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Author's POV.

Sofia was standing outside the emergency ward. After isha gave birth to the twins she went into a deep slumber. Sofia and that old lady thought she was asleep but the truth was isha fainted because of her extreme weakness. When Sofia and that old woman try to wake her up for feeding the twins she didn't wake up and they immediately called for an ambulance and by then the traffic jam was also clear.

Sofia brought the twins to the hospital for a check-up as well and right now they were examining by the child specialist.

Sofia took her phone out and stare at Arshad's number. Many things were running through her head making her have double thoughts. Shaking her head to get rid of all the negative thoughts she was about to dial his number her phone rang. It was Arshad.

Taking a deep breath she received his call.

"I was about to...."

"Where are you?" He asked in a hard tone.

"Uh...." She blink as she could sense the bitterness in his voice only by his one sentence.

"I am asking you something Sofia. Where are you?!" His voice boomed on the other side of the phone.

"In Islamabad. I have told you I have meeting..." She was answering him quickly.

"Where in Islamabad? I am right now in Islamabad and I want to meet you right now."

Sofia was shocked to hear that. He's in Islamabad. But why?

"In hospital. I will send you the location of the hospital." she said and he cut the call with only the "send it quickly"

Sofia did and waited for the doctor to come out. Sofia was in deep thought. Her head was spinning cause of the stress and weakness. She couldn't get the time to have something since last night she had her dinner and right now she was too exhausted to go and have something. She closed her eyes and leaned back.

"Sofia." Only after 20 minutes, Sofia heard his voice. She already texts him where she was in the hospital. She opened her eyes and stood up facing him.

"Arshad, I want to tell...." She was saying but stopped when Arshad throw an envelope at her. "What is this?" She asked holding the envelope without looking at it.

"You tell me what is it??" He gritted his teeth and asked. His jaw-clenched face hardens and his eyes burn red. She shivers and looks at the envelope and reads the headline and her name Mrs Arshad Malik.

It was the report of the pregnancy test from the same hospital where Sofia got to know about her pregnancy (the doctor who informed them about her pregnancy was from this hospital as well) It was 9 months ago.

"It's my pregnancy test re....." She was saying this without reading the papers and only by seeing the headlines of the hospital name, the pregnancy test report and her name Mrs Arshad Malik.

"No!! It was isha's pregnancy test report!" He shouted making Sofia flinch at her place. Sofia's eyes widened. She look down and roams her eyes on the papers till her eyes caught Isha's name. "How could you do this Sofia!? She was pregnant and you knew about it then how could you still ask her to leave the house? You knew she didn't have any place and anyone besides me then how could you be so heartless?" He gripped her arms tightly. Sofia hissed in pain she didn't understand anything and was staring at him lost.

"What are you saying? I didn't know about her pregnancy...."

"Stop lying for God's sake. Are you not tired of lying? You still have the guts to lie to me. Even after knowing I found this in our cupboard." He cut her off and spat the words on her face.

She turns her face away and tries to pull her arms from his grip.

"Leave me. You're hurting me"

"And what you're doing till now? You don't hurt me? Tell me Sofia, you don't hurt me?" Arshad was breathing hard. He didn't know what he should do and how he had come to Islamabad. He just knew he went crazy when he saw the reports in his wardrobe. He was searching for some old papers in their locker where they usually kept their important documents. After finding it he decided to come to Islamabad on the next flight. He wanted to meet Sofia before going to Adil to know isha's whereabouts.

"You didn't think about my innocent baby who become homeless... Oh... How could I forget you hate my children from the beginning that's why you always end up killing them and that's why you hid this from me and let isha suffer alone cause you don't care about that innocent child! How could you stoop so low? How?!"

Sofia's eyes burn. "Arshad you're taking me wrong..."

"I'm not taking you wrong Sofia, rather I'm taking you right for the first time. I love you and never think about hurting you intentionally. I know isha and my relationship hurts you but that was also not in my hand, I never want to marry the second time, I never want to love another woman, and I never wants to hurt you, this all happened unintentionally but you? Sofia you always hurt me intentionally. You make our life's decisions by yourself without caring about me!" A lone tear escapes his eyes. Sofia always had the power to hurt him the most.

"St...stop.." Sofia whispered as she couldn't take this anymore. If it was old Sofia then she would've agreed with him at some point but this Sofia? This Sofia was different. She can't see the pain and hurt in her husband's eyes.

"Now I'm questioning myself Sofia that what I have always believed that you love me is just a mirage. If you'd loved me you wouldn't hate my children. You wouldn't hate my flesh and blood. You wouldn't hate a part of me! You never love me!.."

"Enough! Enough Arshad!" She push him away and said it out loud as she couldn't tolerate Arshad questioning her love. "One last time I'm saying. I DID NOT KNOW THAT THIS WAS ISHA'S REPORT. I thought it was mine and I've already known my report from the doctor that's why I never care to check it out as I used to believe that I'm the only Mrs Arshad Malik." She wipes her tears furiously. "I know I was selfish, I always thought about myself, I didn't want to be a mother cause of the fear of losing the career I worked so hard to get. That Sofia was different. That Sofia always got what she wanted but this woman?" She pointed at herself and continue. "This woman had to endure her husband's love for another woman. This woman had to endure her husband's distant behaviour for all those months. This woman lost a daughter. This woman lost half of her husband to another woman. This woman had to save her husband's second wife and children" tears fall from her eyes continuously while Arshad froze in his place hearing her last sentence. Before he could ask anything the doctor came out of the ward.

"Isha Malik's relative?" Doctor asked making Arshad's head shoot toward him. "Are you related to the patient?" Doctor asked looking at both of them. Arshad was shocked and panicked that what he heard was true. Did he hear the doctor talking about isha? that's when he realised she was in hospital but why? he didn't think about it till now.

"Yes, doctor. He is her husband" Sofia said wiping off every emotion on her face. Just then a nurse came and gives the doctor a file. Doctor analysis the reports before briefing about it.

"The mother and the twins are fine. The mother has extreme weakness cause of the delivery without medical care but now they are fine. You did a great job by helping her in delivering the twins if you would have waited to come to the hospital then it might be late and we could have lost the mother and the children." The doctor explains everything to them while Arshad stood there like a statue.

"The....the twins are healthy.?" Sofia couldn't help but ask.

"Yes. They are healthy. You can take them and for meeting the mother you have to wait for some time as we are shifting her to another room." He said and walk away from there. Sofia didn't look at Arshad and walks toward the children's ward to get the twins.

Arshad stood there sometime before everything settled in him.

Isha gave birth to their twins?

He had twins?

He had his own children. His flesh and blood. His parts.

"Mere bacche? (My children?)" He whispers as alone tears escape his eyes. He looks around and found the nurse coming out of the ward. "My...my wife. Can I meet her?" He asked impatiently

"No sir you have to wait. We are shifting her to another room. You can meet her after some time" the nurse said politely, he nodded and asked about the twins and walked toward the ward after the nurse told him the way.

When he got there he found Sofia standing there with the baby in her hand while smiling at the baby. He walks toward them and when Sofia felt another presence she looks toward him. Their eyes met and the smile Sofia was having vanished. Sofia look away and forwarded her hand toward him.

"You have twin boys. This is the firstborn with dark brown eyes while the other boy has light brown ones" saying this she hands him the baby.

Arshad held his first baby boy and stare at his face which was an exact copy of his. Tears started rolling down from his eyes and his breath become uneven as he couldn't hold back his sobbing and emotions.

"Mera baccha. Me...mera beta (My baby. My son)" the words felt so surreal. The feeling was overwhelming. He couldn't believe that his dream had come true when he almost lost hope. "Mera beta. Meri jaan. Baba ki jaan" he started kissing the baby all over his face and just then his other born started crying. A soft chuckle left Sofia's mouth. Wiping her tears she pick up the baby and gave him to Arshad. He held them carefully and kiss his secondborn and clutched them to his heart while tears continuously falls from his eyes. And lips held the most beautiful smile on his face.

Sofia could see the happiness on Arshad's face. He looks like he got the whole world in his palm. The brightest smile and tears were the proof of his happiness. Sofia never thought that his happiness and smile would touch her heart this much that she would regret it again and again for aborting their children.

Only if she could give him this happiness long ago. Only if she could.

Wiping her tears she walk out of the room as she felt like crying for the loss of their children and their daughter she couldn't hold even for once. She leaned against the wall and cried covering her mouth. The worst punishment is the guilt and regret anyone could get. she knew the guilt and regret will never going to leave her.

"Forgive your mamma"

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Arshad steps into the room with a rapid heartbeat. He was going to see her after 9 months. He slowly look up only for his breath to stuck on his chest.

Isha was staring at him with shocked eyes. She was sitting on the bed waiting for the nurse or anyone to come so she could ask about her children.

With every step, their heartbeat was increasing.

He stood in front of her while Isha's eyes filled up. She looks down as tears fall from her eye. He sat beside her staring at her face. He was staring at her like there was no tomorrow. She slowly looks up and a drop of water falls from her eyes. Looking at his emotional and pain-filled eyes she again looks down.

Arshad held her chin and made her look up. He didn't want to say anything or more like words were not coming out of his mouth. Everything felt so unreal and like a beautiful dream that he just didn't want to say anything which could break his dream.

Wiping her tears he cupped her face. He tilted his head a little, a single tear escape his eyes. Isha throw her arms around his neck and pulled him in a hug. She started crying burying her face in his chest. He didn't hug her as he felt she would disappear if he held her.

"Arsh" isha whispered which broke his trance. Wrapping his arms around her he held her closer and every emotion he was holding broke down. He cried remembering the moment she left him. He cried remembering all the painful nights he spent in their room alone. He cried cause he didn't cry all those times. He was holding that emotion in him which almost made him living corps.

Isha rubs his back trying to calm him as she felt his breathing heavy. She remember that he had a breakdown a couple of months ago and was afraid for his health.

"Arsh... Please... Don't cry. Mai yahi hun (I am right here)"

She pulled back and held his face. He was not looking at her. She wipes his face before kissing his forehead and then both eyes and cheeks and then nose before putting her forehead on his. She wanted to love him she wanted to feel him closer while he just sat there silently living the moments of love again.

"We have twin boys" she whispered making him open his eyes. She was smiling making him smile too.

"I met them" he whispers back making her whine.

"I couldn't," she said pouting. "I want to meet my babies."

"Our babies," he asserted kissing her forehead. She smiled.

Arshad had many things to talk about or more like anger to get out on her but for now, he just wants to live this moment of being the parent with his isha.

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How was it?

As I'm writing more about Sofia those days compare to other characters I'm loving and feeling her pain most but sadly I couldn't change anything as it will lose the spark of my story😢

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