(My thoughts with the lyrics of a song)

'I hate you, I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to'
'Lie to me, lie with me, get your fucking fix'
'Everyone I do right does me wrong
So every lonely night, I sing this song'
'You don't care you never did
You don't give a damn about me
Yeah all alone I watch you watch her
She's the only thing you've ever seen
How is it you'll never notice
That you are slowly killing me'.

And I try to forget, again and again. Again and against.