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Connor and Zara knew she was in danger, yet they weren't even going to let her know.

We were meant to be able to trust them but at this rate, I'd probably be better off putting my trust into Jack and we all know how that would play out.

Standing in front of Maya, I looked at her, trying to piece together what would be going through her mind right about now.

She just looked so lost in thought and if I'm honest, I wouldn't have known what I'd do myself if I'd found out that two of my last friends were fraternizing with the enemy.

Definitely could have been worse though, they could have been working with Dillen and if that was the case, I wouldn't have thought twice before killing them off.

You can call me messed up, moral-less and evil but that's the truth of it. I've killed people before, it's what I get for being Jack's only blood related offspring. Though every time I've ever had to take someone else's life, it's taken away a small piece of me.

One day, there'd be none of me left, but I could live with that, knowing that somewhere in the world, someone would be countering all the bad I was putting into the world.

Since knowing Maya, something had changed. Originally, the plan was to have gotten Maya and making her tell us everything she knew about Mendez, then we were either going to kill her off or get her to join our side.

We'd known for a while that Mendez was after her from Tanner. He used to work with Mendez before Jack took him. He was a traitor to the other side and that fact alone didn't let me trust him. 

But I couldn't go with the plan, not after meeting her in real life.

See, I'd met a lot of people during my lifetime, a lot of whom were friends, a lot of who were not but no one, no one had managed to make my heart actually stop beating after laying my eyes on them.

Maya was absolutely one of the most beautiful girls I had ever laid eyes on.

And after hearing her speak, it only solidified the beauty that she was.

Getting to know her did the trick though, I knew that I couldn't let anything happen to her. 

She was too good, she was the good that was going to counter the bad in me, I knew if from the moment I saw her in the hospital. Because she didn't look at me like she was going to scream or cry. No, she looked at me like she wanted to know more, like she was ready to get to know how fucked up I really was.

And that was a first.

But I still hadn't given her the chance to get to know me for who I was, I wasn't going to let that happen for a long time, not until this was over at least.

She already had enough on her plate. Maybe after this had all blown over, I'd let her in.

But knowing her, that was going to be hard. She didn't make it easy to keep to myself. Because every time she shed a tear, every time she let out a laugh, every time she did anything, I just wanted to tell her everything.

But I couldn't do that, not without her wanting to run for the hills, not without her wanted to kill me herself.

So I'll let her get to know this fake, shallow version of me that every one but me knew.

Because if I let her get to know the real me, she'd be broken. The goodness that she radiated would taint.

And I couldn't let that happen, I couldn't be selfish and fall for her because then, it'll be the world that suffers.

And I have fallen for her, it's true, but her being with Derek is better for everyone.

Seeing her kiss him like that, even though she was drunk, hit me hard. It made me remember that in the end, she was always going to fall for the less fucked up, less destructive one of the two.

But I was going to fight for her, I wasn't going to let Derek's advantage put him in front of me.

Derek and I may be friends but I wasn't going to let that cloud my vision.

I was going to have her and no one, not Jack, not Mendez, not even Derek was going to stop me from having her.

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a/n: short chapter on Jacob's thoughts because I realised that you guys haven't actually seen into Jacob's head yet.

So, Maya's gotten both the boys on her leash, who's going to come out of this victorious?

Mayrek

or

Maycob

Have a good afternoon my lovelies <3

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