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If it wasn't for all the screaming coming from Maya who was currently writhing on the floor, I would have found this so, so hilarious. Only a few seconds ago, Jacob said that he would never hurt Maya.

Guess what he did.

But no, I couldn't think about any of that right now because I was frozen, I couldn't even get my brain to let me breathe. I just kept looking at the way there was now blood pooling from the open would on Maya's shoulder.

As the blood left her body, my eyes shrouded in red. The only thing I could think of was how I was going to kill Jacob.

How dare he.

HOW DARE HE.

He could have hit anyone, anyone, even me and I may have been angry but I'd have gotten over it. Because of his stupidly blinding anger, he hurt Maya.

But I couldn't just stand here while Maya was screaming, her pain riddled shrieks making my chest tighten.

So I tried to sit down, straddling her as I tried to tell her to keep it together. I undid my belt and tightened just above her would, trying to ease the bleeding, but it didn't work. I shook her, trying to keep her from falling into oblivion.

Her screams only got louder and louder.

"It's going to be ok, Maya, nothing bad's going to happen to you." I said but I knew that the way I was saying it, I was trying to tell myself that aswell.

Even though in most people's books, getting stabbed by a pair of scissors wouldn't be so much to worry about but the way Jacob slammed it down on her, all the actual scissor was embedded in her arm. 

And the fact that it was Maya.

I felt despair as her eyes started blurring out, her consciousness coming and going.

I felt weak.

Jacob pushed me off of her and I didn't try and stop her because I was paralyzed. Paralyzed with fear and anger.

I sat there and stared at my hands, red with all the blood that was still flowing out of Maya's shoulder.

I sat there, unmoving as Jacob whispered to her, telling her he was there, telling her that she was going to be completely fine. 

I was going to kill him. 

I stood up, just as Maya completely succumbed into darkness.

As she went into the darkness, so did I because now, the only thing I could feel was immense darkness, telling me to completely finish what we had started.

"Why's Maya screami-- oh." Said Connor as he walked into the bathroom, eyes wide.

"Leave, Connor."

"What happened here?" 

"I said leave." I said, my fist clenched by my side as my patience started wearing thin.

"Let me at least take Maya."

As he took a few steps closer, I raised my fist in order to pummel him, still only being able to see red.

But he managed to block me and in that time, dropped down to Maya. 

"Don't touch her." I said, scared incase he'd hurt her.

"I'm going to get her to the medics."

I kicked him as he went down right in the face, then the red eased a little bit.

He was only trying to help her.

I felt a little bit bad but the anger was predominant, holding me down from apologizing. But Connor had a knowing look on his face, as if he was expecting it. Without saying a word, he picked up Maya and left.

I turned back to Jacob and for the first time, I saw a little bit of fear in his eyes but he quickly masked it over.

"I'm not done with you." I said as I ran to him and gave him a blow to the stomach, which must have only been amplified by the fact that he hit the sink in the same place a few minutes ago.

Doubled over, I shot my knee up to him face with so much force and he was out cold.

The red slowly diminished as I looked at him.

For a few seconds, it felt like I was high, like I needed this release.

But it only lasted a moment before reality came crashing down.

What have I done?

I may have not liked Jacob but I knew Maya did. She's going to hate me.

For god's sake, why can't I ever control myself?

What if... what if I had actually acted on my anger and killed him like I said I would?

This isn't a safe house, not while I'm here.

I dropped to my knees and stared at Jacob's unmoving body.

The door opened again and Connor was standing infront of me again.

He didn't look angry, not even annoyed, but he looked at me, like he knew what I was going through.

I knew he didn't though.

"Come here." He said, extending a hand to me.

I happily took it, the weight of what I did holding me down.

After I was up, he picked up Jacob and hoisted him over his shoulder. 

I was thankful for his silence.

We walked down the stairs and down to a different area of the house we hadn't been in yet.

We walked into a room with a few white chairs, a bed and navy blue walls. Placing him on the bed, he picked up his phone and called down another medic who got to work on Jacob straight away.

Afterwards, we walked down to Maya's room.

She looked so calm, so different to the moments before she'd passed out. 

I felt so bad. It was my fault. If I hadn't hurt her to begin with, Jacob never would have got mad at me. 

I looked at her and decided that I had to talk to her after she woke up.

Connor grabbed two chairs and sat me down at one of them.

"You know, I know what you're going through."

"I don't think you do."

"Ok then, tell me what happened because I promise you that if it was me in Maya's place, you wouldn't have cared, not even one bit."

I stayed silent, knowing that he was telling the truth.

Silence took over the whole room before he spoke again.

"You love her don't you." He said like it was a statement rather than a question.

I looked over at her, looking at the way her face seemed so relaxed, the way her chest slowly rose and fell, the way her hair was slightly disheveled as she lay on the bed.

I'd known since I was a kid that I loved her but I knew that I could never act on it. it would only completely mess everything up. I never had any luck when ti came to things like that.

I looked back at Connor and he seemed satisfied, as if my silence had answered the question for him.

"When this is all over, I'll help you with what happened back there in the bathroom." He said, clearly talking about the red that I couldn't help seeing when I was angry.

I knew that, for a while, there had been something wrong with me but never did I think about actually getting it checked out. 

I appreciated the fact that he was willing to help but the reality of it was, I was too messed up to be able to come back.

Everything that had happened during the two years I was gone wasn't going to go away any time soon.

I got up, sending Connor a nod, as he asked me to bring a top for Maya to wear.

I went to go to Jacob's room to see how he was doing.

I was still angry at him, but considerably less as I  realised that he didn't mean to hurt Maya on purpose.

When I walked in, he was fully awake but he was deep in thought, looking straight at the wall infront of him.

He then turned his head, sending me a small smile.

"Hey."

"Hey." I replied.

I stood there for a while, trying to get the words to tell him but he beat me to it.

"I won't tell her what happened, at least I'll try, I know how much she values your friendship."

I sent a genuine smile his way,  he wasn't s bad as I thought to begin with.

"Thanks, I'm sorry for doing... that." I said, pointing at his stomach and his face.

"Don't worry, I don't bruise easily." He said with a smirk.

I smiled at him before I went up to my room.

Maya wasn't going to wake up for a while, a few hours at least. I decided I needed to be alone before I'd do something I regret.

Getting into my bed, I laid myself down and stared at the ceiling. I laid there for what seemed for a long, long time before a few tears escaped me.

I turned myself around, telling myself to man up.

I knew that I wasn't going to be able to calm down anytime soon so I got up, shooting a quick glance at the clock.

9:50pm.

I'd been in my room for nearly 4 hours now.

Grabbing a shirt, I ran down back to the medical rooms, quickly getting to Maya's room.

Yet, I still only saw her limp body still sleeping in her bed. 

I decided then that I didn't like it when Maya was passed out, I'd seen it too much. I missed the lively smile that was on her lips when she was awake.

With a sigh, I lowered myself onto the chair next to Maya.

Connor walked in, holding a glass of water. I took the water as I gave him the shirt.  He gave the shirt to a nurse who was now undressing Maya. Connor and I turned around.

"Oh, when did you come in?"

"Just now. Have you been here the entire time?"

"Ye, I didn't have anything to do so I just went between the two rooms really. She nearly stirred a few times but she hasn't actually woken up yet."

I just nodded.

"I told Jacob I'm sorry."

"That's good, but you know Maya's still not going to impressed." He said, as if I didn't know that already.

"I know." I said with a little bit of annoyance.

"What you going to do about it?"

"I'm not sure yet, I'll think about it when it comes to it."

"Never a good idea."

"Not like I asked you."

Connor suddenly just turned his head towards Maya, so I did too.

She was awake, staring at the two of us hazily before her eyes widened and looked between me and Connor.

She tried to turn away but let out a little shriek as she leaned on her bad shoulder.

I walked up to her bed and she looked up at me.

"Trust you to forget about your bad shoulder a few seconds after you hurt it. Are you ok?" I said, unknowingly letting sarcasm seep through the first half of what I said.

"I'm fine, don't worry, but where's Jacob?" She asked.

Has she got no regard about herself? She got stabbed by him and the first thing she asks is if he's alright?

She should care about herself more.

"He promised to never hurt you, then he stabbed you and the first thing you can ask me is where he is? I can't believe you."

"It wasn't his fault, I jumped in front of him so he wouldn't hurt you!"

"I could have f^cking taken it, why did you do it?"

"Don't you get it? I didn't want him to hurt you!"

I quietened down a bit but then I realised that in fact, this was definitely my fault then.

She hurt herself trying to keep me from getting hurt.

I could feel the red starting to take over my vision but then I felt a hand on my shoulder.

"Calm down, remember, she cares about you, she was just trying to keep you from getting hurt. Don't get angry because she cares."

I nodded then got up, walking towards the door.

" Fine, do whatever you want, Jacob's in the next room."

I needed some water so I quickly ran to the kitchen to grab a glass of water. Before I could grab a glass, a little lady came over and stopped me, getting me the water herself.

I think she might have been one of the workers that I'd seen before.

I drank up quickly before going down again.

Maya wasn't in her room anymore though, she must have been in Jacob's. 

Sighing, I walked near Jacob's room before I heard their voices.

I mean, it won't do too much damage if I listen in right?

"I'm so sorry, are you ok? How are you feeling? Does it still hurt? I'm really so so sorry, that was never meant for you."

"But it was for Derek, wasn't it?"

I stood, waiting for Jacob to rat me out. But you should have felt my surprise when he just didn't answer the question and instead asked

"Why did you flinch?"

I felt like I'd heard this before.

"Oh, no-nothing. Don't worry."

Then there was a small silence again.

"Don't worry, I already forgave you though, I did it on purpose so you wouldn't hurt him then regret it."

"But I hurt you, and I still regret it."

"Well, don't because in the end, that was unintentional. If it happened to Derek, it wouldn't have been."

Pride and a warmth took over every vein and blood vessel in my body as I felt a smile creep onto my face.

She really did care about me, didn't she.

"Jacob, why are you in here?"

"Don't worry, nothing happened."

"Don't lie to me."

"Honestly, nothing happened."

"So, Derek did nothing to you?"

"No, of course not."

He was keeping his end. I suddenly felt bad, so bad when I realised that in the end, what I'd done to him was out of jealousy. I was jealous that he was a better man than me, so much better.

"Why you covering for him?"

"I'm really not covering for him, you don't need to worry about that." He said but his voice had slightly gave way.

"Really?"

"Really."

A small gasp then escaped his lips and I decided to move into the doorway.

Maya was pushing down onto his chest.

What was she doing?

Guess I'll let it play out, see what she does.

"Are you sure?"

"Yes."

There was a small hesitation from Maya before she pressed down on Jacobs stomach pretty hard, I felt sorry for him to say the least.

"Going to tell me why your covering for him yet?"

"Ok, ok fine, I just didn't want you to be mad at him if you found out. I knew that you two were close and I just-- I just didn't want there to be any reason for you two to fight."

Quickly, Maya withdrew her hands from his stomach and apologised to him.

She turned around quickly aswell, her eyes glistening with tears. She looked surprised to see me in the doorway and without meaning to, she let the tears fall.

I was the reason she was crying again, I asked Jacob to keep quiet and now, Maya was crying.

Guilt took over me as I outstretched my arms to give Maya a hug, knowing full well that she wasn't going to take me embrace.

She was mad at me, I could see it in her eyes.

She just walked up to me and even I wasn't expecting her knuckles in my sight that quickly.

Then, she just walked off.

"Guess that didn't work." Jacob chuckled as he sent a small grin my way.

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a/n: damn this is a long chapter, I didn't think it'd be so long when I first planned it.

So here's some insight into Derek's mind, he isn't all sunshines and daisys as one may think (sarcasm)

Thought this was pretty insightful to Connor aswell actually, but hey, take it how you please.

Hope you have a good night my lovelies <3

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