heard a voice right behind him. Baekhyun was so startled that he almost slipped as he turned around and stared at the giant stood right behind him.

"Chanyeol? What the hell are you doing in here?" Baekhyun yelled surprised, and the tall male started smirking.

"What? You're the one who told me to come and shower with you for saving water. Plus, it's getting late so I just want to get it over with," he said with another smirk, earning a glare from the little boy. 

"That's not an option anymore. I said that when we were together. Don't come in like this again!" Baekhyun felt embarrassed because he didn't want the giant to look at his nude body, and he wanted to forget his. It just made him...flustered. He still had to admit that his bare body was still quite fit though.

"There's nothing I haven't seen, so don't feel embarrassed," he whispered as he lifted up Baekhyun's head with his finger under his chin. 

The angry boy slapped away his hand and glared at him again. "I don't care, just get out! You can shower when I'm done," he yelled, though the taller boy placed his hand over the loud boy's mouth to keep him quiet. 

"You want the others to hear you? Lower your voice," he whispered and removed his hand. His face was really close to the smaller ones. Every time he looked at him, the memories filled his mind. Baekhyun hadn't expected his ex-lover to actually be in the same group as him, and now he wished he never got that offer in high school. 

The petite boy kept on thinking he could just get a regular job and live a normal non-famous life. That would probably be better than being with his ex daily. 

"I know you hate me Baekhyun, but please listen. When I broke up with you, I didn't do it because I didn't love you any more or didn't want you. I can't tell you the reason, but you have to trust me."

"Trust you?" Baekhyun mocked. "I don't believe you. Why should I? You don't have anything to prove that anything that has come out of your mouth has been true the whole time we were together. Just," - he paused, trying not to break down in a pathetic cry - " just stay away from me," he added coldly and was about to step out of the shower, but the giant pulled him back inside and made him sit down under the water.

"You still have shampoo in your hair, you idiot. Don't step out and ruin it," he said as he washed the shampoo out of his soft hair whilst sitting right in front of him. He sat there still, not knowing what to do. Why did it have to be him? Is God trying to say something? Was this supposed to be a sign? Or was it the devil's play? "I won't ask you to forgive me because that's too much, but I don't want to get in the way of your dream," Chanyeol said as he was washing out the shampoo out and scrubbed the petite male's head. Baekhyun remembered him doing this before. Whenever he felt too lazy washing it himself, Chanyeol would literally drag him into the shower and help washing him himself instead.

"I'm fine. Just let me go," he muttered and finally could get out. He quickly dried himself and put on his pyjamas. Everyone was waiting for them in the lounge and he sat down in a free chair and they just had to wait for Chanyeol. 

"How are we going to divide us up into different rooms?" Baekhyun asked. 

Jongdae smirked back. "I've written half of our names on small paper pieces and we'll just randomly pick one." Why did Baekhyun get a bad feeling from this? It was very unlikely for Baekhyun to pick Chanyeol, but his stomach still told him differently. 

Finally Chanyeol came back and half of them picked a note that stood the other half's names on. Baekhyun's hands were shaking from nervousness when he was about to open the paper and he swallowed hard as he cleared his throat before looking. 

"Chanyeol," he muttered disappointed and closed his eyes. This could seriously not get any worse, he thought to himself. 

"Yay!" Chanyeol cheered and threw his arms around the small boy. He glared back up at him but pulled himself together to not let the others get suspicious of anything. Everyone except Baekhyun seemed to like their new roommate. How did I get stuck with him?

"Let's get to bed roommate," Chanyeol smirked after they all said goodnight and dragged his roommate with him. 

Baekhyun snapped back his hand. "I can walk by myself," he muttered annoyed. 

Chanyeol slowly nodded obediently whilst stepping out of the smaller male's way. 

They entered their shared room and had put their stuff in there and they lay down on their own bed. Chanyeol had turned off the lights as they lay in silence for a while. Baekhyun didn't really want to have a conversation with him and just pretend like he was asleep; he couldn't fall asleep right away though, not after everything that had happened to him today. There were so many questions he wanted to ask why happened to him, why him, but those couldn't be answered. Not by Chanyeol, or anyone else. How was he supposed to continue to live like that? Did he just have to bite his tongue and live in this new nightmare of his? Was he supposed to live with pain? Or was it a sign for him that it'd only be a rough road, and give up? Did he have to give up? Or was if for Chanyeol and him to become friends again? Baekhyun cringed at the thought, as just imagining becoming friends with Chanyeol again wasn't exactly on his wish list.

"Why aren't you asleep yet?" Chanyeol suddenly asked after they had laid still for an hour. Baekhyun was surprised, as he thought he had fallen asleep long time ago.

"How did you know? I didn't make a sound," he asked confused and he heard him giggle silently.

"Exactly. You always make those weird puppy yelps before you fall asleep". Oh... I had forgotten about that.

"I'd like to ask you the same. I thought you had already fallen asleep," Baekhyun muttered, avoiding the giant's question. He didn't exactly want to say that he questioned his new life because one particular person, aka the giant himself, became a part of it again.

"I'm cold," he whispered as he heard him snuggle closer to his bedcover. 

Baekhyun sighed and turned his back to him. "Just keep quiet and let me fall asleep," he mumbled and let out another deep sigh as he closed his eyes and finally tried to fall asleep. He managed it after a while.

Baekhyun woke up shortly after by feeling something against his back and heavy breathing against his neck. 

"Chanyeol?" he whispered, and it moved.

"Hm?" he replied tiredly and Baekhyun rolled his eyes. He almost thought it was something else.

"What are you doing?" he asked after he didn't take the hint to move away.

"Sleeping," he answered and the little boy rolled his eyes again. This boy...

"I've noticed that. Can you move back to your own bed?"

"No." Baekhyun felt he was getting irritated, but tried to hold it together as it was still too early to get up for the day.

"Why not? I don - "

"I was too cold." He sighed and tried to look at Chanyeol over his shoulder and he noticed his eyes were closed. "Get b - "

"And lonely..." Baekhyun's expression froze and he was glad Chanyeol couldn't see it. "I miss..." His words drifted away and something about him seemed off, Baekhyun thought. Was he sleep talking and moved here in his sleep?

"I miss this...cuddling with you," he finished his sentence and snuggled even closer. His body was completely wrapped around the smaller one. The beds in the dorm weren't really that big and if there was more than one person in the bed, it became quite cramped. "I miss you."

He had always been like that, Baekhyun had just forgotten. When they were together, he always used to sleepwalking and woke Baekhyun up by head-butting the walls and doors. He could communicate with him and he could answer his questions at times, but he also said random stuff either about what he was dreaming about or sometimes what he actually felt or hid. 

"Get in y - "

"I really miss you, Baek...I was so glad when I saw you today," he interrupted Baekhyun again and kept on pressing his body and face closer to his as if there was still room left between them with their bodies. 

Baekhyun tried to move even more away from him, but if he moved another inch, he'd fall out of the bed. Baekhyun wasn't that mean to actually push him off the bed whilst the taller was still asleep because he couldn't help it, but it was already getting on Baekhyun's nerves. He only liked to cuddle with people he actually liked, not hated.

He was about to keep trying to convince him to go back to his own bed, but he was so tired that he couldn't even keep his eyes open and he fell asleep again with the warmth and good feeling.