WARNING: THERE WILL BE SPOILERS FROM THE HUNTER X HUNTER MANGA, IF YOU ARE NOT CAUGHT UP WITH THE MANGA, I RECOMMEND YOU SKIP THIS CHAPTER 

Illumi stood in some hotel as he had just gotten out of the shower, he had just finished another successful mission and booked a hotel to rest so he can head on to his next mission in the morning, not like he needed the rest. He walks out seeing a familiar red hair magician on his bed, " What do you want Hisoka? " Illumi spoke. He did his best to show like he didn't care, but in reality, he cared for the magician dearly, to the point he loved him.

Yes, it sounds strange that he of all people being capable of loving another person, but he had always been there for him, so after some time he found himself enjoying his present and company to the point he liked him. " Hmm can't a friend just visit his friend?~ " Hisoka spoke looking at his naked upper body, licking his lips. " I thought you had your fight with Chrollo today " Illumi spoke looking away as he blushes. " I did " Hisoka spoke getting up as he walks over to him, " But you look perfectly fine " Illumi spoke. " Yes, but I died " Hisoka spoke as he stood in front of him, Illumi was shocked, he Hisoka Morrow died, losing a fight?

" Before Chrollo used his finishing move I infused Bungee Gun in my lungs and heart, so if I died my nen would activate and bring me back to life " Hisoka spoke as he griped his chin, tilting his head up so he can look at him. " Why are you telling me this? " Illumi spoke, " Cause fighting Chrollo was a bit too much for me, plus you are my dearest friend, so I want to ask you something " Hisoka spoke looking into his onyx eyes. " Will you like to be engage with me?~ " Hisoka spoke not once breaking eye contact, " Huh?!, Are you crazy Hisoka? I can't be engage to you " Illumi spoke looking away as he blushes madly, Hisoka forces him to look at him again.

"I wasn't finished, I want you to kill me, I want a prenup, where if you kill me you'd collect your reward, everything I own~ " Hisoka spoke, as Illumi was frozen he can't be serious, he can't kill him, he can't kill the only person he's ever loved. " My new goal is to kill every member of the Phantom Troupe, I want you to join so it can add a bit of excitement in the mix~, I've already killed two of the members already~ " Hisoka spoke. Illumi didn't want to do it he can't, he can't kill him, why does he want him to join? What would be the point?

" One of us is going to end up killing the other Illumi, we both knew this was going to happen~ " Hisoka spoke, Illumi felt frozen, he couldn't move or think straight. What about all the time they spent together? All of those precious moments, did they mean nothing to him? Was he only a source of entertainment to him? The lump in his throat grew, he felt so hurt. " Aww cheer up don't take it personal Illu dear~ " Hisoka spoke, as he cupped his cheeks so he can look in his eyes, his big onyx eyes, Illumi swallowed the lump in his throat, and look into his honey yellow eyes, the same eyes he fell in love with and can't get enough of.

" I accept, I don't care about you, as you said this was bound to happen. So let's end this quickly " Illumi spoke forcing himself to act as if he's okay and not hurt. Hisoka smirks, " Oh lovely~, Why don't we celebrate one last time love~ " Hisoka spoke leaning for a kiss, as Illumi kisses him back letting Hisoka push him back onto the bed, as he slips the towel off his waist, letting his lips move down his jawline to his collarbone. 

~UxU~ 

It's been roughly four months, Illumi hasn't seen Hisoka since that night, Illumi felt Hisoka take half of his heart with me, he felt so hallow. He pretended like everything was fine, the members of the Troupe were ok, but he didn't really care, he was always by himself. Kalluto would try to strike up conversations with him, but it never really worked. Chrollo has been trying his hardest to find Hisoka but just couldn't pinpoint his location, he was getting angry, but then got an idea, it might now work but it was worth a shot. 

~UxU~ 

Hisoka was currently with Gon, Killua, Kurapika, and Leorio, he was currently trying to find a worthy opponent to fight when he ran into the four, they tried to tell him to get lost, but in no vail. So they just let him trail along with them, it wasn't as bad just Hisoka making weird perverted comments on Killua and Gon here and there. Hisoka soon got a text from an unknown number to meet this person or persons at some location, it being Hisoka decided to go to see who this person was. Gon and the rest decided to tag along, as the location was on the way to their location, so they all stop by noticing it was some abandoned warehouse, it was really creepy.

" Jeez Hisoka, what kind of people do you hang out with? " Leorio spoke pretty creeped out, " So, you came and with guests " a familiar voice spoke, as Chrollo came walking out from the shadows, Kurapika's eyes turned scarlet but he held himself back, till Chrollo and Hisoka were done. " I could say the same about you, I know the rest are with you~ " Hisoka spoke, as the rest of the Troupe appear out of the shadows, Killua was pretty ty shocked to see Kalluto amongst them but didn't show it.

" They insisted to come, as what I had to discuss with you was only going to be between us three, but oh well " Chrollo spoke, " Us three? " Hisoka spoke. Footsteps were heard, all turn to the entrance to see Illumi walking in, " What's going on here? " Illumi spoke, as he saw Hisoka he was so overjoyed to see him, but doesn't show it. " You see it's come to my attention that Hisoka was the one to recommend you to join Illumi, I've never thought to why. But maybe because could it be he never cared for you, I mean after all the time he spent with you, wouldn't he care about you? Or could it be Hisoka never cared for you in the beginning? " Chrollo spoke walking up to the pale raven.

"I said we had a give and take relationship, both knew we would up killing the other, why would about him in the first place? " Illumi spoke, trying his best not to let his mask slip. " Cause you love him, do you honestly think you can fool me Illumi " Chrollo spoke as he grabbed his chin, as he looked in his eyes. " What?, Are you insane? I'm an assassin I don't feel " Illumi spoke, " Try covering it up all you want, I know your secret. I know Hisoka never cared and would never care about you, I mean who would it's you " Chrollo spoke chuckling. " What's your point? What are you trying to get at? " Illumi spoke, trying not to let his emotions take over.

" That does Hisoka actually care about you or not? I mean you are his most trusted hmmm acquaint " Chrollo spoke, " My relationship with Hisoka is nothing, we just used one another for our own needs. Nothing more " Illumi spoke, as he wished it was something much more. " Yes, but why not test it out " Chrollo spoke, as he neared the raven. He saw the knife in his hand the moment he appeared, but at that point, he didn't care, all he ever cared was for Hisoka only Hisoka, but Hisoka didn't care about him, so what was the point in trying to stop it from killing him. As Chrollo neared him, " Aww Illumi so obvious, it was a real shame you couldn't stay longer " he spoke grabbing his knife stabbing him in the heart, it happened so fast no one saw it coming, he coughs out blood as his eyes widen.

" anki?! " Kalluto yells trying to run to him, but Feitan and Phinks held him back, as he desperately tried to run to him. " I was wondering when you were going to use that, I knew your motive since the moment I walked in " Illumi spoke, as he leaned against Chrollo as he began to bleed out slowly. " Then why didn't you stop me? " Chrollo spoke, " What's the point? Everything you said was true. I only live for Hisoka he was the only reason I woke up every day, all I ever know was pain, but Hisoka showed me what true happiness was. I love him, I'd risk my life for him, I would never forget the beautiful moments we spent together, but in the end, all I ever was to him was a toy to play with till he was bored, I was never good enough for him " Illumi spoke as tears dripped down his cheeks.

" Why couldn't I ever be good enough? I never was my parents don't love me if only I had white hair and blue eyes I would have been good enough. I could never make my parents proud of me, I can't ever do anything right, be the perfect son, brother, friend I failed them all. In the end, I guess I really was a failer " Illumi spoke crying as he chuckles, feeling his life slowly fading away. " But I'll finally be free from all this pain, goodbye sorry I couldn't ever be perfect " Illumi spoke as Chrollo pulled the knife out of his chest as he fell to the ground, as he took his final breath. " ANKI?! " Kalluto and Killua yelled, Kalluto got out of Feitan and Phinks grip and ran to him, trying desperately to wake him, but he never did.

Hisoka stood their tears falling down his cheeks, as he took everything in, Illumi loved him, he gave his own life because no matter he loved him more than himself. It's his fault he died, he's the reason Illumi Zoldcky was dead. 

11/27/2020 

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